Got Asked If I Was A Devil Worshiper once, And I Said:

Got asked if I was a devil worshiper once, and I said:

I don’t worship Satan.

I don’t worship demons.

I don’t worship Lucifer.

Got Asked If I Was A Devil Worshiper once, And I Said:

And when I give them that answer, they look at me like I just sprouted multiple heads. They look at the grimoire that I’m holding, dripping with the secrets whispered to me on black sabbaths and through candle flame. They stare at the sigil of Lucifer that I wear around my neck, one that replaced the crucifix of my Catholic childhood. They listen to the advice that I give customers that come into our shop, and how I discuss the ways that Azazel and Berith have influenced my path. They make assumptions.

Assumptions that these entities demand worship and groveling like the ones that belong to the Catholic church.

Make no mistake: my relationship with all of these entities are that of a teacher and student. An ally. They are a guiding force.

As a little kid, I was told that the only way to get help was to “let go and let God handle it”, to sit on my knees with my hands folded, waiting for a miracle. I was being raised in an environment where I was told that I had no power, therefor, I couldn’t make things better for myself. I had to wait for someone else, the divine, to intervene and fix everything. 

The mentality of the Catholic church is cruel:

Love the sinner, hate the sin.

                 (If I want to be loved, I have to hide my attraction to the same sex.)

Things are all in God’s hands, it’s happening for a reason.

                 (I’m being abused for a reason.)

Wait and pray.

               (I have to endure these hands on me until something else happens.)

Respect your mother no matter what.

              (Because I have to love the sinner, but hate the sin.)

Put your money in the offertory basket.

             (Or else you’re shamed for being poor in the house of the poor.)

The church wanted me helpless, so that they could be my only help.

It made me resent the idea of worship. I was scared, I never wanted to hand my power over again. It was a lifetime of gaslighting from the Catholic church and my Catholic family that made me believe that I was helpless.

And then came Lucifer.

I’m not sure what the initial reason was for reaching out to the Morningstar. There were many things going on in my life. Maybe I felt helpless, without direction, unable to figure out what to do with myself. I was down in the dumps, I lost a lot of friends and was in a job that I despise. And I’d always been the black sheep of my family. But what I knew was that Lucifer was hated, and I was feeling pretty hated as well.

When I tell you that Lucifer told me things that changed my life, I am not exaggerating:

“You spend so much time trying to be whatever it is that you wish you were, that you continue to be your old self. You just need ‘to be’.

Everything you want is right there, so why aren’t you taking it?

Make your own reality, and discard what doesn’t serve you.

You own your own destiny. Don’t subscribe to the purpose that you were assigned.”

You see, Lucifer did not want me to worship them. They wanted to teach me. They watched me fall over multiple times, but they did not pick me up and coddle me, no. They would then show me what I needed to do instead, putting responsibility into my hands. And it was honestly fucking difficult, they put me through the fucking wringer and made me face what was wrong with me.

Lucifer did not gift me anything, they showed me the way to do it myself.

It was then that things clicked: instead of having my hand held, instead of being guided by a shepherd with a flock of sheep, the path was pointed out to me, and I was given the opportunity to walk it and face the hardships– or remain stuck where I was. 

All Lucifer did was shine a light on what I was doing wrong, and then illuminate the next step in the dark. They didn’t walk in front of me and take the lead, they walked next to me and watched me as I opened my eyes to the truth of my own reality: that I have much more control of it than I was ever allowed to believe.

Every demon that I have worked with since then has contributed to that illumination, and the process of gaining ownership of myself.

And it started a chain reaction. I’m still not completely where I want to be, but in roughly three years I have gone from working dead-end jobs, being a people-pleaser to my awful family members and being content with my shit life, to meeting my long distance boyfriend in person, working to strengthen our relationship, enrolling in regular therapy, eating much healthier, working my dream job, cutting out my abusive mother, and getting myself back into school. And, as far as I know, within the next 16 months I will be preparing to immigrate to a new country to start my new life with my boyfriend.

So, no. I am not a devil worshiper.

I don’t worship anything, because I can’t go forward with my life if I’m sitting on my knees.

More Posts from Forsakensnakeskin and Others

1 year ago

Luciferians and Satanists should really stop equating Melek Taus to Lucifer/Satan/Devil.

We may believe there's nothing truly evil about those beings, but the narrative of the Yazidi as Devil worshippers is something that directly contributes to them being subjected to genocide. Yes, Melek Taus refused to bow, but he is conceptualized in a very different way than Iblis or Christian Satan. And yet I've seen them equated in LHP books. I've seen Connoly describing the Yazidi as "ancient demonolaters", I guess to show how old her religion is, and completely ignoring how not only disrespectful but physically dangerous this equation is. And yes, actual Devil worshippers shouldn't be murdered as well, but outsiders labeling the Yazidi this way is something that literally kills people so please, just stop.

