maybe i’m just projecting but i think there’s an inherent loneliness in living with a severe mental illness that makes you feel permanently estranged from others and long for the kind of connection where you feel completely understood and accepted, all while knowing other people have their own stuff to deal with or are just not equipped to ride out the worst of the illness with you. this leads to downplaying and/or hiding your symptoms as best you can, which takes even more of a psychological toll on you. this leads to not feeling loved as a complete person, and maybe not recognizing that love when it is present, or always fearing the day people have had enough and leave. even more so if this has already happened to you. it’s so exhausting and sad
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generally speaking when it comes to mental and physical health, if you're asked "do you struggle with this" and your answer is "no, Because I Have A System," then your answer is actually yes
something that genuinely annoys me as a chronically ill person is getting constantly asked only about my health. how are you? how are you dealing with it mentally? im the same as always. this is my normal. i don't want to be constantly asked about it. cant you be interested in something else about me. not my health. ask me about what I've been doing. what am i listening to. any fun dreams ive had. it gets really depressing very fast when every single interaction with others ends up starting with your chronic illnesses.
like i know it feels fucking different to you and you with your perfect health can't even imagine how someone is living like this. but this is my life. this is my normal. and id like to get treated like im more than just my illness
got diagnosed with fibromyalgia today
I know SEVERAL afab nonbinary people who, as soon as they came out as nonbinary - immediately began dressing in ridiculous hyper-femme outfits they never would have worn before. A lot of people see this and say shit like “Theyfab” or say they are only nonbinary for attention. After all, look how femme they are.
But to me, this makes perfect sense. When you are forced into the category of “woman” against your will, femininity is a chore. It’s a job that you have. As soon as you say no, I’m not a woman, suddenly femininity isn’t your job anymore. It’s not a requirement. It’s just a fun hobby you can get into. Or a little treat sometimes.
they should make a version of grad school that doesn’t exacerbate your mental illness(es)
it being dark before 6pm might be my final boss actually
SzPD: I am so Normal right now :) *feeling Nothing at All, trapped inside the Meat Prison*
StPD: 'Got a little bit too eccentric' disorder
PPD: Constantly checking behind them because the fear of getting backstabbed is just Too Real
BPD: *intense FP-related sobbing* *goes back to watching TV like nothing happened a few seconds later*
NPD: I may not be God but Goddamnit let me have this moment
HPD: Please look at me please talk to me please compliment me please I am so pretty
ASPD: Fuck around and find out
DPD: where are all the people. help. I could go for a Person right about now
AvPD: That one social reject kid that freaks out during a Powerpoint presentation
OCPD: *does a thing* Wait *does the thing again* I am performing this Task so incorrectly right now wtf *does the thing
PDNOS: That moment when not even you know what's wrong but clearly Something is up
HEY so mentally ill people that use drugs or alcohol deserve the same amount respect and support as mentally ill people who are sober!