hello! So far you have made really good post, and it made me think, what if you made one about bakugou x y/n, they JUST started making out and started this thing where after class and even the cafeteria hours they would go to the roof top and make out, and then come back to class and act like nothing ever happened. Also somtimes he would throw a paper and secretly desk her under the desk where they would meet up. đ
when katsuki wants to make out during class
something soft hit your back, causing some giggles to be heard from around you. you raised your eyebrow, and when mister aizawa faced the chalkboard, you turned around to see nothing. a hand waved in front of your face, kaminariâs hand, to be exact, and his finger then pointed at the ground.
a crumpled-up ball of paper lay on the ground, so you bent over to grab it, opening the paper under your desk. maybe it had something in it. on on page, nothing was there, so you turned it to see the words âask to fill up your water bottleâ with a little explosion drawing at the end, which is how you figured out it was katsuki who wrote the note.
you grinned and raised your hand, throwing the paper into your backpack.
mister aizawa finally turned back to you and asked, âyes?â
âcan i please fill up my water bottle?â you held it up and shook it, and when no sloshing around was heard, he nodded.
you picked it up and walked outside the classroom, katsuki soon followed behind after he asked to go to the bathroom. he stomped after you, placing your water bottle next to the fountain before giving you a sly smile and gripping your hip. he shoved his lips onto yours and softly groaned, kissing you repeatedly, strings of saliva still connecting your lips after parting for a short period.
he lifted up your thigh, pressing it against his hip as he continued to kiss you. words havenât even been spoken yet, but it was clear what the two of you needed.
even after that, he continued to ask you to leave during class or lunch to spend time with you. he didnât just love you for your body, he didnât just want pleasure, he wanted you as a person. katsuki knew he wasnât good at expressing his emotions or love for people in a healthy way, but this was the only way he felt he could do it. it would always leave the two of you breathless, red, and even more in love.
to him, this was one of the most intimate acts someone could do, and he loved you with his whole soul. he never regretted skipping class to make out with you, besides when you heard a loud yell and chuckle from someone across the hall.
an annoyingly familiar voice rang in your ears, âhey, class 1-a! did you know two of your students, bakugo and l/n skip class just to make out in the halls?â monoma loudly chuckled, âclass 1-b would neverââ
he would always be smacked in the head by kendo, who would apologize and âleave the two of you be.â
that was one of the only times katsuki had felt embarrassed after making out with you.
hope you enjoyed this! iâm so happy you love my writing, your compliments mean the world to me. also, i gained around seven asks in one night so im trying to catch up, i apologize that i am not posting as often
Explosions in the Rain - K. Bakugo
When you were four years old, you were physically Katsuki Bakugoâs greatest pain in the ass.
Your Quirk was Precipitation, which allowed you to control and manipulate water, but specifically water from the atmosphere or the air around you, such as the rain. For as long as you could remember, whenever Bakugo created those annoyingly loud and intrusive explosions of his, you would also gather the water particles in the air around you and drop water at his hands to stop the explosion. You effortlessly pissed him off to no end, especially when you would always stop him from bullying Izuku.
He hated it; how you got so used to stopping him from creating his explosions to the point where you could even predict when, where, and how he was going to use them. You read him like a book, and he despised it. He despised how well you knew him, despised how perceptive you were despite only being four and the same age as him, and despised how you made him feel weak.
When you were twelve years old, you were mentally Bakugoâs greatest pain in the ass.
Itâs already been established for the past eight years that you had grown completely and utterly familiar with Bakugo and his Quirk. But twelve was a difficult age for everyone; most people were entering puberty, it was the time of inexperienced preteens doing things that they will regret later in life, and most people began to understand their crushes.
Bakugo wasnât most people. When his heart raced whenever you spoke or bickered with him, he assumed that he was just getting adrenaline from âwinningâ the argument (he usually always lost in the end). Whenever his face reddened when you accidentally brushed his hand or touched him, he just assumed that he was angry. Whenever you defended Izuku from Bakugo, he always assumed that he was pissed because of the sole fact that you were defending Deku of all people.
When you were sixteen years old, you were supposedly Bakugoâs greatest pain in the ass.
You were both first years at UA, and despite your constant arguing, name calling, and childlike behavior with each other, everyone always assumed at first meeting that you were both dating but just had particularly strange ways of showing affection. They had even spread rumors that you were both dating--although you were both used to it, as the same thing used to happen in middle school.
You both denied those rumors, although deep inside of Bakugoâs heart, he did want those rumors to be true. However, even with the knowledge from the both of you that the rumors were false, most people still assumed that you were both in love. After all, you both always looked for each other during a villain attack and stuck to each otherâs side. No one will ever forget just how fragmented your mental state was when Bakugo was kidnapped by the League of Villains, and how you cried when you and a few others managed to get him back.
When you were seventeen, Bakugo realized that you were never his greatest pain in the ass, but his greatest soft spot and weakness.
How absolutely heartwrenching your scream was when he basically died. How he felt his soul leave his body when you saw you bloody and unconscious. How he held you close when the war ended and you both narrowly survived.
And finally, finally, he realized that all this time, he never despised the feelings you gave him. He adored it, and he began to relish in it. The red on his cheeks and how you held his heart in your hands and never once dropped it. How he loved you.
When you were twenty-two years old, you truly became Bakugoâs greatest weakness.
Or perhaps we should change how we address him to Katsuki, as Bakugo is now also your last name.
