“i looked at everyone and wondered where they came from, and who they missed, and what they were sorry for.”
— jonathan safran foer, extremely loud & incredibly close
BoJack, I don’t like..anything about me. None of this is me. What am I supposed to do? I don’t know what to do. Am I doomed? Are you doomed? Are we all d o o m e d?
Avengers 4: They all Dead
Avengers 4: What life would been like if your favorites lived
Avengers 4: Sorry not Sorry
Avengers 4: Peter still crying over Tony
Avengers 4: Tony still crying over Steve
Avengers 4: The Afterlife
Avengers 4: Dr. Strange has had enough
Avengers 4: *The entire Bring Me to Life song*
Avengers 4: It was all a dream
Avengers 4: Peters coma
Avengers 4: The way they were
Avengers 4: And you thought they died
Avengers 4: Thanos trying to extinct the ghosts now
Avengers 4: lol remember that last movie
Avengers 4: Iron Man 4
Avengers 4: Peter recruits new Avengers cause he’s lonely
Avengers 4: What do we tell Aunt May?
Avengers 4: Bitch you thought
Avengers 4: Loki tricked them… Again
Avengers 4: MJ draws all Dead Avengers and shows it to Peter
Avengers 4: Surviors Guilt
Avengers 4: Tony’s biggest guilt trip
Avengers 4: That wasn’t supposed to happen
Avengers 4: *T’Challas voice* This is why Wakanda stays closed you douches
““It’s sad” she said “what is?” He asked, “I mean, you ask someone about love and they tell you about heartbreak.””
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Nobody ever talks about how selfless it is to choose, over and over again, to not commit suicide. Nobody ever acknowledges the tremendous sacrifice suicidal people make every time we choose not to kill ourselves. When a person who is suffering so horribly that death seems like their best option decides not to take their one way out, and to instead remain in hell, day after day, month after month, year after year, because they don’t want to hurt the people they love, they are doing something extraordinary. Not killing yourself when it’s all you want to do is the purest act of love I can imagine. Dying for someone is easy - you don’t have to deal with any of the consequences, you have your moment of nobility and then it’s all over. But living for someone, when the simple fact of consciousness is literal torture for you? Every single suicidal person who ever made a choice to not kill themselves in a moment of misery is a goddamn hero in my eyes. Wanting to die and still surviving is an act of titanic courage and self-sacrifice. We deserve more credit for it.
BoJack Horseman S04E07 ‘Underground’
At the beginning of Infinity War, when Loki dies, that’s when you die. The rest of the movie is just Marvel repeatedly shooting at your corpse.
I hope you never reach a point where nothing makes you feel better. Talking about it doesn’t make you feel better, staying silent doesn’t make you feel better. Seeing the ones you love doesn’t make you feel better, isolating yourself doesn’t make you feel better. Eating doesn’t make you feel better, starving yourself to feel a more urgent pain to distract you from the real one doesn’t make you feel better.
I hope you never have to write about it, and find out, that even that, no longer makes you feel the slightest bit better.