I Know How To Be A Drug Addict, Self Destruction Is Familiar So In A Fucked Up Way It’s Comforting

I know how to be a drug addict, self destruction is familiar so in a fucked up way it’s comforting to me. Recovery and sobritey are new, a whole new way of living and honestly it fucking terrfies me because I’m afraid i wont be able to maintain it.. What if i fuck everything up again?

Excerpt from my journal 6-11-19

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4 years ago

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5 years ago

PWUDS COMPREHENSIVE GUIDE TO COVID19

1) DON’T SHARE pipe, bongs, vapes or joints, nasal tubes (for inhaling/snorting)’ and all injection equipment (including sterilized water)

2) If you’ve got the money, try to STOCK UP on your drugs of choice before tings deteriorate much further.

3) If you are a client of drug substitution programs (ie: OTP, MAT, OBOT, methadone, bupe, stims, marijuana, etc.) and particularly if you have a pre-existing condition that makes you vulnerable to infection, ask your doctor if you can GET A 3 MONTH TAKE HOME PRESCRIPTION (Most likely, due to US laws you wont be able to get this for methadone and Bupe) Most MAT or methadone clinics will have contingency plans on how best to serve their clients. Listen to your service provider!

4) If you have an opiate habit and are currently using the illegal drug trade to obtain your drugs, BE PREPARED TO GO THROUGH INVOLUNTARY WITHDRAWAL if your dealer(s) get sick. Have backup plans that include increasing the number of dealers you can score off of, drug substitution programs, & make sure you have all the necessary medications, food/drinks (especially protein-based and electrolyte boosting liquids) you will need to detox.

5) STOCK UP ON DRUG USING EQUIPMENT/MATERIALS and get enough to last you at least 3-4 weeks (longer if you are at high risk for infection and if programs can manage it.

6) WIPE DOWN drug packages/wraps with alcohol-based cleansers after your dealer drops them off or once you’ve picked them up (a minimum 60% alcohol concentration has been shown to effectively kill the virus). If your dealers are in the habit of carrying dope in their mouths ask them if they can change this habit during this outbreak- if they won’t, be careful handling the packages and do the cleaning as advised up above. Remember that anti-bacterial washes don’t kill viruses but can be better than nothing, especially if they contain alcohol.

7) AVOID PUTTING DRUG BAGS/WRAPS IN YOUR MOUTH, VAGINA OR ANUS. If you must carry it in your body, clean vigorously with an alcohol-based cleanser both before and after you take it out, and if carried in your mouth use an alcohol-based mouthwash afterwards.

😎 WASH YOUR HANDS!!! WITH, soap and hot water vigorously for at least 20 seconds (but longer if you can) every time you come into contact with others, after handling money and after you get your drug packages. Paper towels are preferred for drying hands, or at least use a clean towel.

9) PREPARE YOUR DRUGS YOURSELF and ensure that you don’t handle or touch other people’s equipment/drugs and don’t let them touch yours.

10) If you have symptoms or think you’re getting sick, AVOID GOING TO YOUR LOCAL HR PROGRAMS – HAVE THEM DELIVER TO YOU and tell them you are unwell so they can take the necessary precautions for their safety.

11) Be prepared for the POSSIBILITY OF NEEDLE EXCHANGES AND DRUG TREATMENT PROGRAMS CLOSING DOWN (and possibly drug detoxes) and follow steps 2, 3, 4 and 5 to reduce any problems related to running out of suplies or equipment.

12) Remember that people with compromised immune systems, lung diseases and other preexisting conditions are more at risk of contracting COVID19 and help keep them safe by keeping yourself safe – follow these and other harm reduction


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4 years ago

Stop spinning and see your fucking worth!


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4 years ago

If u defend my name when im not around I truly appreciate u

4 years ago
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4 years ago
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4 years ago

Ok so serious question I see some addicts on here who just smoke crystal never slammed before (shot up) and they have been doing it for years so it seems manageable and I’m wondering do you think it’s gotten bad like an addiction and if so do you think you’re loosing control of your life and it’s getting bad bc I used to smoke ice and then I started slamming and that’s when I lost control but if I smoke it it’s easier for me to manage if that makes sense so what’s your views on it??

3 years ago

Idk why it’s so hard to trust people and to believe that they genuinely like me and that I can genuinely be apart of something my whole life I’ve always felt so disconnected from everyone but sometimes I feel like maybe it’s me making it that way perceiving it that way if you will.

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