The cold golden ring against your finger was a small yet impactful sensation, enough to make you tear up. Youâve always dreamed of this day, of getting married to the one you loved most. And standing right in front of you at the altar was your dearest Katsuki, who you refused to allow to wear makeup to cover up his scars. âToday, we are here to celebrate the knot of two wonderful young soulsâŠâ the priest began.
As the priest finished his long speech, Katsuki leaned in, and right before he kissed you, he muttered something. âYou know, growing up, you were my biggest pain in the ass.â
âSame with you.â You murmured, chuckling breathily. His eyes softened before cupping your cheek with a calloused hand.
âIâll love growing old with you just as much as I did growing up with you. I love you.â
He kissed you after those words, and finally, you eternally became Katsukiâs greatest weakness.
This was made on a whim, and this is also my first time ever writing for MHAâŠdo tell me what you think of this lmao
"my pretty girl"
I'm unzipping your jeans with my teeth.
omg i just had an idea. you know those origami cat rings? how would dazai react if the reader made one of those for him and for herself, so that they can have matching rings? đ
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"what're you doing?" dazai asks, looking over your shoulder and down at the small colorful piece of paper you're fiddling with. there's a small stack of the same papers nearby, each delicately folded into what look like rings. you don't immediately reply, too immersed in whatever you're folding.
dazai rests his chin on your shoulder and watches you expertly fold the paper in your hand into yet another ring. they're nothing fancy â they're essentially just strips of paper with two triangles sticking out. as dazai observes for a little while longer, he realizes what they're supposed to be â cat rings, just like the ones he saw kyouka exchanging with yosano and atsushi that morning.
after you use a fine-tipped black marker to scribble a cat face on the ring in your hand, you turn and show it to dazai. it's a little wrinkled and one eye's bigger than the other, but the smile on your face makes it nearly perfect in his eyes. "what do you think?" you ask, tilting your head slightly. somehow, dazai's vaguely reminded of a puppy when he takes in the way you look at him â so content and at ease.
dazai moves one hand from his pocket to your hand, plucking the ring out of your fingers and lifting it up to his eye-level. the faintly confused hm? that slips out of your lips melts his heart, and a soft smile curves the corners of his mouth upwards. "it's so cute," he replies, pressing a kiss to your cheek. his lips linger, and his breath is minty and cool. "just like you," he continues, reaching up and pinching one of your cheeks with his other hand.
you scrunch up your nose, and you're rewarded with a dramatic rendition of dazai tilting his head back and pretending to faint. "really, darling," he sighs, "you have to be the cutest girl i've ever had the pleasure of meeting." still wrapped around you from behind, dazai slips the cat ring onto your ring finger with a cheeky smile. "and hopefully, you'll be the last."
triple black
bungou stray dogs x gojo! reader
masterlist of infinity
â°â€ CW(s): major spoilers for bungou stray dogs (dragonâs head conflict), jujutsu kaisen (gojoâs past arc and jujutsu kaisen 0 is heavily referenced) and mentions of violence
â°â€ SYNOPSIS: an alternate universe in which the young holder of the six eyes and limitless ability user is under the influence of port mafia rather than heiwa, along with two other young mafiosos, nakahara chuuya and dazai osamu.
â°â€ PAIRING(s): 17! dazai & 17! chuuya x 17! reader (no established relationship, can be romantic or platonic)
â°â€ WORD COUNT: 3.4k+
honestly didnât know what i was going for, but hereâs a drabble i made while stressing over school :â) enjoy
chuuya and dazai were about seventeen years old when the port mafia boss summoned them both to his office. it has been roughly a year since the dragonâs head conflict, an 88-day underground conflict in yokohama between various underground organizations that is regarded as the darkest conflict in the cityâs history. it has also been a year since the formation of double black.
however, being an underground organization always meant violence and bloodshed, resulting in the emergence of another conflict, this time fought solely by the port mafia, so the two young mafiosi werenât surprised when an underground organization had declared war on theirâs.
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Crap, he was staring.
The suddeness of the realization whiplashed dazai and he pried his eyes away from you. He fumbled with his pen, twirling it around his bandaged fingers once, then twice before setting it down with a sigh. Untouched paperword was strewn about his desk and dazai didn't want to work on it.
He'd rather spend his hours staring at you as you worked, even if it meant getting yelled at by kunikida. His coworker hadn't figured out how dazai had fell hard for you, and dazai'd like to keep it that way.
He rested his chin in the palm of his hand, glancing your way but not turning his head even if it strained his eyes to look at you like that, but it didn't matter to him.
Even a glimpse of you was enough for him.
He watched in pure awe and adoration for you as you did simple, mundane things; leaning back in your chair and staring at the ceiling for a second. The slight crinkle in your nose and the way your brows knitted together, it made him want to walk over there beside you and kiss the wrinkled tension off your pretty face.
The thought of doing that made dazai's heart flutter in his chest.
With a sigh, he laid face-down on his desk with a groan, running his fingers through messy, knotted brown waves.
Why does he have to be stupidly infatuated with you? He drummed his fingers on the hardwood of his desk, sighing and pulling his head up.
He got up from his chair, nearly tipping his chair over and scaring poor atsushi. The boy stammered something to dazai- probably about where was he going- but dazai hadn't heard. He took in a glimpse of you before walking out the agency.
You hadn't even noticed him leave.
Dazai made his way down to the cafe under the agency, not even sparing a glance at the waitress he'd normally flirt with as he walked out of the door.
He needed out. He needed to get away from you and his feelings for you. He needed to go anywhere but near you-
Even if his heart drew him to you.
