Gribouillealltypes - Random Favorites

i didn't realize but touching different door handles and feel their warmth, texture and resistance is very satisfying (i was in a store)

joan of rats

just realized my favorite genre is horror and that I love it since I'm a kid and I've no idea where it comes from

like i've read so many horror books and seen so many horror videos and movies and video games and never realized until now that horror was a big part of my existence

i don't know if that's weird and what it's saying about me

i'm not sensitive to cold, i just like hot water bottles in summer

/j

Pros of hyperfixiation:

Happy!

Art ideas

Life is good

Cons of hyperfixiation:

I am going to blow up

All my art is of the same guy

If I don't think about this 24/7 I get violent

HAPPY INTERNATIONAL ASEXUALITY DAY!!

-April 6th

There are some people in this life that i like very much

i'm like a swan, you know?

pollution won't kill me

war won't kill me

money won't kill me

depression won't kill me

bullies won't kill me

administrative stuff will

imposter syndrome when you make music is like:

ok i think i'm ready to show it

[shows it] [good reactions]

2 interpretations of the "good reactions"

• the good reactions seem polite : they now must think that you're dumb and have no future and they don't know why they're supporting you in what you do ; you thank them but inside you it's "never again am i showing this to anyone"

• the good reactions seem sincere, they even have specific favorite parts, you talk about it for some time with them afterwards : you think you finally reached the right audience, it's got something, it's my thing, it won't please everyone but some people might like it ----- one month later, randomly working on music → your brain: oh remember this time when you showed them this song? well actually they were lying, they hated it, and you made yourself a fool by trusting them like, do you really think your music is good? you're so dumb, the parts they said were their favorites? they focused on one little thing that was not too bad to make you believe they really liked it

So either reaction, I feel like I'm a little kid with a drawing, that no one wants to tell me what they really think about it and only lie to make me feel good but now I have no idea if that's really good, because I have no benefit of hindsight with my work

But when people don't like it I feel discouraged and when people like it I think they're lying

How am I supposed to ask people to play my song when thinking like that, how am I supposed to call on professionals to produce it, how am I supposed to promote it and take some space with it? I'm afraid people who like me as a person feel obligated to listen to it to prove they're good friends and give an opinion on it