haluzeidolic
☔️ socially repressed party demon; hidden in plain sight 🌙
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if i move, i'll destroy everything...
even if you give me the words im at a loss for, my heart wont pay attention...
if i grieve, can my heart turn white?
i still dont know about you, about myself, about everything...
if i can open my heavy eyelids, then let it all turn to black!!!!
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Conceptual reference for Skylar… (working on a proper one!)
Crush your heart into the ground ! Down, down, down further… the sounds of fear & pain in every which way, it’s delightful every time ! :)
Cry, plead, scream, prayers are ALWAYS heard.
toxic old man yaoi again smh
MYTH: As obligate carnivores, wolves are dangerous animals and should be avoided in all circumstances
FACT: The wolf has never nipped your heels or held you down and shorn your pretty wool before. It only wants a moment with you; wouldn't it feel nice to make your own decision for once?
Skylar loves the crushing guilt that comes from being a worthless, selfish child. It longs for repentance in the form of destruction, to shield the reality that it is unwanted. No matter how much it begs, there shall never be a moment where it is deserving of such kindness. So I watch, every moment, the tail chasing, as it runs circles of self hatred calling for someone, anyone, to not only understand but fulfill its fantasy of being meaningful. My response, in silence, unforgettably haunting love as every aspect of it is known through brutality.
Its desire falls on deaf ears, but it loves that too. That is the cost of being known, entirely. To abandon reality is the only reason it continues on.
Will you ever consider making your past streams watchable?
Perhaps at some point when my setup is a little more consistent (no technical difficulties/troubleshooting) I'll allow it. As it currently stands, my laptop is not well suited for streaming... But I plan on getting a stronger computer, likely a desktop, as well as a bigger iPad in the near future. :)
🖤🌀 "Kiss me like you mean goodbye," said the Spider to the Fly 🌀🖤
