This Exactly How I Planned My Birthday So Satisfying To See

Dear you,

Now that you've put out my flames I have but one question...

Why?

I'm not the person you want me to be I'm broken I'm not okay, you can't fix me, you will be cut by the sharpest edges of me if you pick

Me up so.... why?

Is it because I begged the moon every night for someone to hear me...

Well I want to tell you the truth.. I want to know the real reason why you want me I'm not shiny, I'm not new. I've been hurt and I've been used.

Leaving me with my trust misplaced and heart erased..... I must warn you my mind is still adjusting to this...

Sincerely me

All I have to say is...

I'm a lover not a fighter,

But I have no choice now.

You have waged war against my heart

And has stabbed me with the cold

Swiftness of your blade. But I can not submit, I can not kneal, I can not fall to him.

For I've fallen one to many times to the hands of the daggers edge and if I show any signs of weakness he will demand because he's man.

- alien 👽

I related

Time capsule Oct 13,17

Flashback to Sept 24, 2017

It's my birthday and I'm alone.

My existence was put into question once more, and the odds where stacked against me.

Despite me having a good day and my smiling face I couldn't deny that my soul splitting in two.

They said the world was to end on my birthday but it didn't, but my world did.

I wasn't supposed to be here

I'm suppose to be in space but somehow chose again...

Sorry I wasn’t what you wanted

#grunge #grungeasthetic #alien #autumn

Literally me 😂😂😂

vertical / square

Dear you,

It's occurred to me that

Ever since I've met you I've began

Feel something, something I haven't felt

In a while.

A human kinda feeling and I enjoy it,

Learning about you it makes me something I can't explain, I enjoy talking to you but when it suddenly stops it reminds me of something else.

Something I'd rather not think about.

-alien 👽

Vincent Van Gogh

"Used to eat yellow paint because he believed it would make him happy, and people thought he was odd for doing it.

He ate it, even though it was toxic...

Never mind the thought of eating paint and it actually making you happy, but I was never there to see...

If you were so unhappy that even the strangest idea would work, like painting walls of their internal organs yellow then you're going to do it. It's really no different to falling in love or taking drugs.

There is a greater risk of getting your heart broken or overdosing but people still do it everyday because there's always a chance it could make things better.

Everyone has their yellow paint....

- anonymous

😂😂😂 I can't

LET HIM EAT HIS SANDWICH

This is perfect

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