This Year Changed Me. Like Who Am I

love is real and worth it and SO important to me it’s pretty much my entire political spiritual philosophical deal………you can be critical of how romantic love is commodified and dominated by heteronormative myths for sure but ppl out there like “love is fake” aren’t doing ANYTHING interesting or subversive……love is revolutionary bc the systems that oppress us are directly opposed to all kinds of love, interpersonal love and self love etc. they’re trying to drive it out of us. love as an action love as a choice love as something u cultivate and tend to is the best thing in the world and it’s at the absolute centre of my life

I tried to recreate this feeling I had while lying in the sun yesterday.

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no offence but your acidic cynicism, your edgy ‘brutal honesty’, your “god is dead” “people aint shit” “the world is a nasty nasty place so deal with it, sweetie” enlightened nihilism is not enlightenment. it’s cowardice.

that the people who care about you aren’t, in fact, incrementally & constantly adjusting their opinion of you based on how stupid or cool your last interaction with them was….is something i actively try believing in every single day & when it works it brings my heart great peace

Talking Heads performing This Must Be The Place in Los Angeles, December 1983.

ive tried opening my mouth and saying words before nd ive gotta say. im not a fan

pretty shitty how baseline human activities like singing, dancing and making art got turned into skills  instead of being seen as behaviors

so now it’s like ‘the point of doing them is to get good at them’ and not ‘this is a thing humans do, the way birds sing and bees make hives’.