I Miss Him Grabbing My Arm To Hit Me And Then We Would Fuck All Night And I Never Felt More Alive But

I hate you for how you treat me. I always hate you. You had the opportunity to show me how someone should love me but you blow it instead showing me the worse humanity had to offer.

My problem is I never healed I just kept going

Most of the time I wonder who I am

my heart goes out to anyone who was made to feel stupid for caring too much. anyone who was laughed at or "cringed" at for being themselves. anyone who cried silently so they don't be a burden. anyone whose love was taken for granted. anyone who feels unsafe in their own bodies. to anyone who felt devastated because others failed to be humane enough. it's not you, it's them. i hope you find a way to love yourself again. you're not alone. you're important.

*high as fuck in my bed surrounded by garbage with all the lights off in the middle of the day* I had to grind for this view

you'll succeed. even if it takes time. you'll make it.