I’m Like If A Court Jester Had A Fat Ass And A Sickening Sense Of Melancholy

tw vent tw sh related tw sui ideation tw self destruction tw self destructive behavior tw suicidality like nothing's fixing it I can't bring myself to do anything or really feel anything so I'm ridiculously understimulated but simultaneously everything is TOO MUCH. tw suicidal ideation tw sh ideation feeling sliiiightly less bored rn but that's only because I feel WORSE over a different thing but even then there's this weird layer of apathy that's stuck like a layer of grit in my chest I'd hang myself if it wasn't such a painful way to die