Me Showing Up At The Theater For Infinity War:

You don’t understand, I don’t want any of it anymore. I don’t want happiness or love or success or anything. I need to stop living because that’s the only thing that can make my pain go away. So no, you telling me to wait for good things doesn’t work. Don’t you get it, no matter what happens, it’s always going to hurt.

Here it is! I just had to get this after seeing infinity war.

Sadness will last forever - I Was Raped as a Child (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/1090172529-sadness-will-last-forever-i-was-raped-as-a-child?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_reading&wp_uname=wayechoi&wp_originator=mzQegLyrpSU%2FhB9c6klaLBnnOBU7HA3Tcivx0YazPTT2PYBp1IXQfK7dK5wcqLIPtS4lijL%2BSUvbEE0aO3%2BmT0mwTuadBqH2aREbabu5GfaKV0G7sfPI7waCL8f7O2%2BV I Was Raped as a Child, and There's No Going Back

Then it comes to me: Yes I’ll die, so will everyone, so has everyone. It’s what we have in common. And for a moment, the sorrow ceased, and I saw that it hadn’t been sorrow after all, but loneliness,

Marie Howe, from Magdalene: Poems; “October”

This is for you Russo Brothers. 

This is for you Marvel and you Kevin Feige. 

 Not only for killing off one of your most beloved and iconic characters in the stupidest most cruelest way for a cheap shock death because you wrote a shitty villain. 

 But for your disgustingly insensitive comments at your actor who we love Tom Hiddleston who deserves far better than you gave him. 

 This is for even thinking after 2 days of #bringbacklokialive and fans waiting to hear you explain your comments on that dumb as fuck podcast we would want Jane fucking Foster to come back.

 I am so angry right now it’s not even funny.

 Fuck you russo brothers.

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My Heart…

I don't think people understand how hard it is to keep up with loki

Loki: I'm alive

Loki: nvm I'm dead

Loki: jk. Still here.

Loki: I'm good guy now though.

Loki: lmao jk. Why would I be good?

Loki: oh ur so cute. I'm cuter.

Loki: I'm dead again.

Loki: wait nope never mind still here, But I kinda got arrested.

Loki: oh my brother Thor I love you!

Loki: lol. You fell for that again I'm so smart.

Loki:my plan is going to go perfect nothing can go wrong.

Loki: shit. It went wrong.

Loki: okay now I want to take over your world

Loki: no never mind. Now I want to take over my world.

Loki: dang it I didn't think this all the way through.

Loki: or did I.

Loki: okay I'm kinda dead.

Loki:nope lol I was just pretending to be my dad this whole time.

Loki: now I'm dead.

i mean it’s not like i spend every hour consciously saying “i hate myself.” it’s just that when things go wrong my first response is “of course” “i deserve this” “this is because i suck.” if someone asked me “do you like who you are” i’d be stuck. i don’t feel like i’m 13 and emo anymore, but i kept the sidebangs. i feel weird saying things like “i’m a burden and waste of space” but i feel like that. just maybe not in those words. it’s just like i swell too big for the area. like i splash over the sides, a party foul, the spilled drink. i mean how extra would it be to say something like “i don’t like myself enough to keep living”. doesn’t that just cause other people pain. doesn’t that just make people worry. but on the other hand i’m stuck because i feel numb, vague, blurry. like i should evaporate. like i do nothing but cause people distress when i should be helping. like okay. i don’t hate hate myself. but if the car was coming i wouldn’t get out of the way in a hurry.