When I look at my little sister smiling sometimes all I feel is this sense of relief that it was me. I am so glad she wasn't at the receiving end of all the bullshit that happened with me. So glad she considers me important enough to share her every problem. So fucking glad she don't burden herself down like I did. Relieved because her childhood wasn't snatched away. Relieved when she looks in my eyes with all that hope, when she talks about me to her friends and asks me for the things my parents don't allow to have her. Glad that I was here before her and I made it easy for her some way or the other.
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I am done with the day
Can't get over this paragraph
this oneβs personal, i had to write it to breathe again. maybe itβll help u exhale too
Can I throw my head in the microwave like Sylvia did it's tempting rn
Sometimes you need to hold onto grief and let it consume you, let it hurt you in ways you never thought it could. Destroy some parts of you in order to move you.