The Yazidi are NOT Devil worshippers.


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8 months ago

“Eve’s ingestion of the forbidden fruit becomes a heroic act of rebellion against the tyranny of God and Adam. This closely parallels how socialists like Mikhail Bakunin (1814–1876) used Satan’s battle with God as a symbol of their fight against a capitalist and monarchist society (God being the ultimate monarch).”

— “Satanic Feminism: Lucifer as the Liberator of Woman in Nineteenth-Century Culture” by Per Faxneld (via luciferianbuddhism)


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2 years ago

Speaking generally, but when it comes to witchcraft,

if you don't have the ability to analyze what gods and/or spirits tell you,

and then make your own decisions,

you should probably not be working with gods and/or spirits.

If you don't feel comfortable saying "no," you should probably not be working with gods and/or spirits.


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2 years ago

Acts of Devotion for Azazel

Dyeing your hair

Wear dragon, serpent, or goat jewelry

Tie-dye or other ways of dyeing fabric

Do some makeup

Learn how to sword fight; kendo, fencing, etc

Make your own jewelry

Dedicate jewelry to wear for him

Collect weapons; check your local/national laws for regulations on legality

Practice fire scrying and incorporate fire in your witchcraft

Metallic nail polish

Learn about metallurgy

Arts and crafts involving metals and/or gems

Explore the wilderness around you

Get a nose piercing

Cultivate grapes

Drink grape juice or wine if of age

Spend some time in darkness

Learn to identify plants of your area

Wear black, red, and/or yellow

Mirror scrying

Be proud of yourself

Celebrate your own beauty

Explore pleasure and your sexuality

Help protect snakes


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2 years ago

I’ve been thinking a lot of the notion of the christian scapegoat. I was always taught that Jesus was the scapegoat, shouldering the sins of humanity and suffering for it. But I truly think that Lucifer fulfills the role of scapegoat. Shouldered with all the sins of christianity, regarded as sin-incarnate, driven from heaven, shooed from any warmth and love, into the deserts.  Scapegoats aren’t brought back in with a pat on the back for a predetermined reunion, they’re left and expected to die. 

Is it any wonder Lucifer’s often represented with a goat?


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2 years ago

if you're a witchcraft/pagan blog, you need to block the following accounts immediately:

these blogs are known for being part of a neo-nazi, antisemetic hate group that sends spammy asks to nearly every witchcraft blog on this hellsite. these asks usually include a link to their website, which just boosts their seo and gives them more traffic. do not interact with them. do not answer their messages/asks, and do not engage. i highly encourage you block the following accounts:

gulbara

ostara-444

heaven-nor-hell

daemonsagenda

oracle-of-raum

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holy-oracle-of-satan

i also recommend turning off anonymous asks - they tend to prefer to send asks anonymously, and if you have that feature turned off on your blog, they'll be less likely to bother you.

i'll be adding to this list as i discover more!


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3 years ago

30 Day Luciferian/Satanist Challenge

I decided to create a 30 Day Luciferian Challenge…to get me to write about Luciferianism some more.

I have designed this in mind to the best of my ability that if your Lucifer is not the Fallen Angel that you can still answer these questions. I even have a few alternatives at the bottom if one is more difficult to answer (or you don’t want to answer a certain one) if your Luciferian figure is not xtian/abrahamic related.

Keep reading


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3 years ago

My Reading and Resource List (Updated)

The Bible 

The Qur'an Will tell you nothing about Lucifer, because as a Satanic figure he is only present in Christianity. However, his Muslim opposite number, Iblis, is an arresting figure in his own right. You can learn a lot by comparing and contrasting these two entities. Also, Lucifer wants you to seek knowledge! In this time of rising Islamophobia, refuse to be ignorant. Learn about Islam.

Sefaria.org Collection of Jewish texts including the Torah. Side-by-side English and Hebrew.

Gnosis.org Collection of Gnostic texts.

Complete Books of Enoch, Dr. A Nyland Finding a lot that is profitable in this translation and the commentary. Learn about the Watchers and their kids, the Nephilim!

Pseudepigrapha.com Giant online collection of apocrypha and pseudepigrapha. Seems to be run by a Mormon. Sure.

Lucifer: Princeps by Peter Grey. Peter Grey is a bit of a blowhard, but this is a very useful book. I recommend it reluctantly but strongly. It’s primarily a survey of scriptural, apocryphal, and mythological sources for the Lucifer legend, and as such it’s quite valuable.

The Luminous Stone, diverse collection of writings on Lucifer from a number of Western occult and historical perspectives. A mixed bag. But hey, it’s writing specifically about Luciferianism that wasn’t done by Michael Ford, and therefore it is precious.

