Thinking About How When You Experience A Lot Of Shame In Your Formative Years (indirectly, Directly,

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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Hi real quick does anyone have the cat gif that goes like this

Hi Real Quick Does Anyone Have The Cat Gif That Goes Like This

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I'm Collecting Them Like Pokemon
I'm Collecting Them Like Pokemon
I'm Collecting Them Like Pokemon
I'm Collecting Them Like Pokemon

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*in a fake body cast, interrupting your conversation* i just think its cruel how not one of you has mentioned my… condition.

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