𝟏 𝐭𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐥𝐚, 𝟐 𝐭𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐥𝐚.. 𝐟𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐫?

“She’s not getting drunk for the hell of it, she’s getting drunk to numb the hell out of it.” TRIGGER WARNINGS: Alcohol Usage

The clinking noises of liquor bottles echoed in the empty kitchen, an indication the blonde was reaching for her next vice. Furrowed eyebrows and teeth digging into her bottom lip, the model struggled to concentrate through hazy vision in an attempt to read the label on the bottle. Maybe she was on her fourth drink or maybe she passed four drinks half an hour ago, all she cared about was the numbing she craved. Ripping off the seal and popping the cork, she poured herself another glass of tequila. Her hands shook unsteadily and caused a spill, one that she didn’t care to clean after. After all, Hailey stopped caring about everything because her world stopped when the engagement was called off.

Trudging her feet along the wooden floors of her home, glass in one hand while the other held the bottle, Hailey planted herself outside on her backyard porch. Her house felt like a new place for her to be at considering the blonde always occupied herself with work, only to follow-up with a party after a long day. Blinking a few times to bring her gaze into focus, she could have sworn silence never sounded so loud. Being alone with her thoughts was unheard of, and now it feels like she became a shell of a person. Lifting the glass to her lips, the sweet taste of tequila welcomed her and the liquid slid down her throat.

Tilting her head back, she struggled to fight back her tears. Her entire future, the man she thought she would spend the rest of her life with played her like a fool. She remembered that night when it happened. It burned in her memories: the words he spat at her, the mocking laugh and the exposing truth. The rest was a blur but Hailey packed her clothes and left Justin’s house only to return to the one she was in now. Her eyes traveled down to her left hand, greeted by the diamond on her ring finger. She used to wear it proudly but now it was a clutch. A security blanket, thinking he would come back — Hailey knew he wouldn’t.

She didn’t know if it was the liquid courage or the heartbreak becoming too much that caused her next move. Another sip and Hailey rose to her feet. Struggling to keep herself upright, she spotted a match near her fire pit as she walked across the deck. She slid the ring off, eyes darting around her backyard. Memories flashed of the barbecues and lavish parties the couple threw, but now she was lonely and lost within herself. The blonde scoffed to herself, it didn’t matter to her if she would find herself, she was broken beyond repair — but doing the work was a waste of time and energy. Lightning the match, the blonde tossed it with the pieces of wood. Seconds passed and it flashed with a starting flame.

Hailey knew her worth and it was low. Falling in love with him was a drug in itself but the damage eradicated every ounce of her confidence and mental strength to fight her demons. Tossing the ring into the pit, she stood there while lifting the glass to her lips once more. She hoped this would help her start a new leaf... but those chances looked bleak.

text message 💬 — hailey 🤗💗

NOAH: oof, you're taking shots. you know better than most how i am a ladies man.

NOAH: i've had enough sushi. literally feel like i've eaten nothing but.

NOAH: A BURGER??????? that sounds perfect. am i driving or do you want to bring out the range?

hailey: shots fired. really? i'm going to have to see it for myself the next time i play wingwoman.

hailey: it is a whole meal plan. but i understand you.

hailey: oh i'll bring out the range. it is the perfect occasion for it.

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haileybcldwns

4 years ago

kimvcnte:

we seriously need some good luck sent our way, you know? i’d surely enjoy a bit of good fortune, and after this whole debacle, i’m sure you would too! good, that’s always nice to hear after something like this. good! busy as ever with getting ready to release a new song then go back into album preparations so that’ll be ready to released on time.

Good fortune and good vibes have to start coming our way, we deserve that much, at least! A new song? That’s exciting! How soon is it due to be released?

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haileybcldwns

4 years ago

𝚝𝚎𝚡𝚝 ✉️ 𝚑𝚊𝚒𝚕𝚎𝚢 𝚋𝚊𝚕𝚍𝚠𝚒𝚗

James: i am special. i took you back to your place...you were wasted...i made sure you were okay?????????

James: WHY!! would you block me..i'm kinda decent looking?

James: uhhhh to talk to your gorgeous self?? i wanted to see how you've been? i've missed you calling me an asshole

Hailey: Yes, I know and thank you for all of it. But I rather not remember it?

Hailey: You’re a decent person and I have looked at you.

Hailey: I’m great! Hope you are too!

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haileybcldwns

4 years ago

𝚝𝚎𝚡𝚝 ✉️ 𝚑𝚊𝚒𝚕𝚎𝚢 𝚋𝚊𝚕𝚍𝚠𝚒𝚗

James: James...Lafferty...we met at a party? tall guy, dark hair...offered to get you a drink?

Hailey: Honey, I know plenty of men who are tall and have dark hair. You're not special.

Hailey: Yes, I know who you are. I thought I blocked you.

Hailey: And yet here we are, again. What do you want?

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haileybcldwns

4 years ago

text message 💬 — hailey 🤗💗

NOAH: guess who the fuck is back in california.

NOAH: if you're thinking me...you're wrong.

NOAH: but i'll be there tomorrow. when are we doing dinner? obviously it'll be on you.

hailey: you got me really excited there for a second, jerk.

hailey: finally, you have been gone for way too long and it is unfair. why not do dinner tomorrow? and if it’s on me... then it can’t be Mexican food AGAIN.

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haileybcldwns

4 years ago

lucyxhales:

i’ve decided that it’s time for a new tattoo and i’ve already chosen one. lately i’ve been super into sunflowers. they are one of the prettiest flowers i’ve ever seen and they speak.. well, sunshine, to me. so my next venture is to plant so many sunflowers in my back yard that it’s going to be yellow all the time. or at least when it’s their time to bloom. is this a bad idea? maybe. do i care? nope! what is your favorite flower? would you plant your backyard full of them that way you could see them whenever you wanted to?

sunflowers are gorgeous to look at and i’m sure whether it’ll be tattooed or planted, they’ll bring you so much happiness and brightness. i volunteer to help you plant them if you want and if you need company! i’d have to say my favorite are carnations, they’re gorgeous to look at and i love how they’re not super small and brittle. i’d probably plant them if i could have the time. maybe when my schedule slows down.