Hemaphrodeities by Raven Kaldera. Good book on transgender spirituality in general, sections on Lilith and Baphomet may be of particular interest.

The Devil: A New Biography by Philip C. Almond. History of the “idea” of the Christian Devil, traces his origins in scripture. Includes a bunch of fascinating and entertaining material on witchcraft in the middle ages, witch trials, exorcisms and possessions. (Did you know Catholics and Protestants were literally using possessions and exorcisms as a way of talking shit about each other? This and other fun facts in the book!)

The Birth of Satan by Gregory Mobley and T.J. Wray. Retraces a lot of ground covered in the first two chapters of the book above, but in way more detail. An analysis of the scriptural sources for Satan. Good, fast read.

The Book of Adam and Eve (Latin version) Contains an early version of the fall of Satan which probably inspired the account of the fall of Iblis in the Qu'ran.

All the Kabbalah You Really Need to Know A video lecture given by a friend of mine. Great crash-course.

The Devil’s Bride by Martin Ebon a neat little book about exorcism from a psychological stand point– particularly about demonic possession and exorcism as a cathartic ritual which leads to emotional healing. Reads as fairly skeptical but is surprisingly open-minded about ESP and psychokinesis. But not demons. OK! We all have our biases, I guess. Anyway, it’s a fun read, but by no means essential.

A Dictionary of Angels Including the Fallen Angels by Gustav Davidson What it says on the tin. Shouldn’t be your only source but if you happen to find yourself wondering who the fuck Cabriel is this probably beats Wikipedia for a first stop. Nicely cited and will lead you straight to better sources.

A History of Witchcraft: Sorcerers, Heretics and Pagans by Jeffrey Burton Russell A neat, elaborately illustrated little history of witchcraft aimed at the layperson, by a scholar who has written much lengthier works on the subject that I will soon be reading. Not perfect but fairly legit.

God and the State by Mikhail Bakunin Satanic anarchy?! Not really, except for the first chapter or so. Still, worth the read!

The Tawasin of Mansur Al-Hallaj Interested in Iblis/Satan in Islam/Sufism? This is essential.

On the Origin of the World Trippy gnostic gospel, including retelling of Eden sympathetic to the Snake and to eating the damn fruit.

The Testament of Solomon Potentially useful demonology and also weirdly goddamn funny.

The Lesser Key of Solomon Get your Goetia on.

Demoniality by Ludovico Sinistrari. A weirdly sympathetic Catholic text about Incubi.

Compendium Maleficarum An old witch-hunting manual. Contains a description of a supposed Satanic witchcraft initiation/black baptism, which I adapted for my own use with great success. Also lots of fascinating history and exciting spell ideas!

Zohar.com Do yourself a favor and create a fucking account. It’s free. Search one of the most fascinating occult texts and one of the most important sources on demonology, particularly regarding the Devil’s four consorts.

The Revolt of the Angels, Anatole France Amusing philosophical Luciferian novel.

Paradise Lost, John Milton Because your image of Lucifer probably comes largely from this. And also, because it’s amazing.

Duino Elegies, Rilke “Who, if I shouted, among the hierarchy of Angels, would hear me?“

Litanies of Satan, Baudelaire Just gorgeous, perfect for use as a prayer.

Eloa, Alfred de Vigny Not necessarily much spiritual content, but it’s fun. A poem about Lucifer seducing an angel.

The Demon, Mikhail Lermontov Apparently romantic poetry about Satan seducing pure-hearted maidens is practically a genre. This is more fun than Eloa.

The Marriage of Heaven and Hell, William Blake Beautiful, trippy, pro-Satanic, a fast read. Link is to full text.

La-Bas, Joris-Karl Huysmans A 19th century novel about Satanism. Gruesome, disturbing and not really Satan positive, but helpful for understanding how Satanism has been conceptualized.


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1 year ago

A quick reminder that you can still be a great Satanist or Luciferian if you don't like/want sex!

Yes, in our religions (consexual) sexual pleasure is celebrated, but Satan and Lucifer also stand for freedom, for understanding yourself and choosing your own path.

You don't want sex? You're sex-repulsed asexual or want to remain celibate for any other reason? Great! It's your own expression of sexual freedom, beautiful and valid.


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Salem. Agenderflux. Mix of all pronouns and terms. Sapphic aroace and polyam. Poet, horror fan, hermit. Satanist and eclectic polytheist. Azazel. Main blog is thirstyvampyre {I do NOT support racism, Nazis, cultural appropriation, terfs, queerphobia, fascism, or sexism. If I reblog anything that condones any of the above, please let me know. I do not want it on my blog.}

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