Walking down the street, dazai tried to think of anything but you.
Oh, that bird is building a nest. Oh, there's a flower growing in the fissures of the street.
Just like you grew a place in the cracks of his heart.
He stopped, someone bumped into his shoulder and quickly apologised before hurrying away.
He's thinking of you again.
A pause, then Dazai continued his walk back to the agency dorms. This time, he's allowing you to flood his mind and haunt his every thought as you had done to his wretched, blacked heart.
He loves you.
To dazai, the mere thought of you is more addictive than the cheap sake he delights in every night, the cheap canned crab he enjoys so much. It makes his heart race more than the rush of adrenaline during a near-death experience; the kind that screams he's alive and he's lived, even if he doesn't believe it.
Dazai may be an intelligent man, but when it came to you he was nothing more than the foolish boy he never got to be.
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A/N: wrote this at 10 pm on a crappy ass phone and I have school tomorrow so I'll add a header and shit tmmrw jpxhpxhlxpgxllg im so tiredddddd and still sick wah
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currently thinking about bakugo âitâs not that deepâ katsuki.
katsukiâs got a temper that makes him more chalant than not, but when it comes to everything else the blonde is relativelyâŠunreactive. itâs not like he tries to be that way, he just has to be. when youâre surrounded by idiots like denki & sero on a daily basis, you eventually learn to choose your fucks & allocate them wisely.
âbakugo, class 1-Bâs been hogging the hero equipmentâhow do we train now ?â
âitâs never that deep, tape face. just go later yâdumbassâ
âbakubro, i think my situationship just blocked meââ
âliterally just move on. really not that serious.â
the phrase has practically become katsukiâs signature one liner. so itâs a shock when his friends make you realize youâve never actually heard the words from his lips.
âkatsuki ? and nonchalant ? in the same sentence ? you must be joking.â
mina & sero are watching outer banks with your laptop while denki & kiri glance at each other in confusion. âyouâre serious? heâs never said stuff like that to you ?â
âlike ever?â
ânever.â you run a brush through your hair. âthough i guess i could imagine him talking to you guys that way.â
âdouble standards go crazyâ mina mumbles. âreal.â
âno, guysâall hope is not lost. it could be that y/n is really rational so he never has to say it, you feel me ?â
you scoff, but denki keeps talking, âwe can test this out. just get y/n to act really dramatic and see how bakugo reacts.â
sero pauses the episode, ignoring the scowl that graces minaâs lips. âfifty bucks there really is a double standard and bakugo wonât act all nonchalant.â
âfifty bucks ? thatâs half my salary!â
ânot my fault you work at mcdonaldâs dawg. you guys in or what ?â
kiriâs quick to strike the deal on kaminariâs behalf. denkiâs about to protest when the fiery blond walks in.
âdisgusting. why are you all sitting around like degenerates? not you baby.â
âwhat happened to âhello, how are you?ââ
âhi âsuki.â you purr, ignoring sero. katsuki dips his head to peck your lips, a quiet âhey prettyâ mumbled into your cheek.
sero snaps his fingers at the display of affection. âexcuse me? in front of my obx?â
âthe one youâre watching with my netflix subscription?â bakugo snaps the laptop shut and mina protests with a mouth full of popcorn. youâre about to playfully defend the duo when kirishima nudges your elbow. he cocks his head towards bakugo and you understand immediately.
âkatsuki,â you tug at the hem of your boyfriendâs sleeve & look into his eyes with the most tender expression you can muster. âiâm out of lipliner.â
âokay ?â
you hear a snort and you know itâs from sero.
âthereâs nothing âokayâ about it âsuki. i need a new one or else iâll literally die.â
bakugoâs brows knit in confusion. âis this your way of begging me for money?â he begins to dig at his wallet and you swat his arm away.
âbeg is insane.â
âi donât need your money.â you snap. âi need my lipliner. nowâ
âjust orderââ ânow.â
âwhat do you mean now? itâs almost nine pm, where the fuck are you going ?â
ânowhere. i just need it.â
âdo you have a fever ?â âkatsuki!â
âi need it now âsuki,â you hug your arms around his body and place your chin on his chest. âif i donât get it right now iâm literally gonna cry.â
your lips jut into a pout. you can tell heâs about to protest so you take his palm into your own. âitâs not thatâfuck. whatever. where the hell are my keys ?â
he gently nudges you off him before grabbing the car keys off the front table, a string of grumbles leaving his lips as he sets out on the side quest regardless. he shuts the door behind him & suddenly the room buzzes back to life.
ây/n your pussy cannot be that good.â
âliterally what iâm saying bro.â
âho did you use rose quartz on him ??â
âi always knew you were a witch for real.â
âthis whole interaction just piss me off.â
âiâm going home. denki and kiri, you owe me fifty bucks each.â
âEACH ?â
( bonus )
itâs nearly half an hour later & katsuki isnât back so youâre starting to get worried. sero and the gang have already left, leaving you to deal with the growing anxiety by yourself. you finally decided to text your boyfriend only to find heâs sent you several messages already:
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âAnd the winner of the UA Sports Festival for his third year in a row, Katsuki Bakugo!â
The frequency of Present Micâs voice reverbs through the stadium, mixing with the roar of the crowd as the realization sets in â you lost. But you didnât go down without a fight, pushing yourself and Bakugo to your absolute limits at almost an hour long duel. You assume heâs standing proudly on the other side of the arena, hands on his hips with that cocky smirk of his as everyone celebrates him for claiming the top spot once moreâŠbut no.
