My journey. (Tw)
I want anyone who is doubting themselves, anyone who is trying not to give up, anyone else in the community of being blessed, to read the post whole.
I'm going to be talking about my life, and how the journey started, what I did and what I did not, bear in mind please, this was a little emotional for me to write, I feel a bit nostalgic about it all and I honestly can't believe so much went in such a time.
I found out about everything starting with a book I bought from the local fair that interested me a lot, and I swear if it weren't for the book, I would be here, I used to be the most logical bitch child ever, top grades, stressed like I'm in college already, pained mind and always pressured to be perfect, resulting in me being burnt out and already too mature for my age in mind, yet still childish in many senses, and constant fights with my parents, I felt like I was against the world.
The book was The Power of your Subconscious Mind - Dr. Joseph Murphy.
I was a kid who loved hobby reading, sort of an escape from the hell hole of the pressure I would have around me, and I adapted by this book, and it changed everything for me.
I was only 13 at that time of the book, after that I started trying it out for things and I saw results, made me happy, and I went to something I found in the corner of YouTube, called subliminals, and another part of it where it was called manifestation.
Now with subs, I found reality shifting, then came the void, then came lucid dreams and all that combined together in a hot mess.
Shifting was something so beautiful to me, The idea of a world where I could live my life was something that trapped me so much, I already imagine things a lot and use it as an escape mechanism, sounded perfect, right? And naturally, my first DR was my hero academia, just because I wanted to relive being a proper teenage.
And for subliminals? I can tell you one thing, I was extremely insecure of the person who used to be in the mirror, because all I did was to throw away my life, I studied, slept, and woke up, no friends, no one to trust, I just lost myself, and all that when I was 13-14, (tw) I hated hated hated myself and my appearance so bad, I could only pity myself for the state I used to be in.
I feel almost sad for my younger self, as I'm 18 now watching my young teen self stress through her life, cry at her appearance, even sometimes (tw) wishing to be just die in her sleep, all that because I was heavily burnt out, seeing girls my age looking prettier through puberty, talking with others and I'm stuck on a wish that felt like it won't happen, and yet, a part of me was too ashamed to feel this way, because I knew there are people worse than me, and I sympathized for them.
I think it started good, at 14 years old, I fully started subliminals and it worked for a while, especially my first results that hyped me up so much as changing the grades I mentioned on the other post, so I thought life was changing right?
It did for a year, at 15 things were going well on the outside, I started obsessing over my look, I started using subliminals even more too much for my appearance, I changed drastically, and tried to fit in, but get, none of those changes in my self were drastically from manifesting or anything, sure of course I had some small results, it was almost like I was not naturally like that, I felt fake in short, like a second skin to my real self, every night trying to shift or enter the void and whatnot, all that and finally, and I even opened a Tumblr account which safe to say, got pretty popular back in the day and honestly that was quite a mistake for me at that time.
Why? It ruined me.
I thought I could open the blog to help people with their journey as well as help myself with mine, y'know? Things got out of hand when I got a bunch of people who messaged me and ranted to me about their problems, and bless my younger heart, I used to be so touched by it and help them with it, I was like an unpaid therapist, and I never cared about my health, I just wanted to make people who had worse life than mine, get their results before even I did.
I should've told them I can't manifest for them, but that was where the shit and trust issues came from, sadly I got into the trap of (tw) "suicidal" people who claimed they'll off themselves and blame it on me if I don't enter the void for them, saying how they hate their life and everything else and how they want to change everything.
Please.
For the love of god.
I've been there like you and in worse, I stood up, I found the courage to stand up everytime I fell down, everytime, and that happened so much, almost 6 years worth of failure and never once I wanted someone to do it for me, why? Because it's your life my love, please don't think I'm rude or whatnot, I seriously I'm telling you, it's all in your hands.
And yes, of course there are people with far worse conditions and living state than mine, and I'm never blaming anyone to ask for help, but seriously.
To threaten a literal child on a simply happy pink blog telling her to enter the void for them or else? Especially one where she was a little too eager to help? Please, do it on your own as much as we all did on our own, I used to think "why don't bloggers like to manifest for others?".
I understood it after that, the emotional baggage? That was traumatizing for me.
Either way, I also had one of my followers spam follow me on my private Instagram (which I don't know how) and started (tw) a slight talk of let's say, almost grooming.
