I Feel Like I'm Losing My Spark A Little Bit. I'm Not As Happy, Fun, Or Exciting As I Used To Be, Or

I feel like I'm losing my spark a little bit. I'm not as happy, fun, or exciting as I used to be, or as life used to be. I'm slowly getting it back, but I'm not sure. I'm mostly around people who are older than me, who aren't as weird as I am. I think I'm just overly masking, and it's taking a bad toll on me. I care too much about what people think, rather than what just makes me happy.

I'm not around people who encourage my real side to come out anymore. Ever since last year happened, I've changed so much. I've shut myself off from the world. I know recognition is the first step to change, but I wish it would happen faster...