Heâs running, sprinting over to you.
Youâre on your feet right as he bursts into your personal bubble, arms wrapping around your waist and picking you up effortlessly. He spins the two of you, a genuine boyish grin on his face underneath the dirt and sweat, his celebratory cheers echoing in your ears.
âKatsuki!â You chuckle when he puts you back on your feet. âThe hell are you doing? I lost, go get your trophy!â
Bakugo shakes his head and flicks your forehead. âAlready got it.â
Dazai âïž
donât look at me with them slutty brown eyes ill get nervous đ
CHOKE ME BITE ME!!
cw ; sub!dazai, fem!reader, choking, p in v sex, unprotected sex (stay safe), slight degradation(she calls him a freak and a slut), not proofread
a/n ; no I didn't write this to distract from wicked games idk what ur talking abt.
Dazai hates pain. At least that's what he tells everyone, but you knew otherwise. Well, if the way he was writhing with your hand around his throat had anything to do with it.
âmmfph! Baby Iâ hnghâ need moreâ câmon, please-â he begged, bucking his hips up into your sweet cunt, desperate for more friction that you refused to offer. You clicked your tongue, applying more pressure to his throat, cutting off his oxygen.
âYou're a freak, Osamuâ getting off to this?â You questioned, emphasizing your point by wrapping your other hand around his pretty neck. His cock twitched against your cervix at the action, tossing his head back with a choked moan. âYesâ pleaseâ haahâ I need more, please moveââ
You'd be lying if you said that having a man like Dazai plead beneath you didn't flip a switch. A satisfied hum bubbled in the back of your throat as you raised your hips enough to his tip before slamming down on him.
âAargh! Fuck! Don'tâ don't stop, please-â He cried, his jaw clenching from pleasure. You wish you had your phone to take a picture, he looked breathtaking. His eyes were rolled to the back of his head, hair matted to his forehead, and your lipstick smeared all over his lips. Maybe another time.
âDon't youâ fuckâ dare cum âtil I say so, y'damn slut.â You breathed, chasing your release as the coil in your tummy tightened. His hands were holding onto your hips for dear life, there will definitely be marks there tomorrow. You could feel his Adam's apple bob beneath your fingers, a reminder of your previous actions.
Dazai whined for another minute or so, his rambles coming to an end. He was trying not to give away the fact his orgasm was creeping up on him. You could have laughed if he wasn't rearranging your guts right now. However, he still needed tooâ
âPlease, lemme cumâ needaâ fuuuckâ cum inside you, babyââ How could you resist when he asked so nicely? You swallowed thickly as you grew closer to the edge, giving him a brief nod before sinking your teeth into his pale shoulder and grasping his neck tighter than before.
He planted his feet on the bed, thrusting up into you to meet your hips, tearing a moan from your throat. His length slid against your gooey walls, hitting your sweet spots with easy precision. "'samuâ! 'm gonna cumâ fuck!"
"F-fuck, feels s'goodâ y'er pussyâ haahâ feels s'good, so tight, shit!" He cried out, your back arching as his thumb found your clit and drew tight circles on the bud. Your back arched, a broken moan slipping past your lips. "C'mon, cum with meâ hnnghâ please-"
He always ended up getting his way. It wasn't even a minute later that he was filling your cunt with his hot load, his own orgasm triggering your own. "Osamuâ haah fuck!" Your hands finally freed his throat and your jaw fell slack as you reached your release.
Black spots clouded your vision for a moment before you fell limp on his chest, panting heavily as the afterglow settled. His breathing could be heard over your own, a telltale of his need for oxygen. You glanced up at him, his cheeks red and eyes closed as he caught his breath.
"'samu, I didn'tâ" "No, you didn't go overboard, 'donna." He cut you off, his voice a bit hoarse from your precious endeavors. Those pretty brown eyes of his fluttered open, meeting yours with a soft yet rare look. "I promise."
You took the reassurance with a smile, however, you were suddenly flipped over by Dazai, a hungry look in his eyes. "Now, let's see how much power you have with me on top this time."
it's been decades since you've last seen dazai; your lover & your maker. now that you're finally happy, he's haunting you again with a thousand buried memories.
overall contents. fem!reader, nsfw minors dni, exes to lover, gothic romance, blood drinking, vampire!reader, vampire!dazai, smut, cheating reader, complicated relationships, blood, gore, jealousy, manipulation, religious symbolism, betrayal, reunions â currently at 21k words
PART III â° MASTERLIST
Night after night, you returned to the bar to indulge in the taste of Dazai, the single ambrosia from Heaven that your ill-forgotten God had bestowed upon the earth. How lucky you were, you believed, to be the sole being that he would share himself with completely; no one else would know such bliss.
The conversation started out as little, but as the days and nights continued, you found yourself seeping into his presence, remembering just how easy it was and would always be. Osamu was your sole addiction, and like any weak person would, you continued to return to your vice.
Each moment you spent with him was like a beginning and end. A longing for a time that you could never return to and a fresh start all at once. Unlike the man from your old memories, he never turned to smirk at the women that were leering at him, brown irises focused only on the small quip of your lips as he drew an exhale of a laugh from you.
His humor was dry, and Dazai teased you often, but he wasnât unkindâhe wasnât the evil monster that you remembered him being, even in the moments that you loved him with every ounce of your body and soul.
