At The End Of The Day I Know I Would Be Happier If I Was Born A Man. I Wouldn’t Identify The Way I

(vague spoilers for I Saw The TV Glow, I don't recommend you read it until after seeing the film.)

in a psychological sense? fucking terrifying. when I left the theater I was in a severe dissociative haze. my life had been shattered. and I still get nauseous about it sometimes. last night. last night I sat in the dark, on the verge of tears just thinking about the film. I've seen it twice. both times it fills me with emotion. it doesn't have jump-scares, or gore, or anything like that it isn't scary in that way. it's scary in the sense that it sees you. it grabs you by the neck and looks at you dead in the eyes. for two straight hours. like no one ever has, and no one ever will.

the film is dreadful. the film is beautiful because it demonstrates such a unique kind of fear. one that I know about. the pain of having to change, it hurts. and it's terrible. and it might kill you. but the pain of staying the same? that'll definitely kill you.

I feel like it's a permanent thing. always changing. identity. it's complex, and it's beautiful, but it's also terrifying. and sometimes it's easier to repress it. but this film communicates, that it will kill you. that you will be buried alive, just like isabel. and you'll be struggling to breathe desperately gasping at your inhaler.

Today I explained why I can't really travel to Florida right now to my dad & watching him get increasingly frustrated with the realization that Transphobia Exists was honestly something else.

him: "well if you're not allowed to use the men's bathroom, just go to the women's! that'll show them."

me: "yeah but I'm just as likely to have the cops called on me for 'using the wrong bathroom' in there. have you seen me lately?"

him: "but if one of the options is wrong and not allowed then the other one has to be the right option. what do they want you to do?"

my grandma, helpfully: "I think they want trans people to not go to Florida"

my dad: spluttering frustratedly

me: "I think the thing is that you are more logical and reasonable than Ron DeSantis."

the face of a semi-reformed(?) conservative when realizing with dawning horror that laws can be unfair on purpose is truly special tbh

Having awful gender dysphoria, like the worst you’ve ever felt, and not being able to tell your boyfriend because you’re pretty sure he’d leave if you ever decided to transition.

Overwatch Venture Nonbinary flag icons

Kaladin and Syl dancing! The amount of Joy I felt while drawing these two is actually amazing. I love them! ❤️

The old "Thought of you" animation was a huge inspiration.

Having one of those days where I don’t get out of bed til 4pm bc I would have to look in the mirror to shower but I need to shower but I’d have to look in the mirror so I can’t shower which means I can’t move

Oh, cool. Cool cool cool.

So... we're heading for an era of extreme reactionary backlash.

The question is it going to be like 1980's style or 1930's style.

We shit on rainbow capitalism (as we should), but it is a good indicator of social acceptance of LGBTQ people. When brands are loud and proud about how much the support gay people('s money), it means the social conditions have moved in our favor and the potential backlash is weak.

Right now, the power is shifting back to the fascists. That's bad.

Haley! I don’t play but my bsf loves her <3

maybe THE honor moment of all time?

(Cosmere Inktober day #13 - Honor)

Taravangian really said "I want that twink obliterated" and then obliterated the twink