Ezranian - Oh No. Oh No

i have this problem where i get so weirdly into specific fictional characters that my intensity of emotion about them radiates out into entire franchises and next thing you know im reading entire novels based on star wars or watching the original series of doctor who

if i wanted to could i just. start parting my hair on the other side. is that allowed

i just looked em up and? theres a kind that doesnt have a y chromosome?? and theyre on the same little japanese island as the amami rabbit, those weird living fossil rabbit guys who eat the weird red seed things????

I just learned about spiny rats and they just look exactly like that sounds

Doing this because it makes me happy •Ꮂ•. Im making it difficult on all of you though.

1 note- I'll go drink water

10 notes - I'll set alarms to actually care for myself

50 notes - set up a daily productivity system so I stop wasting my time doing nothing.

100 notes - ask my friends to help me buy a skirt

500 notes - get a bra & a whole bunch of other affirming clothing !!!

1k - tell my dad that my gf is also trans

2.5k - ask my dad to address me by my prefferred name & pronouns

5k - try to get therapy/psychologist

10k - girl mode at all times (start actively wearing makeup/clothing/doing voice training around people at all times)

50k - try for HRT (0% chance) (also no guarantee on this one)

Asfgg. It feels surprisingly good to have a bunch of strangers who want me to be happy

I have now set up alarms for eating, waking up, and hygene related stuff. I seriously doubt we get to 500, but this has made me significantly happier •Ꮂ•

Doing some math... 25 notes in 4 hours. 6.25 notes per hour. 8000 hours or 333 days until this hits 50k. Hrt in a year ig.

Um. Wow. Its been a day, and we're almost at 300. Everything 500 & below was supposed to be things I'd do with minimal intervention. But now, we're getting to the scarier stuff. I am very intimidated, but also excited

My gf really badly wanted to be here when I buy some of the clothing, so the skirt will be this week, the rest of the clothing will be when she comes back from vacation

Saying that you're force femming me is so not allowed. This is unfair. You have no right to make me feel the ways Im feelingggg. Stop making me happy.

Welp. I told him about my girlfriend. And things went about as poorly as expected. He said that Im parroting what other people think. Slowly taking little parts of them, and applying them to myself. Specifically, being trans. He didnt even leave it to maybes. He said with certainty that I was copying everyone else. I know 9 trans people total. Only 2 of them are my close friends. Everyone else, Im barely aquaintences with. I should have told him that regardless of whatever theories he has, this has boosted my confidence massively. Slightly less excited for 2.5k notes. At least everything after that is very positive. And at least this lets me talk about my girlfriend for ages. I dont have to say her deadname through gritted teeth. Oh context. He already knows Im trans but was ignoring it.

i Would just reset it but this is like the third one already and i have spent a significant amount of time acquiring sea creatures.. and i would like to get right back into that without having to recreate The Museum Pile….

hoping to find the strength within myself to not reset my acnh island and instead simply weather the guilt of a bunch of little virtual animals saying “hey i missed you where have you been”

i would like to be done having surgeries for a while now please

have to get up in like six hours to. get my wisdom teeth removed. this is fine

oh no. i might cry. i might be a fuckin nerd

And now it’s time for one last bow Like all your other selves

i hav.. a new guy…….

i have A Lot of characters but i dont really draw or write or anything so theyre mostly used for playing video games. i keep track of them all with a google doc that i do not update enough. im going to have to spend like a week making them all on heroforge sometime.

also i REALLY want to play skyrim as my new guy or my other, slightly less new guy or even a third, only moderately new guy

the funny part is that They Are but they like to pretend otherwise so they can reasonably be more of a goofy weirdo

i want to know if there are qwerty keyboards in star wars, goddamnit