Thank God it wasn't pictures, I don't know if it is considered that, but is it alright to be told (tw) that they'd like to f#ck me or what not? I'm uncomfortable to go into more details but that was the breaking point for me, seeing almost 40 or something accounts spam messaging my requests no matter how much I block them, kept making more accounts.
I. Was. Horrified.
That's when I snapped, that was my last resort, I hated everything, I hated it all, I blocked all the current accounts, deleted my Instagram account, shut my blog off and started neglecting myself heavily and got back again into a depressing state, where I thought that's it, I'm cursed, wasn't I?
I burnt out so bad.
I genuinely believe it was the worst year of my life, even when I turned 16, everything got wrecked, the life I built and tried to maintain it fell apart, one of my friends backstabbed me so hard, I just gave up on manifesting and the void, which was something I wanted so much every night, wishing or begging anyone listening to help me, scrolling hours in Tumblr trying to find something helpful.
When I turned 17, this was my healing stage.
I may have slight tears in my eye, or I may sound dramatic, but oh god I am so glad to be here where I am now, I love myself, I seriously feel so bad and emotional for my younger self, if only, oh if only I could go back to hug her and tell her to live her teenage life, but I couldn't, I took life too seriously at that time and told myself I was cursed, only in the summer of 2024 I got back to my manifesting mindset, without Tumblr.
At 17, I started fixing myself, I gently loved myself, I started throwing the pedestal of the void away, I treated everything in front of me as a miracle, I loved myself, helped myself, took myself back on my feet and I gave myself time.
Time is something a lot of people here are annoyed by, it does not exist, so why are you bothered to give yourself some of this "nonexistent" time to heal yourself? I know some might say it's hard to love yourself, guys please.
Just love that small part of you that is still standing, that was shown the void and shifting and anything else for a reason, at 17 I started seeing results from everywhere again, I gained popularity, I built myself, I helped myself, trusted the law of assumptions, and my mindset had grown.
Now, I'm healed.
I no longer do this just to "get out of this" or "to escape everything", I do it for myself and because I know I deserve it, I don't place it up, I place it within reach like an apple waiting to be picked.
Everyone reading this, if you have come so far, do not give up, but of course.
It's your choice, no one can beg you to come back to your life, it's your choice my love.
I hope everyone in any situation my deepest and my most tender love to them, wether you're shifting, premashifting, rebuilding yourself with the void, changing everything.
Please thank yourself for staying strong and reaching here for so long, some say they've been doing this for 2 years, some say one.
I went on strong for 6, and I am glad I did, and I realized it all falls in your hands, I could've done it all by the first year, heck, even the first month, so my loves, my last piece of advice:
Love yourself, thank yourself, and ease yourself, let the apple fall, and not your hand that was straining for the apple.
Xoxo. Coco
hii love your blog!! every now and then when i happen to be close to inducing the void, like intense symptoms and stuff (my body feels like static and my hearing goes in and out) i either affirm, or take deep breaths but i end up passing out like every time. I EVEN MOVED MY FINGER SO I WOULDNT FALL ASLEEP AND BE AWARE AND I STILL FELL ASLEEP AND IT PISSES ME OFF SO BAD ππ
mb for the mini rant but do you have any tips :((
THE FACT YOU ALWAYS ARE CLOSE TO THE VOID THEN SLEEP IT OFF LMFAO πππ
I understand u sm ugh that feeling is the worst, the fact u felt statics, your hearing goes out and whatnot, that is again, a response for your body saying:
"well, sounds like it's time to sleep for us!"
It hasn't been taught that it can enter it aware yk? And honestly it's easy to keep yourself awake, here are a couple of things that helped me personally:
Actually don't move π§π»ββοΈ, don't move ur finger this time, and instead FOCUS on a point of your body, maybe how the blood may flow in your heart and out, how your breath feels hitting around the walls of your nose and so on, this helps focusing.
Or, count, BACKWARDS, y'all this one is good, counting backwards keeps your mind so preoccupied with how numbers should go that your body just falls asleep.
If you're a big dreamer and love to imagine, imagine how it will be after the void to keep yourself from sleeping.
Or, try the void during nap time, you could have less chance of accidentally falling asleep.
