A realization - Let go
(TW: light mention of some heavy stuff; rant + personal trauma mention)
I was depressed. I had messed up this reality to a point where it could not be fixed in the present, I had failed all exams, lied about the results, hoping everything be better, because I will be in my desired reality later that night.
If I had a day off, or if it was a weekend, I would get too relaxed, i would end up daydreaming about stuff that was irrelevant to my DR, and fall asleep, because i knew i was still in my CR, I would wake up back here.
If I did not have a day off, and had to attend college the next day, I would be so stressed out, the need to escape was the only thing on my mind. I would try, get stressed about time running out, worried that I'll wake back and what not.
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And due to this, when i eventually woke back, in the same, lonely and cold reality, the only thought that would arise in my mind was to fill the sink with water, and dive my face right into it.
It did not matter what I felt, the same thoughts "no one is coming to save me" "it doesn't matter ill be in my DR tonight" "I want to go home", whether it was said in a positive or negative tone, it didn't matter, thinking stuff like this wouldn't work.
It's all just a human way to perceive things, we're suffering and we need to escape. While shifting isn't like any other human process.
Changing your entire reality is almost mechanical. Select a place, act like it, feel it, and leave and let go whatever was in the past. The constant victim feeling we all get, isn't helping us, the constant need to fear we're going to be back in the CR, is a function attached to the human body. We're consciousness, and whatever reality we want is created by our own focus onto it.
Our DRs, also needs our contribution, for us to give it attention, let us form it. thinking like a human, thinking you're "shifting" to a place, you're attempting to shift to that place, thinking you might reach it if you do X or Y, won't work, you know?
We're the creator, our hopeless situation is also created by us, and us being in our DRs, is also created by us.
❥ your imagination creates reality. your imagination is reality. whatever you decide is real in your imagination is real. so like,,get it together maybe?? you hold all the power in the world, bask in the feeling that gives you. let it become your natural feeling.
liars in the shifting community.
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so many people in this community fabricate stories & conjure up fantasies on why they aren’t shifting. it’s “i didn’t shower” or “i didn’t finish & post my monthly shifting reading”. hm. wonder who that could be ?
trust me, i get it. i do. not reacting to the 3d is hard. i am sometimes on that sinking ship. most of the time i am on that sinking ship.
but !! what you need to realize there is no right way of shifting. you are giving simple audios & actions wayyyy too much credit. the only reason those guided meditations or your nighttime rituals aren’t working is because you have decided they will make or break your desires if not done perfectly. not a hair out of place. so squeaky clean. sparkling. glistening. & not to be like “that’s not realistic” because anything is possible but that’s putting way too much much pressure on yourself. also, time. give your manifestations time to show up. you placed your order, it’s gotta get packaged & needs stamps or a shipping label & it needs to make the trip from the warehouse to your front door. it’s not like amazon prime or uber eats.
the whole “i have to stay still to shift” thing was made up by probably you or by someone else who infected you with it by bringing it to the internet because that’s what they believe. subliminals or methods or repeating affirmations until you’re bored out of your mind are all ways anyone can shift. the reason it’s “not working” is because you believe it’s not working. the 3d is what you’re giving into when you should be giving into those feelings & thoughts you would have, as if you already shifted or changed your eye color or whatever you would like to achieve. because, spoiler: you already have. you’ve ordered it. it’s in transit. it may just take some time to get to you.
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you’ve already shifted.
you’re already living your new life.
you know you’re in your dr in the 4d.
congrats that’s all it takes.
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frustration and annoyance
when i decided to take some time to work on myself and my shifting journey i thought i would become more spiritual, connect to my higher self and that i would find some mythical peace. last night i could not sleep and was the most annoyed i’ve been in a long time, but it allowed me to change my perspective. i used to think that what’s ment for me will find me, that it will all happen naturally and i don’t need to do anything - just be, i’m not saying that those things are wrong, but i’m sick of waiting for things i want to find me, i know where they are so i’m taking it myself. i’m done waiting and trying - i’m getting in my dr now and that’s it, i don’t give a fuck how, i’m getting there now and there’s no other option. i used to say i’m shifting soon, but there’s no soon there’s just now, it’s not even now or never - it’s just now.
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⟢ ten of cups upright
⟢ ok so this card is all about fulfillment, completion, the end of cycles. for those who may come across this, this is the case for your shifting journey, well almost…
⟢ when i was shuffling cards, they kept going flying. i kept asking for just one card, quick and easy. i kept getting a bunch at a time. perhaps things are a mess right now for you. chaotic. but maybe you aren’t looking at the right thing ? maybe a slight change in perspective is what you need. you keep looking in the past. but what’s done is done. turn back around, you have it.
⟢ there’s pressure here, you are grasping onto shifting and your desires for dear life. but they are not going anywhere. this desperation isn’t necessary, not anymore. you already have your desires. no more reprogramming, mediations you hate doing, subliminals… you don’t need em. just you. just the knowing.
⟢ whatever you want is yours. you don’t need to ask yourself ‘ why isn’t it working? ’ it’s not working because you don’t think it is. but you’re already there.
⟢ it’s done, okay ? so bask in it, let it sink in.
I would like some help regarding meditation, specifically during shifting attempts.
In the whole time I’ve known of shifting and would use meditation as way to get to my DR, it seems I stumble on the same issue. I’m not sure what to do about it so hopefully someone has some advice !
Anywho, I would be mediating and after a while I would enter a deep meditative state, quite peaceful and relaxing, and at a certain point my whole body will jerk. I know some people might read this and want to tell me to just ignore it but this is some small thing. It will feel like I’m literally falling and my whole body is flung and after my heart is beating like crazy.
And then I’m snapped out of my meditative state, often I will just try again but… then it happens again and then I just get annoyed.
I get it, my body is falling asleep and my mind wants to check. But I can deal with those minor twitches. The ones I’m referring to is something else entirely and I’m not sure what to do about it?
I’ve had progress regarding dreaming and connecting stronger with dream practices, perhaps I should focus on that… another question for another day I suppose.
Okay so I shifted 🫠 It’s hard to describe the experience but I think I did shift. For a brief moment though, I was myself in my dr before bed. I had thoughts I would usually have before going to bed and I was 100% being myself in my dr. It was so natural and I didn’t force anything, It just happened to me when I went to bed. I wasn’t “pretending” or “acting as if”, but I had images and visions of my dr that I wouldn’t think of here, I think they can be also called memories? I’m not sure and I feel weird describing it but just hear me out it felt real and natural, just how shifting should be.
But yeah I will be making it to my dr fully next time.
It feels also weird to say I shifted like whatttt ??? I did it???