For the first time in his life, he opened up to you, told you things that he had never told anyone before. His life had been a mystery to you for decades; heâd kept it sheltered inside of him, a vulnerability that he would never let any enemy capitalize on. Now, though, he trusted you, perhaps in a way that he didnât think he could until youâd spent time apart.
If you hadnât turned on him in his darkest moments, sought to end him in a way that heâd always claimed to want, then certainly, at least a fraction of your love was true.
Despite all of that, though, you kept everything about your relationship transactional. You met up with him, gave him an ear and shared some of your own trials from the times you were apart. At the end of it all, you considered him nothing more than the man you once loved, the one that had turned you when youâd been at the lowest point of your life.
The relationship you shared could never be explained by a singular word. It was years of tragedy and misery and a love so deep that it consumed you from the inside out until it destroyed you.
That love would always be there. Youâd always love him, but you were resolved to letting him go. This time, you could close this chapter of your life, could end things with Dazai on a note that didnât leave a bitter taste in your mouth. You could become a person outside of him, could love Atsushi and learn what your new immortal life would be like with a man that had a silver heart, instead of one encased in iron.
Every night, when you left the bar and crawled back into bed with Atsushi, thatâs what you reminded yourself of. If he ever grew suspicious of your activity, he never made note of it, and he stopped mentioning the deaths that had increased tenfold, the ones that were bleeding him dry and exhausting him to the point of collapse.
When three weeks had passed, and things had continued in the same vein, Atsushi reached his breaking point. His eyes were red, dark circles around them, his cheeks hollow. Somehow, you hadnât noticed how much weight heâd lost until then, how pale his skin had become.
Atsushi had waited up for you, his knees curled up in his chest as he sat against the headboard. There was something vacant about his eyes, the life that lingered there had nearly disappeared.
Guilt clawed its way up your body until it tasted like nausea, and you wanted to vomit from the horrid emotion that took control. In every possible way, youâd neglected the man that was supposed to be the love of your life, turned a blind eye to spend time with the vampire that had once broken you so completely. It was a sickening twist of fate, and you had no idea how to even begin apologizing.
âAtsushi,â you said, the syllables tumbling out of your dry lips.
Though, you didnât get far with whatever miserable statement you were attempting to make. Atsushi sighed, and looked up at the ceiling, tipping his head back as he rang his fingers together. âTheyâre sending me away for a week. Starting tomorrow.â
It took you a moment to process his words. You stared back at him, before rushing towards the bed, not bothering to kick off your shoes. âWhat?â you asked, aghast. âFor more work? Atsushi, look at you. Some days, you can hardly stand.â
He shook his head, smiling softly as you came into his orbit. Atsushiâs hands were soft on your thigh, even though you couldnât feel a thing under the thick layers of your dress. His purple eyes were full of an intense love, but so different than the predatory, desperate affection that Dazai had always shared.
You stiffened under his palm, hating that Dazai even crossed your mind. Atsushi retracted his hand, eyebrows narrowing together.
âItâs not for more work,â he said, yawning, despite himself. âThey want me to take a break. Get out of the city and away from the murders for a while.â Atsushi laughed, though it was bitter and self-deprecating. âI donât blame them. Iâm a detective, and I canât handleââ
âAtsushi, theyâre gruesome. Theyâre vile. That doesnât make you weak, that means youâre caring.â You deflated, crawling over to him to hold his cheek gently. âAny normal person would vomit at the sight of that. You shouldnât be criticizing yourself for something like that.â
His frown deepened, but he said nothing.
âCan I come too?â you asked, even though you knew it would be difficult. There wasnât enough time to plan, enough time to figure out an alternative to Dazaiâs blood while you were in proximity to Atsushi.
Something that, you began to realize, would quickly become an issue. As long as Atsushi was human, you would always run the risk of hurting him.
Atsushi shook his head, finally, lacing his fingers in with yours against his cheek. âI think itâs best if I go alone. I need some time to process everything, and I think Iâll rest more this way.â
âBut I donât want you to be alone with all those horrible thoughts,â you frowned. âYouâll ruminate on them, and I donât want you to come back feeling even worse than before.â
âIâll be fine,â he promised. âI love you, but I want to worry about this on my own. Can you understand that?â
You were silent, a part of you secretly relieved, but evenly concerned. It seemed like the first step Atsushi might take in pushing you away, even if you had been the one to topple the first domino.
âAlright,â you finally said, standing once again to change into your night clothes. âCome back immediately if you donât think youâre okay. Can you promise me that, at least?â
Atsushi nodded.
He left the next day.
You arrived at the bar earlier than Dazai, this time, your usual barstools occupied by two old men smoking new cigars. Instead, you sat at the table by the piano, with the woman that had long since learned Dazai wasnât interested.
The bartender made you a drink you hadnât asked for, finally taking his shot in the dark now that Dazai wasnât around. Although you took it, you politely refused conversation, staring ahead at the wall instead, in the hopes that your once lifelong companion would hurry.
It had been two days since Atsushi had gone away, and youâd avoided Dazai in the meantime. An unwise decision, considering that your hunger had only increased tenfold in the hours that you were holed up in your apartment. There was nothing to occupy you there but a collection of books youâd already read and a piano that Atsushi hadnât tuned in ages.
You tapped your fingers against the table impatiently. The door chimed again. This time, when you looked up, a pair of dark eyes were staring back, feet already dragging him across the room to greet you.
