Call The Police. I Was Robbed Of Tourist Lockwood. This Is A Crime.

lockwood& co show rant incoming so spoiler warning!

I really miss the funny parts of the book but at the same time I like how they made it a bit darker. it just made the stakes a bit higher.

ALSO THE PART AFTER THEY JUMPED INTO THE RIVER AND IT LOOKED LIKE LOCKLYLE WOULD KISS AND THEN LUCY SHOVED HIM AWAY OMFG GO OFF GIRL!!!

I also love the way they made lockwood be a bit more obviously struggeling. I thought people being more aware of him being suicidal really fit the characters.

I'm a bit worried that they'll make a love triangle between lucy, lockwood and kipps (altho I used to have a headcanon that kipps used to have a crush on lockwood but that's another story). maybe the kipps asking lucy out for coffee was just a way for him to manipulate her but if this is gonna be another typical ya show with a love triangle it will probably suck lol.

but all in all, it was suprisingly more accurate to the book than I expected! I was so scared that they would mash all of the books into one season but now I'm really scared that they won't make another season. so yes, stream lockwood and co!!!

this poem (?) is about my relationship with my eating disorder through the years so TRIGGER WARNING! this is also the story on how I started recovery. have fun reading :)

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I only need your approval to live.

it's my food, it's my air.

I can never get enough, I guess if you starve yourself you get hungry for other things.

the number on the scale gets smaller and smaller while the hunger grows and grows.

I'm constantly running, chasing happieness, hoping I will find it in smaller clothes and sleepless nights.

Have you checked my thigh gap?

Maybe I will find it there.

Maybe I will never find it.

I know that if i keep searching for it I'll loose myself but what am I to absolution?

Do I even deserve it?

Am I pretty now?

Now that you can see my bones and the aching in my belly is all I can think about.

Is getting smaller the secret to becoming beautiful, becoming happy?

If so I'm prepared to become nothing if that means you will finally see me as enough.

why is your opinion so important to me?

you're just a tiny voice in my head, why should I listen to you?

Are you me? Am I you?

a part of me keeps fighting.

it defends me from your nasty insults, keeps telling me to just hold on, that i deserve to let you go.

But do I really?

You hurt so many people but you did it with my voice so the guilt is my burden to take.

You make me feel guilty about things that you did, say it's my fault that i told others about you and now they think the same way as I do.

Is it my fault?

I'm not sure.

you and me begann to blur, the tiny shimmer of hope that I will get rid of you dies and the need to listen to you, become you grows every day.

do I even want to keep fighting against you?

It's exhausting and going your way would be so much easier.

but then I think about the days when your voice is quiet, sometimes it wasn't even there and those memories show me that true happieness is only possible if you're gone.

so i keep fighting, keep talking against you.

I even got help.

Now i have people that listen to me, people who tell me that you're evil, that I should let you go.

but that's easier said than done.

you were my best friend, my compass in my darkest times but now i know that you were the reason the darkness kept growing.

I don't need you anymore and you're nothing without me.

Maybe you deserve to be nothing.

One of the reasons why I think that Lucy, Lockwood and George work so well as a trio is that they very much complete each other, making up for each other's weaknesses.

Like, Lockwood and George are a bit too aloof but Lucy is very emotionally mature. Lucy and George are a bit too flaky but Lockwood is a strong leader. Lockwood and Lucy are a bit too impulsive but George is levelheaded.

They're all very flawed and damaged kids but they raise each other up at every turn, effectively helping the others better themselves.

You know, they just work. They make sense. It's beautiful.

me during the newest tge magnus protocol episode

Listening to the new episodes of my podcasts like:

the inherent lesboeroticism of anything and everything i personally like

do yall remember the guy on reddit that posted about how he thought he was homophobic because he hated it when his roommate brought boys over?

and then it just turned out he was in love with his roommate?

I have a feeling that's gonna be Eddie this season..

I get Mary Key in the way that I want my whole body to be tattooed with song lyrics

don't be shy, release the essay.

It is my firm belief that one of the most important parallels in Six of Crows and Crooked Kingdom is that Wylan Van Eck had the potential to become Kaz Brekker, and Kaz Brekker had the potential to become Wylan Van Eck, in this essay I will -

someone needs to ban me from bookstores.