listening to soon you'll get better by taylor swift and remembering how my great aunt said she liked the doctors on the icu, and how she talked about how the nurses were great, and how i used to wait till it got dark in my room to pray for a god i don't believe in, and how i was there with her in all times they allowed bc her fell out was sudden and my whole family was out of town except for me, and how she kept quiet until i came in to visit cause she was saving the little air she had to talk to me, and how in one of those quiet whispered conversations her words cut through my soul cause even the short breath couldn't keep her from wanting to comfort me by saying "it has been such a pleasure to help raise you", and how she did not know those words would never stop resonating within me, and how i did not know that would be our last conversation
when my heart stop spilling out of my chest from anxiety, and my legs stop bouncing, and i can fucking concentrate at anything at all you'll see my power
starting a new blog here is definitely a decision lol
i'd love you if and only if you were a worm. bitch
every day i say things that sound pretentious even to my own ears but i don't how to say them any other way so i just have to hope there's some nugget of truth in there that'll shine through my insufferable delivery
I have just learned that Mountain Goats are NOT, in fact, actual Goats.
does it ever drive you crazy how you have never met the present you? cause the second you process the present you it has already become the past you, so you have only ever met past versions of yourself, even if it was only for the matter of fractions of seconds
the song of achilles — madeline miller
night shift — stephen king
euripedes — anne carson
circe — madeline miller
a conjuring of light — v.e. schwab
west wind — mary oliver
the song of achilles — madeline miller
will there ever be a love more violent than the one between siblings?? i know father's love are harsh, and mother's love are softness wrapped with sharp edges, but siblings? siblings' love is brutal
worst part about getting angry is how much it makes you want to be mean
she/her • in my 20s • back to putting my thoughts on this hellsite
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