Brasil has officially elected Bolsonaro as the next president.
I don’t know what to say to express what I’m feeling.
I’m writing because I genuinely want to kill myself.
But I don’t want to die. All I want is to be safe.
I don’t want to live knowing that all my neighbors will have guns.
I don’t want to live knowing that my father could go to jail one day or have his career ruined because he is against torture.
Against persecution.
Against execution.
Against laws being made for no reason other than justify cruelty.
I don’t want to live knowing that my uncle has chosen guns and money over my safety and sanity.
I don’t want to live knowing that my aunt, despite knowing why and how I was sexually abused, says that I don’t know what I’m talking about when I say that his ideas and speech terrify me.
I don’t want to live knowing that so many people, too many people I thought I knew are nothing of what they seemed to be.
I have always been proud of my country, our issues and all.
I have always loved how welcoming, warm and kind we are.
I have always admire our ability to remain kind, bright, solar, regardless of our ugly past.
But now, knowing that the majority, the vast majority of our people support such things… I’m not proud.
I’m not proud of my country anymore.
I’m not proud of our people anymore.
Being Brazilian doesn’t mean what I thought it did.
I thought it was about celebrating life, helping those in need, believing in love and compassion.
Wrong.
I grew up singing our songs, reading our stories, eating our foods, stuff made of little bits of every other country in the world.
We are made of variety. Diversity. Layers. Stories from oposite sides of the globe that happened to come together and become one in this land.
We are just as diverse as what we find in our forests.
The forests they don’t give a single fuck about.
But they don’t give a fuck about anything, do they?
No.
Just money, guns and property.
Their own asses and selfish goals.
Yes, I’m angry. I am painfully angry. But I am sick. I don’t deal well with my emotions. They are too much.
They don’t give a shit about that either. So what if I am bipolar and can’t afford my meds when the new government is up and shit goes wrong (for us)? Well, maybe I’ll hurt myself. Maybe I’ll steal something. Maybe I’ll hurt someone. Maybe I’ll do drugs. Who knows what I’ll do when my brain decide it’s time to fuck me up?
Whatever. Hurting myself? Let her die if she has no money for a hospital stay. Stealing something? Jail, immediately. Hurt someone? Jail, immediately. Doing drugs? Jail, immediately. But I’m sick, sir, at least take me to a place where they’ll make sure I’m sane. (Sick? 30 years in jail so it won’t happen again!)
No, really, tell me what am I supposed to do. I’m angry and crying is not enough. And I’m scared.
I’m terrified.
I am a female, homosexual, witchcraft practitioner, with a handful of mental illnesses, including an SMI. I am almost a perfect target.
The perfect targets have black skin.
And I hope they’re safe.
I hope they, too, get to vent tonight, somehow.
I’m thinking of the homeless man with his puppy (her name is Lara) living near the hospital where I go to treatment on Tuesdays.
What does the future hold for them?
What if I go to the hospital this week and they’re not there?
Maybe I’ll find them in the news.
People are getting killed.
I never thought I would live to see the beginning of an era like the one my parents lived for 20 years. I never thought I would see my father on the verge of tears because one of his childhood best friends, who was taught by a teacher whose father was dragged out of the classroom he was teaching, tortured and killed during the dictatorship, voted for a man who believes more people should have died back then.
I want to die because graves are the only safe places that come to my mind.
But I’m saying alive.
I have something to fight for. People like me. Those who are just as scared as I am. More scared than I am. I’ll live for them, for love, and for the taste of proving wrong all the imbeciles who think they can point a gun to our heads to make us change.
And if I get killed, all I ask is for someone to play Famous Last Words to my funeral.
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
cuz
are you an angel? cuz
Ah yes
everyone. on christmas day, december 25th, we all search up “halloween” to make it a trending search. it would be the FUNNIEST thing ever to see halloween be a trending search on christmas day. tell all your friends, repost this, do everything you can to make sure we can do this. REBLOG AS MUCH AS YOU CAN.
Hello guys, this is a bit different post than what I usually do but please spread the word of awareness for the FNAF, Genshin Impact, Undertale and MHA communities.
A YouTuber named Suitor LP and his thumbnail artist Tanabearchan (minors do not click this link it's an 18+ acc) have been using a lot of other people's art, traced, on the thumbnails of his videos. A lot of the thumbnails included multiple different FNAF, Genshin Impact, Undertale and MHA/BNHA fanworks, and after talking with Suitor LP himself he has apparently been the one to find these artworks from pinterest and then paid Tanabear to trace/edit them, paying her $200 a month for it.
Example, my own work:
Most of his videos are apparently NSFW audios, so your art might have been used in that sort of video. I have screenshots of all the original thumbnails from the past 8 or 9 months with the stolen artworks saved. He has, in a matter of panic, tried to save his and Tanabear's reputations, by trying to BRIBE me with money to keep my mouth shut while he and Tanabear remove all the evidence of the tracing from his discord server and YouTube.
I am not completely sure what the real reason behind all of this is, and who is the bigger criminal here, because Suitor's story changed the narrative multiple times during our chats in discord yesterday. At first, I assumed he was a victim of a scam, so I took my own strike down but told him to fire his thumbnail artist and that I'd call her out for scamming. He didn't seem to want me to do that, and then his story started to change from him "not knowing his artist was tracing" to "I was the one who found the pictures from Pinterest and told her to trace them"
He was constantly changing the story around about everything, and tried to reason with me not to do this callout from everything from "Other YouTubers do it too" to tragic 'pity me' stories of his youtube career to eventually raising his bribe to $100.
He promised to change, and replace all the thumbnails, but the damage is already done, and judging his constantly changing story I would not believe anything he says at this point. I will add all the screenshots of the video thumbnails I took under the cut. He has now taken down all the thumbnails but I really don't trust he is going to change, he literally said to me when I first started chatting with him that he "learned his lesson 2 years ago" (to not use stolen artwork) but it really seems like he didn't.
I recognised one of the artworks of DJMM to belong to @ballpitbee and one of the Moon drawings to belong to another 18+ artist I follow on Twitter.
Suitor LP has gained money from his videos by using the artworks to lure people to his videos. Some of the arts might have been done by minors, and they've been used in NSFW audio videos. Tanabearchan has gained $200 per month to trace and edit these artworks for him for probably over a year now.
I do not usually call people out publicly. This situation is just so unfair and I think people need to be aware of this. Idk what we can do at this point, but I just don't want these people to be let go without facing at least some sort of consequences. So I'm spreading awareness to not support his channel and to not support the artist who traces others' work for money.
Here are the thumbnails, please reblog this to the other fandoms as well so this post can reach out to all the possible artists affected.
Find Us Alive Timeline up to episodes 00-31
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I get asked a lot for tips with coloring black people, so i put together a little tutorial! (and bumps my kofi if you found this helpful)
me when we start eating billionaires and i have to kill gomez addams