Time To Speak Things Into Existence I Want To Leave My Abuser I Want To Strip Again Get My $$ Up And

Poor thumbnail, how do I change that?

Anyway, 2 Zopiclons, a few Xanax, and some liquid Diazepam, and this was the “creative” output.. Do I have crazy tolerance or do I need a new DW vendor?? These are the questions that keep me up at night. Literally! 

Guy Bourdin, 1980

Well I got arrested for the first time two days ago and I don’t even know where to go from here like of course my addiction landed me in their with absolutely no memory of the incident.. I just hope I can straighten out and things will start feeling like my choice again. Whenever I’m not getting high I feel like I’m doing something wrong and I gotta keep up but I don’t! I was a year clean and I should have kept it that way but no more should have would have could have just do. I’m on a Pre trial release and thank god they let me out without having to pay bail it was a simple assault against my bf bc I spit in his face I didn’t hit him I would never hit him but the Xanax had me so fucked up and the cops came and saw right when it happened and took me. But my baby was the only one who called me and the only one who put money on my books. I put myself in their but I was letting outside forces fuck with me again. And now I have a tress passing thing and no contact order with him but he’s the only one who holds me and loves me but we are hurting each other with drugs so maybe I need this time apart.. it just hurts my heart bc I love him idk who reads this shit but thanks for taking the time.

Heroins girl 4 life lol

“When you know better, you do better.”

— Maya Angelou