Hey Can We Have Sex (no Penetration, No Oral, I Just Beat You Up)

Sometimes killing myself doesn't feel like enough. Sometimes I think I need to be erased from history

assigned female at gunpoint

Trying to not be jealous of people who actually cut deep challenge

you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

Can somebody please beat the shit out of me? Till i am fully bruised and blooded and aching.

So that i can finally feel this pain.

So that i know i can still feel.

I once had a nightmare when I was in one of my phases of avoiding every single person who tries to be in my vicinity, and an ex-but-still-current-friend-that-I-love-but-am-deeply-embittered-by looked me in the eye and told me they knew I was pushing everyone away.

You ever just wake up from an incredibly graphic and realistic nightmare that was a pure psychological horror based on your own personal phobias and trauma and just roll over like “aw shit I got too hot last night I guess.” And then make toast like you didn’t just experience the nine circles of hell before 9 am