WHOEVER IS EDGING THIS SWITCH STOP - Core

If you grew up constantly apologizing and then apologizing for apologizing and you were/are afraid (or unable) to express your emotions and feelings because it was seen as “manipulative”, or for any reason, I love you and I hope you’re having a good day

okay so, i know that most people go into NBC Hannibal knowing that Hannibal is the main killer. But one thing i don’t see people talk about is the immediate foreshadowing we get that Hannibal is the Chesapeake Ripper, aka the person who created the wound man tableau, before we even knew that he MADE the wound man tableau.

i haven’t seen anyone talk about this by the way, like not a single soul do so much as acknowledge it. so i don’t know if this is common knowledge throughout the fandom??? or if it’s something most people don’t notice (to be fair, i didn’t notice it either on my first watch) but i’ll point it out for people who didn’t realize it nonetheless.

in episode 1 season 1, Apéritif, when we first see Jack Crawford meet Hannibal, there is a scene where Jack goes over and looks at Hannibal’s artwork. There is a piece of paper underneath the artwork.

what is this piece of paper, you may ask? It’s LITERALLY the wound man LMFAO.

i find this really funny because it’s a direct parallel to the scene with Miriam Lass, where she is sifting through Hannibal’s art and notices another image of the wound man.

it’s yet another portrayal of just how unobservant Jack Crawford is to who Hannibal Lecter truly is, despite it being right in front of his eyes. Because Hannibal isn’t even truly hiding it. It’s literally right there and Jack, a man who is both Chief of the BAU and the man who lead the Chesapeake Ripper case, doesn’t notice it. And Jack clearly doesn’t have an issue with overstepping boundaries, because he literally gets all up in Will’s face in the same episode, so he definitely COULD’VE moved the paper LOL

this isn’t even Jack hate btw. I literally love that guy. I just find this SO HUMOROUS considering that he was so defensive about Hannibal not being the Chesapeake Ripper when Will approached him with it when it was RIGHT THERE!!!

bad boys attempt to rizz each other up

based on this post by @opti-mized

Tw bpd jealousy vent

Bpd jealousy needs to be talked about more. I have a pretty severe case of it. I get jealous any time my fp gets joy from anything especially anyone who isn’t me.

I know this is “toxic” but it really is something I’m trying to work on. I guess when they get joy from other things, it kinda makes me feel replaceable?

Like the joy I bring them can just be switched out with those other things. If I was out of their life it wouldn’t impact them and they would still be able to be happy.

But if they were out of my life I wouldn’t be able to feel any sort of joy. I feel like I’m always going to be jealous unless my fp hates everyone except me. Or talks to only me.

I really wouldn’t like this though. I want my fp to have a healthy social life. It’s just something I have to learn to deal with. At the same time my whole life revolves around my fp.

I don’t talk to anyone but them, and I really don’t like talking to anyone but them. I don’t think I’ll ever be satisfied until I know they love me the way I love them. I just wish I felt content. I hate being jealous so much.

I really am trying to work on it though. I’ve been working on it for a long time, I just don’t think it’s getting easier though :(

I really just want my fp to be happy

Does anyone have any tips to help jealousy pain?

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when people talk about intentional plurality i beg them to look into IFS. I saw a post recently about someone praising plurality as an intentional coping mechanism rather than a trauma response through dissociation, and how it can be helpful to imagine different “alters” for different situations to make life a little easier.

yes, this is a coping strategy— internal family systems. this is NOT plurality.

i will always come back to this: if you have to pretend to be someone else, that’s not plurality. recognized plurality ONLY stems from intense, repeated trauma and some form of dissociation/derealization that happens unconsciously as a result.

DID ≠ a coping mechanism

DID = a trauma response!!!

One thing that makes me sad to see in the communities of people with disorders that cause highly volatile, intense or irrational emotions is the common sentiment that such emotions cannot be safely expressed to the person that they are about without hurting them.

People seem to feel trapped in not speaking to others about their feelings, making them stew in them alone while the feelings get worse and worse, or letting them explode out at the person in a hurtful fashion.

I wanted to share what works for me. This may not work in every relationship that you have, but it will at least be a way for you to communicate your emotions and know that you are not doing anything wrong by doing do.

The core of this is basically I statements. It sounds very simple and like it should not work, but it is very helpful. It is a bit more complicated than that and I will get into it but tldr; is just make sure you are phrasing things like 'i felt x' or 'i have urges to y' rather than to just say x or y.

For example, I have told my partner that I felt like I hated them and I have urges to cut them off. By phrasing it in this way, they can see that I am having a split, am recognizing that I am having a split, and am trying to communicate with them in a healthy way. Even if I am having negative thoughts about them, by phrasing it as an I statement I am indicating my desire to work through it. This would land very differently if I just said 'I hate you, I am cutting you off' which is a statement of fact and a life altering decision. They would not attempt to comfort me in this situation, they would instead say 'okay bye i guess. fuck you also'

It can feel like it would be terrible to tell them I even felt like I hated them because I worry they would take it as a statement of fact. But by phrasing it as a feeling, they are able to recognize it for what it is and approach me with compassion. It helps if, before you have a split on a person, you explain this to them, especially if they are unfamiliar with disorders that cause splitting. This can help prepare them to read what you are saying correctly as an attempt to communicate rather than a statement of fact.

Doing this can be difficult when you are gripped by a very strong emotion. What I like to do is to write it all down, exactly as it feels. Write in the notes of your phone or in a journal 'I hate you' and whatever else you are feeling without censoring yourself or trying to make an I statement. Then, you can go back over what you wrote and pick out what things you need to talk about, and rephrase it in a constructive manner. Or, if you are close enough to a person that you are both okay with this, you can ask them if it is okay to show them the raw emotions you wrote, with the important disclaimer of you telling them this is how you feel in the moment, and not objective fact.

You do not have to be alone with your emotions. It is okay to talk about your big emotions, even irrational ones, even ones that feel mean. It is just important that when you do, you say it in a way that acknowledges them as emotions and not fact, because presenting it as fact will hurt. Presenting it as the emotions that they are can help the other person to help you, and hopefully you will both be closer at the end, even if the conversation is a difficult one to have.

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i really realllyyy like ur drawings can i please use them as a pfp? ill credit u 🙏🙏

No, Im not really comfortable with people using my art for anything, but thanks for asking! sorry :,)