The loneliness is suffocating. At all hours, a ringing in my ears - that undertone. In the store, in the shower, in front of the people I love. Lonely like a fist in the mouth, like netting in my diaphragm, like a rotted tooth. Everything I put in my body just feels like cotton, all smooth and numb and unsatisfying. Who am I even looking for. What do I seek. What went to bed and never woke up inside me.
“How much better is silence; the coffee cup, the table. How much better to sit by myself like the solitary sea-bird that opens its wings on the stake. Let me sit here for ever with bare things, this coffee cup, this knife, this fork, things in themselves, myself being myself.”
— Virginia Woolf, The Waves
The summer sun was not meant for boys like me. Boys like me belonged to the rain.
i ONLY know how to express love in either dramatic, multi-page, 19th-century-style love letters OR single memes presented without commentary so jot that down
yea i drink juice when i’m killin cuz it’s fuckin delicious!
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