GOOD LUCK
hi!! i just wanna say that today i lucid dreamed TWICE, and both was related to my dr.
in the first one i even thought i shifted bc i was in different room, so i started to scream like "FUCK FUCK SHIT I DID IT" but then when i did a reality check i had like 4 fingers</3 tried to make a portal tho but it didn't work.
the second one was right after that, i was looking for my dr mom. when i saw her, we hugged. she asked me if i was ok and then i started crying and said "i wanna go home". i know she understood what i meant and she lead me to my room (that wasnt my dr room btw). she said that it would be better if i try to go in another place, like the school's dorm. so i went there but forgot to do the portal and went to another dream (that wasnt lucid).
here's the thing: i was trying to shift last night, but got distracted while counting (smt that happens ALL the time. i know that this is the state where is better to affirm but its hard not to fall asleep). it was like "1... 2... 3... 4... augdh disandg * random words *" and i fell asleep.
everyday i wake up around 4 am to use the bathroom, so today it wasn't different. but when i went to the bed again, i said to myself "im gonna shift". started counting until 100 and trying to feel my dr room again. then, i fell asleep and had those lucid dreams.
i saw some people talking abt waking up in the middle of the night to try to shift, because we're in a great state (hypnopompic ig??). but, that happens to me naturally and every single day (but i wake up to use the bathroom, idk if it changes smt abt that state). how can i use this in my advantage?
β π
HI MY ANON, ok first?
i seriously and painfully understand u fr omgggg
THE LUCID DREAMING THEN REALITY CHECK SHIT IS SO REAL, anyways, you actually wake up randomly in the night????
HOLY SHIT THAT'S DIVINE ML, LITERALLY , OK SO, LETS SEE MY LOVE, so, i don't know if you can, but when you wake up, don't move.
like, have MINIMAL movement, im gonna show u a lucid dreaming technique, simply lay there, for just 10-20 seconds.
yes
SECONDS, AND DONT COUNT OR YOULL BE TOO AWAKE, now after that, do a reality check, like breathing when closing ur nose or counting ur fingers, now why?
bc u would slip in an awake lucid dream :D
YES I KNOW SOUNDS WEIRD BUT I SWEAR I TRIED IT ONCE IT WAS SO TRIPPY, then, ground urself in the dream by getting off bed and touching the ground saying "i have grounded myself to this dream" you will see the dream being WAYYYY more stable, now make a portal (or not, simply do something else if you don't think portals will work)
bam, in there, you seem like you are actually good with lucid dreaming, give it a try!
Hi! I'm new to your page, I'm curious if you've shifted yet, and if so, how many times? Are you gonna permashift to a better CR or a DR?
I see many blogs here that are shifting/manifestation ones, so I wonder why most of them are still here. There's also been an increase in them deactivating/deleting their accounts... It makes me doubt whether it's all real sometimes because no way anyone's staying here when they can shift to a much better CR/DR. The bloggers? That say they stay due to goals etc confuse me because you can just shift where you've already completed those goals etc. Do you have any explanation/possible reasoning as for why this is? I really wanna believe in shifting & manifesting, but things like this make me doubt it a little.
HEY GIRLY.
So for the shifting part? I've had many mini shifts but not full shifts yet, I did remember shifting to MHA for a day back five years ago (my dumbass thought it was a dream at that time until I remembered that it literally felt like I'm feeling things)
Anyways, for the deactivating part I sorta get them, you see, I used to be the same until back then I deactivated my blog bc of the toxic people there and the pressure of people around you to post and summat yk? They'd think their journey need refreshing so they will deactivate it, that's how I perceive it, but it doesn't mean it was fake and they didn't wanna do it, hell nah, they've just decided to go private instead yk?
AND BTW, JUST BC FOR SOME PEOPLE THIS REALITY IS NOT BETTER DOESN'T MEAN FOR TJE OTHER ISNT πππππ
you see, they ARE already in their better CR/DR, but you only see it not that bc you're reflecting your OWN REALITY by it, yk?
And honestly? In my sense, yes I will shift and yes I will go to a better CR but get that, I still wanna stay here bc once you get to a point of life where you resonate with yourself, you already become the reality you have been trying to reach, that's why you see people here around all the time.
And shifting chooses it's people, assume it's real, then it is, assume it's not? It won't be
i always know entering the void is so so so easy and it does not need weather you believe you'll enter tonight or not because literally it's something you just do, right? u don't need to complicate it or be anxious if you're gonna enter or not because it's just something we simply do just like how we go to sleep. the reason is i always fall asleep. can u give me tips not to fall asleep? my first step in every attempt is to enter sats, but i always alwayssss alwaaayssss fall asleep it's so freaking annoying. please help meee.
btw can i be ur πΊ anon?