Dazai pulled out the chair, raising his eyebrows at your sour expression. âI take it somethingâs wrong?â
âAtsushi left,â you said, crossing your arms over your chest as you leaned back in the chair. âHeâs been overworking himself, trying to figure out who this mass murderer is thatâs roaming the streets. I have to sit there with a pretty smile and pretend I have no idea whatâs happening at all.â
âYou donât have to. You could tell him everything, turn me over to him and spill every secret Iâve ever told you to the vampire hunters that will certainly come after me.â Dazai smiled lazily, leaning over the table. âYou could do that. Why donât you?â
You made a face at him. As if it wasnât obvious that if you hadnât turned him over already, then you wouldnât do it now. Perhaps it was for the sake of all the good memories that youâd shared over the century. Perhaps it was only the fact that his blood had turned you into something immortal, and that part of your soul would never let you turn him over.
It didnât really matter. That just wasnât an option.
âYou promised youâd cover your tracks better,â you said, ignoring his previous question to lean further over the table. âYouâve killed more people than live in my neighborhood, all in the span of a month. How can you sit there and pretend likeââ you stopped, hushing as someone from two tables over began to listen in. âOsamuâŠâ
âIâve hidden my tracks better than you realize. I have centuries of experience, and I donât need you to worry about that.â He shook his head, reaching for you across the table.
For once, you let him. Dazai gave a small smile as he took your hand, caressing the crease between your thumb and index finger.
âI canât keep up with your increasing appetite on my usual diet,â he said, squeezing your palm once more before releasing it. âYou cannot continue living with this human on a diet of animal blood, and I cannot continue feeding you without feeding off twice as many people.â He pinned you with his steely gaze, and, against every rational part of your being, you pressed your thighs together, shifting uncomfortably.
âYou donât have to drain them, Osamu. Let them live.â
He laughed, leaning away from you. âWell, I certainly havenât been killing everyone, sweetheart. Just enough to keep your precious little pet busy. That way, heâll never notice that his lovely fiancĂ© is sneaking off to see her much more charming lover.â
You clenched your jaw, digging your nails so sharply into your thighs that blood dribbled down your legs. None of that shouldâve come as a shock to you. That Dazai would plan something so elaborate, that he would lure you away from Atsushi; it was exactly the kind of plot that he would weave.
âYouâre such a fool,â you spat, shaking your head as you turned away to face the door once more. It chimed as people came in and out, leaving the bar only by stumbling over their feet. It was too early; much too early for anyone to be such a mess. âIâm never going to love you again, Osamu. You lie, and you lie, and you lie.â
Dazaiâs eyes flashed. âIs that the case?â He peered into every crevice of your face, into your soul, into the truths of your heart that were stripped bare by understanding. âFrom where Iâm sitting, youâre the liar. You donât tell the human where youâre going, and you pretend that you donât have to tear yourself away from me every time you have a taste of my blood.â
He seemed far too proud of himself for you to be anything but irritated.
âWe arenât friends, Osamu. This is nothing more than a way for me to survive. Donât pretend to know otherwise.â
âNo, we never really have been friends, have we?â he laughed. âYet, I never ran out of reasons to love you. Even more, I find something about you that I adore, something that I didnât already know.â
You set your jaw, finally turning back to him. There was an openness to his features, a small smile that sent you whirling.
Every time he reminded you of his pure adoration, you tripped back over yourself, stumbling into a person that you havenât been in half a century, one that lost all her senses when it came to an ancient vampire with those burning eyes.
âYou donât mean anything to me,â you said, and though Dazai was grinning at you, knowing too well that you were lying, you kept your voice steady. âWeâve both agreed to keep this relationship as it is, so donât push your luck.â
âIf thatâs the case, then come back to my hotel with me,â he whispered, almost like a command, like he could twist your mind the same way that he could a humanâs. âYou can have as much as you want without worrying that someone will walk around the corner.â
âNo,â you shook your head fiercely, not allowing your mind to wander into that territory. You thought of all the times youâd had Dazai laid out on your bed, ripping into his throat as he came inside of you. Heat rose to your cheeks, and you dug your fingers harder into your thigh. âIt doesnât matter if anyone sees, you and I both know that you can just erase their memories.â
He huffed. âBut itâs so much more enjoyable in private, isnât it?â
âNo.â
He drew your name out on his lips, teasing and lighthearted. You denied one more time, clenching your jaw.
Dazai was silent. Youâd thought that youâd won, that you could get your way with him once and for all. You made your way to your feet, ready to walk out in the alley and launch yourself at him. Perhaps this time, you would finally bleed him dry. Then, heâd be weak enough for you to kill, and youâd never have to put up with him again.
Though, none of that happened. Dazaiâs expression shifted at the drop of a pin, turning into one of flat stoicism. His tone was no longer playful, and it instead became deep and serious, one that he saved for so few occasions because he knew what it did to you.
âSit back down.â
You glared, feeling the annoyance twist into something different. âAnd if I donât?â
âYouâll do what I say, or you wonât get any of my blood, sweetheart.â Though you nearly snapped the chair at the sound of his deepened voice, you followed his directions. Something had been set aflame deep within you, and he was a cheating bastard, cruel and conniving and everything that youâd once held dear. âGood girl,â he said in a whisper that only your vampiric hearing could translate.
You stared at him, too afraid that if you moved a muscle, you would lose every ounce of your composure.
His eyes raked over you, eyelashes fluttering over his cheekbones before settling on your flushed cheeks, the way you shifted uncomfortably, repeating Atsushiâs name over in your head, even though it started to sound suspiciously like Osamu.
