the duality of a sleepy girl..
on the one hand i want so desperately to cuddle her.. want to hold her in my arms and want to be held.. want to hear the slow in and out of her breathing.. i want to be so safe and content just laying there in the peace of the morning.. i want sleepy kisses and little smiles and giggles and the feel of her soft skin against mine...
and on the other hand i can't help but picture waking up to her voice soft but commanding "open" and sleepily opening my mouth.. to find her fingers stuffed in.. and i'd be so sleepy i'd take a few seconds of gentle sucking to register what that taste is.. then i'm sucking and licking so eagerly and whining when she pulls them out to give me more to taste..
Romanticizing your life sounds so stupid but it will help you cope. Taking extra time to make a yummie coffee in the morning, sitting outide observing the wind in the trees, writing poems, going to old book stores, watching your childhood favourite movies, listening to romantic jazz, writing in a coffee shop, making sure you have moody lighting in your room, putting on asmr rooms as a background noise while you work. It's not a solution, but it makes things a bit better.
Fuck pinning her hands above her head. Pin them on her belly. Make her feel your strap bulging inside her. Tell her what a good girl she is for taking all of you.
I love a woman who listens, adjusts, and makes an effort to show her interest in you. It’s the sexiest thing