I totally get you. Was very similar to you (and honestly still am) until I met my bf/queer platonic partner. I wish I could care for him the same way an allo person could, and I know that our relationship is very different than how allo people would approach theirs. He is the sweetest and very understanding about me having no interest in anything sexual, but I still wish I could be intimate with him that way.
sometimes I wish I could fall in love. like I'm happy I'm aroace don't get me wrong, but sometimes I wish I was like allo people. I hear love songs and read books and fanfictions about love and it just seems like the sweetest thing, but I know I can't experience that. people always say "you'll meet the right person!" but wouldn't I have experienced something by now???
even when guys have said they like me, there's just this small panic or absolute disinterest I experience towards them. like I like the idea of a relationship and having someone there in your best and worst times, but I know I wouldn't be able to love someone. I could never imagine myself loving someone like that. and while a qpr does sound nice, I imagine the chances of something like that is small. and even then, if it was an allo person I would feel terrible not being able to love them in return. I don't know. I love being aroace, but sometimes I feel so upset I won't ever have the allo experience.
Happy wedding Xie Lian! Ghost city’s here to celebrate
i HAD to do the barbie redraw
The velveteen rabbit, by Margery Williams
Something about Xie Lian being the only one to see Hua Cheng's humanity and Hua Cheng unfailingly treating Xie Lian like a person...
Cannot imagine having that long thick hair in the wilderness
speaking of surprises, dimitri
idk why tumblr keeps on recommending riverdale content to me but i am LIVING for it
botw/totk zelink has grown on me in time but personally i think the funniest interpretation of their relationship is that link, having absolutely no memories apart from muscle memory, has zero concept of dating or romantic relationships. it doesnt help that hes aroace because he thinks his very queerplatonic relationship with zelda is just them being "ultra best friends." if you asked him if he was dating the princess link would be like Dating? does it really look like that? like yea we're roommates we sleep on the same bed sometimes i make her breakfast every morning we cuddle while watching horror movies on the ipad but isnt that just what ultra best friends do?? and if you ask zelda the same question she just shrugs and says can't tell but im happy with this