âYouâll come back with me now, wonât you?â
Dazai watched for a moment longer as you squirmed under his steely gaze, and then his lips broke into a smile, like heâd just won a game and you were his prize for the taking.
âNothing more,â you said, your words far too weak and wispy to come from your own throat. âI want your blood and nothing more.â
He raised an eyebrow, leaning over the table two get close to your ear. âDonât lie to me. I can smell how wet youâre getting.â
You flew out of the chair, taking two steps backward before you crashed into the waitress, who dropped the tray of drinks all over the floor, cursing at you as the glasses shattered.
âIâm sorry,â you mumbled, flustered as you remembered the last time something like that had happened, and it all seemed too familiar that you wondered if you had already died and this was your own brand of personal hell.
Resisting Dazai seemed more of a feat than braving the seven circles.
âIâm sorry,â you said again, and you backed up once more, crashing into Dazaiâs chest, the smell of him all so overwhelming that you were salivating, desperate. He held you tightly to him, snaking a possessive arm around your waist.
âIâm sorry about my darling wife. Sheâs had a very stressful week.â
Something about that word made you weak in the knees, and you were only held up by Dazaiâs strong embrace, forced to let his strength carry you. For decades, youâd lived in marriage, and heâd never referred to you as such. Never had Atsushi muttered the word so lyrically, had never drawn it out on his tongue in a way that made you desperate for him.
It was special when it came from Dazai. You could only melt from it.
The woman said nothing as Dazai dragged you away, forced you to gain control of yourself before you were out of the bar. Just a few steps and you would be outside, free to take what you wanted, the drink of ambrosia just inches from your lips.
âLet me, âsamu,â you said, your voice small as soon as you reached the cool, evening air. âIâm so hungry.â
Though, he wouldnât let you indulge, kept your lips from his vein as he smiled, brushing your hair away from your face. âNot yet, sweetheart. Be patient.â
You were buzzing, vibrating under your skin with anticipation, and if it wasnât for Dazaiâs strong grip on your arm, you wouldâve lunged after one of the passersby. The scent of him so near to you drove you to the brink of insanity. Yet, he refused to let you so much as kiss his dark vein, keeping you at a distance as he waited for a carriage.
Neither of you spoke until you got to his hotel, one of the finest in the city, paid for by the centuries of wealth he had accumulated.
Dazai greeted those who walked out the door like they were old friends, a sideways smile at the man who stood behind the desk. They let him pass with nothing more than cheerful grins, already adoring the beautiful vampire with the sensual air that never seemed to leave him.
âAlmost there, my darling,â he whispered under his breath, hushed and sultry. âThen, I promise you can take as much as you want.â
You ached, clutching onto his arm, your lust, hunger, and undying love all hitting you at once. It was like you were drowning in it, swallowed whole by the man that you wanted so deeply, so passionately. You needed him like a mortal needed air, even if you refused to let yourself accept it.Â
Dazai shut the door, locked it. You barely had time to register your surroundings, the finest linens and carpets that were draped across the room.
Instead, all you could stare at were his lipsâthe perfect shape of them, the perfect curve. How soft they appeared in the dark light of the evening, and how much you wanted to kiss them.
One time.
That would be all. It would be enough to get him out of your system, and then youâd never have to see him again.
With a speed that would have been imperceptible to a human, Dazai was upon you, his hands on your jaw tightly as he backed you into a wall, kissing you with every ounce of passion within him. His nails drew blood from your cheeks, seeping between the cracks in his fingers as you kissed him so hard that his lips bruised.
You werenât sure what to do with your hands, so you touched him all over, his jaw, his shoulders, the lean expanse of his chest. He pressed himself closer, and you could feel him straining against his pants, the bulge so prominent that it had only been hidden by his coat before.
âDo you understand what you do to me? How badly I crave you?â He was kissing you over and over, across your jaw, down your neck, licking a long stripe from your ear to your collarbone before nuzzling his nose just below your ear. âLet me,â he said, digging his nails into your hips as he held you against the wall. âFuck. I need to taste you.â
âNo,â you said, but it was weak, and you were slowly falling apart under him. âNo, Osamu.â
âIâve stopped myself so many times.â He pressed open-mouthed kisses against your neck, and you could feel his fangs slip out, so smooth and white. âThe blood of a fallen angel, stripped of her grace by the man she loves so dearly. Such a beautiful resolution to this show youâre putting on.â
You were hot from the tips of your toes all the way to your forehead, and though Dazai didnât bite you, you were too close to giving in, to letting him take from every part of you.
Before he could act on his urges, you gripped his hair, yanked him away from your neck and sank your teeth into his own vein instead.
Dazai let out a moan as his blood flooded into your mouth, his fingers tracing your spine. As you drank, your grip on Dazai slackened, before you were falling, losing yourself in him.
You were so dazed from the blood, you werenât sure when you moved, when he had gotten you across the room into his lap. He set you on his thigh, his hands guiding your hips along the lean muscles there, dragging your clit along the ridges of his slacks.
ââsamu,â you gasped into his mouth, aching with need and want and everything in between. His pupils had dilated, eyes darkening with mischief as he bumped his leg against you once more, sending a jolt through you that had you tearing at his skin, spilling more blood into your mouth. âI shouldnât want you.â Your breath caught. âI hate you.â
âI love you.â He said just as quickly, and smiled, petting your hair as you latched onto his vein, guiding your hips so you were riding his thigh. The friction was just enough for you to need more, for your arousal to seep through your panties, the cloth already wet. âTake what you need from me. Everything.â
You tore yourself away from his throat and kissed him, letting him taste his own blood as you pressed one of his hands to your breast.
