Fcktumblerrr - Lone Heart Beats True

i want cuddles so bad i’m so touch starved i need affection just fucking lie down on top of me and hug me and pet my hair and cuddle with me until we fall asleep

hanschen is me and ernst is dwsa pulling me back in because who was i to think i could care about anything other than it

why didn’t spring awakening win anything

Are you into dudes?

Unfortunately.

they look so cute aw

Listen/purchase: The Guilty Ones by Leslie Odom Jr.

ok… shit

me: *is ugly & doesnt make sense*

Me because its september

You were all sharp edges;

twisted and mangled.

She was all soft and gentle;

each curvature of her face coming to meet the next one with ease.

You were rough, torn apart, half-heartedly put back together, guarded.

She was nurtured, loved, protected, outspoken.

You were extreme, gasoline stained boots, matted hair, and a permanent smirk.

She was calm, eyeshadow never out of place, perfect hair, and lip gloss stained kiss.

You were bloody knuckles with flecks of dirt, broken skin, and bleeding lips kissed roughly with hair tugged, needing more.

She was the plaster on a broken bone, a bandage to cover the absence, and not enough to go around.

You were sunrises seen with insomniac eyes, cigarette smoke at midnight, and all too explosive.

She was a good night’s sleep and no circles under your eyes, clean air in a crowded city, safe.

You were afraid to touch her for fear she would break,

She was scared to touch you for fear that she would break you.

You were both ignorant, stupid, foolish, young,

Human.

In love.

Now she’s rough edges, husky voice in the morning from nightmares that never end, and a touch that is never as careful as it used to be.

Now you are fine lines, marble with smooth indents which form words, a smiling picture on the wall of a school; in a year book; next to your Mother.

Finally, she has given you what you needed: calm.

Finally, you have driven her to be what she thought she could never be: chaotic.

what relationships should NOT be:

filled with anxiety, self-doubts, extreme jealousy

a one-way thing

never stepping out of your comfort zone

blantantly forces you to do something you don’t want to do

hostile atmosphere is ever-present

lack of autonomy

uncomfortable, stagnant, undermining, empty

forgetting that you have a life outside of your relationship

make you feel limited, inferior, confined, always exhausted, insufficient

compromise your mental health and growth

what relationships should be:

promotes your welfare

filled with trust, honesty, and a stable communication

freedom to choose and speak

mental health is considered a priority

two-way thing

a safe, supportive space for both of you

empowers and fulfils you

might be filled with both the good stuff and sometimes bad stuff

^ but only because it helps you grow

a constant journey of self-discovery