The Chip On My Shoulder

celebrating the official passing of one year since riptide hiatus began by listening to jrwi every single second of the day and thinking about jrwi every single second of the day and never sleeping and also praying for it to come back and also crying and also sobbing and crying and devolving into a hysteric mess because I want them back because I want them back bdcause I want them back because I w

everyone thank my dear friend (again) who listens to me ramble on and on about riptide and who made this just for me

(specifically back when ep 110 came out... dark times)

some people have pointed out how my gillion is very Creeture and yes maybe that’s because I’m not very good at drawing people but also. I creature-ify all my Little Guys. it’s a disease

I think every Charlie Slimecicle ttrpg combat turn goes like this:

With my action I pull out The InstaKiller3000, which everyone forgot I had and collectively agrees I should not have ever under any circumstances. With my bonus action I am going to use the most vaguely worded spell in existence and argue semantics with the dm for at least 10 minutes until I somehow bs my way into making a shitty spell turn The InstaKiller3000 into The InstaKiller10000. I’m now going to describe the most epic fucking visual any human being could come up with for when I use The Instakiller10000. Time to roll for damage!!! It’s a 1, and with my equally horribly rolled stats that makes it a -3. I hit myself in the face with The InstaKiller10000 and die instantly

Dear deities, I just CAN'T get over Charlie's performance in episode 79. I could ramble on and on about how the trials and how emotionally devastating it is... But nothing, NOTHING beats Gillion's monologue.

It's the way it starts off being quiet and Gillion's voice slowly creeps up in volume. The way it builds until the first "I hate you" and then EVERYTHING comes out, like the floodgates were just opened and he physically can't stop. It's painful for him to recall his memories as a child, failing over and over again. It's so agonising for him to describe his banishment, which must be so loaded with conflicting emotions. When he asks to be failed as Gillion Tidestrider, it's DESPERATE. And the fucking closing line...

"I'm sorry I couldn't be the chosen one you wanted. I'm not even the chosen one I wanted."

It's so cathartic yet it's not triumphant. Because Gillion has finally given himself some more room to express his own emotions after episode upon episode upon EPISODE of repressing it, making this a very satisfying moment!!! But uh, yeah, when you examine everything about the scenario and Gillion's own wording it's far from being happy. And I just think that's very neat because not every story takes that kind of care with their characters - they'll just expect characters to get over their trauma in one big hurdle and that's very much not how trauma works...

So anyhow just another messy tangent about the trials because I'm a Gillion fan so of course I'm gonna obsess over the segment that's just Gillion Tidestrider mental breakdown. Love this campaign. :)) My tormented blorbo. :))))

i just think he’s neat

JUST ROLL WITH IIUTTTTTT

WHAT

These are the two canonical Jay Ferin shoe references.

Why is she in heels???

WHY IS SHE IN HEELS????

Listen I get that Jay is a marksman and an archer, and very rarely fights in close quarters, and I also understand that these aren't stiletto height, and the platforms are a reasonable width, but you cannot tell me that Jay took down her father, won the paramount tournament, travelled to a different realm and broke into like... At least three military buildings, and wore heels the whole time???

It's a MASSIVE slay, of course. But surely she doesn't wear these casually?

“When I was a little guppy, they told me humans were greedy, self indulgent, destructive creatures who live their lives recklessly at the expense of others. But when I came here, I chose not to listen — when I boarded your vessel, when I was invited upon it by you and Jay, you took me aboard and I felt as if I could trust you.”

“Anyway, they told me a lot of things — not all of which have been true. The more time I spend up here with you, even Caspian, everyone I’ve met- even Edyn, the more I realize that they raised me to be a weapon.”

gillion in episode 15 vs in episode 63

doodles of 🔥🔥KURT WAGNER🔥🔥 specifically from CNWrites fanfiction “weapon by name” which has me by the throat currently

this is how I see him:3 in my head he has less control of his tail and finds it a little harder to stop from emoting with it. also pupils.. like a cat.. he can’t force them to keep from dilating or constricting so his pupils often give away his fear (or other emotions but he wasn’t feeling much of anything was he now)