Today Is A BingLiu Day…

Someone: You seem distant, something wrong?

Me sitting peacefully at my desk: Oh it's nothing just daydreaming...

My brain: "But in the end, I...l still think...it's so unfair,' Yin Yu sobbed. 'If I wasn't destined to be perfect, I at least wanted to be perfectly kind. But...I couldn't even manage that. It's really...so unfair. And to tell you the truth, I can't get over it, even now. I just can't swallow the fact that I'm dying for this little bone head, Yizhen. I can't even let go and die without resentments and regrets. What the heck...?"

sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.

i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.

so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.

today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.

and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.

so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.

yin yu donghua and manhua kissing each other 😘

Promised myself I'd try to finish at least one thing for huayin week and here it is :') (For day 7: free day)

Hualian: two guys who seem kinda normal at first blush but then you have a second conversation with them and you realize what absolute freaks they are especially for each other. Luckily they steadfastly refuse to discuss bedroom matters with others (bc you are unworthy)

Wangxian: you meet these two and you’re like oh ok. This one’s the freak and this one’s the guy who keeps him in line. But then as you get to know them you realize more and more that the roles might actually be reversed from your first impression. And THEN you come to the inevitable conclusion that they’re both freaks and nothing is keeping either of them in line except the will to fool others

Bingqiu: hopelessly undisguisable freak4freak. One look at these guys and you know something’s up. You talk to them and just Know that they have kinks you’ve never even heard of nor do you want to. You live in fear of trying to hold a conversation with them.

peiquan hehe

My new ship! Xie Lian and Hua Cheng from Heaven Official's Blessing!

AU where Xie Lian reunites with Wu Ming after his dispersal and they go on little adventures while Xie Lian helps him look for his beloved

Harrison Wood Hsiang

That Luigi movie, huh?