HI ANON, OFC U CAN BE MY HIBISCUS OMGGGG
i may have answered this like 10x times, anyways, HERE U GO:
Set a tiny "anchor", like slightly wiggling one finger or being aware of your breathing the whole time. It keeps your mind barely awake while your body falls asleep.
Change your timing. Try when youβre less exhausted like after a nap or early in the morning, not when youβre dead tired.
Affirm less and feel more. Instead of looping affirmations until you pass out, calmly assume: "I'm in" and let yourself hover there.
Practice staying in that tipping point. Your only goal isn't "Void" right away, itβs "stay aware while super sleepy" first, YK? LIKE GIVING URSELF SMTH
Youβre close GIRLY POP PLEASEEEEEEEE- stop being annoyed and start being neutral and steady. Annoyance feeds into frustration which pulls you back into the 3D.
Youβve got this.
Do u beleive in one reality or infinite realities and why?
Infinite ones, I explained it somewhere on my post in depth about it, but I believe in infinite realities, and no hate to those in one reality.
You see, the reason I believe in it, how can someone explain something disappearing and reappearing in a second or such? Other unexplainable things too? There are multiple realities but only ONE your aware visits each time, hence shifting.
hi, i want to try your HMM method. at the stage where you need to provide that I have large magnets on my palms, but what if I have problems with visualization? i have already tried your method a couple of times, i think i brought my fingers closer myself and that's why it didn't work for me, maybe i should sit more? i spent about 15 minutes on this. thanks for your help in advance π«Άπ»
Don't think.
No, really, you have to be in a trance state first of all, and forcing it is NOT the key.
Visualizing sounds hard? Simply assume your fingers will move on it's own.
And methods always work unless you think otherwise, but it's not about how much you try and then wait around for the results, it's how you try and already know it has worked.
GOOD LUCK
HIII ITS THE ANON WHO WAS HAVING ISSUES WITH WAKING UP IN DR AND I SET INTENT LAST NIGHT LIKE ROBOTICALLY AFFIRMED (just cause i have anxiety so i like focusing on one thought) and i ended up shifting and having a dream as my dr self!!! thank you for your advice it really did help me realize i have to be certain and not hopeful<3
HOLY SHIT
A SUCCESS ON MY BLOG??? AONSOBAOJSONAONDONSOD IM LOSING MY MIND GIRLYPOP YOU CAN'T EVEN FATHOM HOW MUCH I AM PROUD OF YOU.
those reading rn? This could be you π«΅π»
YOU'RE ALWAYS WELCOME ML AND I AM SP HAPPY TO HEAR YOU DID IT, SEE Y'ALL? ITS JUST CERTAINTY.
I seriously am rolling in bed kicking my feet bc seeing my beloved ppl have their realities? UGH BEST THING EVERRRRRR
Congratulations again ml πΊ
Hello, I used this method to enter the void and I almost entered it, I woke up, didn't move for about 15 minutes, and my leg started to be pulled up, as if it were a balloon inflating, I'm very happy because this was the first time I almost entered in 6 months of trying π₯³ this method fits as hyponopompia (the opposite of hypnagogia, right?)
method used: https://www.tumblr.com/urlocal-limitesshbic/772562149462638592/%CB%8F%CB%8B-use-deild-to-enter-the-void-in-seconds%CB%8E?source=share
WOO HOOOOOOOOOO GOT ANOTHER ONE ON A NEAR SUCCESS, I KNEW THIS METHOD IS VERY POWERFUL, it is exactly the opposite of hypnagogia, SERIOUSLY I AM SO PROUD, GOOD LUCK MY LOVE
U guys don't get it I'm DOWN bad for Dick Grayson rn....
Fact is I could shift but I still wanna perfect my script bc yo girl like to be detailed βπ»
Like pls see my man.
i just wanted to tell you that i love your blog and it makes me very motivated!! ily!! /p
I LOVE U MORE ARGHOANOSNPANOENPANOSNOANPEJPSJPDKPSJPDJPDJPDPSJPDJPDJ
y'all don't understand how I kick my feet rolling in bed like a child at these asks like TEE HEE.
I literally opened this blog just to help people understand and make them motivated, GLAD IT HELPS MWAH
αΆ αΆΈαΆα΅α΅§βα΅€! πΈπππππ ππ ππ ππππ β.Λ β β coco xoxo
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