His eyes flashed, and he cupped the outside of your dress, tearing right down the middle of the garment to expose your chest. Dazai kissed down your clavicle, swirling his tongue around the place where your heart no longer beat, before sucking your nipple into his mouth.
You moaned, throwing your head back while Dazai kissed you, curling his tongue in a practiced mannerâheâd always known you from the inside out.
âSuch beautiful noises,â he muttered, the words from his lips vibrating against your breast. âIt makes me sick to know that another man has heard you like this. That someone can think their devotion to you is even a fraction of everything Iâve ever felt about you.â
Tears sprung to your eyes, bloody and red as Dazai rocked you against his thigh, pressed your aching cunt into his strong muscle. âYour love for me is unhealthy. Itâs twisted.â
âI may not love you in the way that you want, but to the very deepest part of your soul, you know that I love you the way you need.â Dazaiâs eyes were blown wide with lust, the irises a shade so dark they were nearly black. He looked every bit the true predator that he was, the absolute devil that had been put on this earth to destroy.
You threaded your fingers through his hair as Dazai kissed between your breasts, right below your neck, worshiping every bit of your body. âYou tear me to pieces, Osamu.â
âDoesnât matter. Every last piece of you belongs to me,â he said, bouncing his thigh just enough that you were gasping, tearing his skin as your clit caught on the fabric between you.
You were close, so close to your release, and youâd nearly forgotten how easily Dazai could make a mess of you.
âYour little human pet doesnât take care of you, does he?â Dazai asked, cupping the soft skin of your breast, squeezing delicately before flicking the nipple with his thumb. âDidnât even get to put my mouth on that pretty pussy and youâve already ruined my pants.â
You flushed, hot as you sped the strokes of your hip, your grip so tight that your nails had claimed a home in Dazaiâs bicep. The breaths that left your lips were so ragged it was almost shameful, that so little had happened, and you were already his for the taking.
âOsamu,â you said, the word barely a sound at all. âOsamu.â
âI know.â He shifted his head to reveal the bite mark that hadnât quite healed, the vein that you hadnât quite finished drinking from. âYou need to cum so bad, donât you, sweetheart? Havenât been fucked properly since you left me.â Dazai smiled, dropping your head to his neck so you could smell his sweet aroma once more, could indulge in the taste of him. âMy beautiful girl sleeps in another manâs bed every night, and he canât even take care of her.â
You contemplated arguing, telling him that it wasnât true, that Atsushi had always pleased you, had always made sure that your own pleasure came before his. But it was nothing compared to Dazai, nothing compared to the bright lights that flashed behind your eyes as he touched you, the gates of heaven opening up for two monsters that didnât deserve something so holy.
âIâm so close,â you said, your teeth just barely breaking his skin. âPlease, Osamu.â
âYou donât know how badly I want you right now. How much I missed sinking into you, feeling you so tight around me.â Dazai gripped your own thighs harder, his voice raspy and hoarse. âI promised you I wouldnât kill him, but, god, I want to.â
You felt the sharp snap of something within you, and you bit down hard on Dazaiâs neck, his sweet blood too much when it was mixed with the orgasm that hit you all at once. There was a fog in your mind, nothing there besides his name, his voice, his scent, and you started to wonder why youâd ever wanted anyone but him.
How much you wanted to love him, how badly you craved to indulge in it had, really, never been the question. Youâd always been painfully in love with Osamu Dazai, hadnât you? â and you were certain it had started the moment you met him, decades ago.
Tears fell down your lashes, and Dazai brushed them away, pulled you tight in his arms as you finally unlatch from his skin. All over, you buzzed from the feeling that only his blood could make you feel.
Dazai held you so close, shielding you from something you couldnât discern, and you felt so lost, so confused, dazed from the man who wasnât quite yours, but who had never belonged to anyone else.
He kissed your forehead and your cheeks with a gentleness youâd forgotten he was capable of. Without straining a muscle, he carried you across the room, his fingers leaving tiny little marks on your skin. Still, the sadness, the guilt wouldnât leave you, your eyes burning with perplexity, even through the haze that his blood always induced in you.
âI only have one coffin, my love, and the room isnât sun-proofed,â Dazai said, leading into the other room to open the coffin heâd made a bed.
âsamu, I need to go home.â Your eyes fluttered shut as you yawned, dropping your head on his shoulder. âI canât stay here with you.â
âThereâs no one there.â Dazaiâs fingers were gentle as they carded through your hair, scratched at your scalp. âAnd itâs not safe. The sun is about to rise.â
âI need to leave.â
You drew back to look at his face, surprised by the raw emotion that you saw there. For once, he seemed desperate, wanting to keep you near him, the heart that he held in the palm of his hand, even if you hadnât realized it until now.
âPlease,â he said, stroking your cheek gently. âI want you here.â
The hazy fog still lingered. It was no use trying to rationalize your thoughts. There was no reason to try and wash yourself of your sins, not when youâd already done something that you wouldnât forgive yourself for after. âThis canât happen again. I wonât let it happen again.â
Dazai climbed into the coffin and held out a hand, glowing in the moonlight, a creature of the night straight from the stories that youâd heard as a child. âWeâll see if that stands true tomorrow.â
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notes: mmmkay so my editing on this is not that great, please let me know if there's any glaring errors HSDHSHDf. there was another scene written, but i felt like this was a better stopping point (and i didn't get the next scene quite finished)