It was intended. I did intentionally, with my sane mind I chose to stay in my home three more days. Do I regret it? NO. Never. I'm so glad that I was brave enough to make that decision. For someone who have no friend and had to spend every time inside four walls so far away from my comfort place, choosing to stay in that protection and familiarity of my home, never felt wrong. If the price I had to pay for that is missing out on an one-hour class, forty-five minutes of nagging, anger and frustration being thrown at my face or even bringing forth my childhood trauma that I try so hard to overcome, I am ready to accept that. Even if I do went back in time, I would still choose to do the same thing, perhaps in a different way but I would do it again.
I do not at all regret my decision. Not even a single percent. Not once at any point, I thought that perhaps I shouldn't have stayed longer. NO. I was safe and happy while being home. I slept well and ate well. I would never exchange it for anything. And no one has to understand this too. I chose myself and I don't have any regret for doing so. That's all matters.
Pomegranate Feast ๐
You know that feeling of wanting to do a lot and have so much plan that you can even imagine yourself in the next few years but you just don't know how to or what to do to reach that place. I'm feeling lost!!
I never knew how beautiful it looked until I look at it from up here โค
My first time trying fasting with my malay friends for Ramadhan month. It wasn't that hard but my will power made it all work i guess ๐ Whatever I enjoyed it and I made it happen. I'm so proud of myself. Today I proved to myself that I can do whatever i want if i want to.
GO GO DYNAMITE!!
Dear Namjoon,
Happy Birthday Kim Namjoon aka RM of BTS. I've been saying this so many times but still once again thanks to your name 'namjoon' that trend on twitter i was able to find BTS. And Thank you to the speech you delivered at United Nation's General Assembly I was able to embrace myself for who I am and started loving myself.
If it's not because of bts, if it's not because of message each of your songs hold I dont know how I would have passed those hard days. Your words have me strength and hope to go through it.
Thank you for leading this group well and being the bestest leader in this universe. I wish there's a better word than I love you but know this I really love you.
์ฌ๋ํด ๋จ์กฐ๋ ๐๐๐
# #RM # #MOONCHILD #BTSARMY #RMTheOnlyOneEver
One of the precious thing i've ever received as a gift ๐
I played with colour powder today for the first time. Today my college is celebrating its 20th anniversary. So due to that we had many activies and many people including alumni, people from nearby housing area, parents and many more came to our college today. We had food stalls and other activities. Colour run was one of it. Firstly in the morning we ran around the college in the college compound. Then after that the winners were announced. First 150 students won the medal. Then started the most important moment. It's none other than colour fight. Evryone started targeting their friends and throw colour powder towards them. The field was full of colours flying in the air. We all were wearing a white shirt provided so it made the colour clearly visible and added more fun to it. Some were chasing their friends to throw colour on them while the other were throwing colours on their friends' faces and shirt.
I threw the powder high in the sky. And it fell back on me again. That made me so happy. I was surrounds by colours. For some reason my heart felt that happines. My friends threw colour powder on me and i also threw back at them. Since i wear spectacle, my spec all got colour. ๐๐คญ But it was still fun though. This is my first time playing colour powder. Indians used to celebrate this as holy but since its rarely celebrated in my country i have never celebrated or played with it before. So i was double excited. But one weird thing is my colour powders didnt finish at all. It was like a magic packet. I kept using the colour powder in it but still i had some left. So in the end i had to give my colour powder to friends and asked them to finish it. It's weird right. I was super excited today. I even jumped in the air to express my happiness. I also took alot of pictures as memories. With my friends and without my friends too.
The only thing that worried me was i didnt had enough friends. I only had 3 of them to play colour powder with me. It would have been best if i had many friends. And that's how your supposed to enjoy this game too. That's the only thing i wasnt satisfied about. But yet I enjoyed myself. My first experience of playing with colour powder turned into one of my beautiful memory. And one of the bucket list is ticked off.
Here's a picture taken before the run. My shirt was as white as a paper.
And here the picture after the run (ft. Nysaa and Nad)
This is me with my classmate. Actually there were some more of them but couldnt find them all at that time. So we just took it with whom were there. Haha
Honestly I had a lot of fun today even though i didnt had many people to share the fun with me. I shared the joy with those who are genuinely happy to share the fun with me. I want to have more days like this in future. And I wanted to shared that joy with many more people. Hopefully it'll happen soon.
Anyways thank you KMM for organizing such a great event today and giving us opportunity to make great memories with loved ones.
And yeah Happy 20th Anniversary KMM ๐ฅณ๐ฅณ Thank you for the life lessons you're teaching me. Even though you are lack in some ways and give me hard times sometime I'll take it as a way to improve myself as a person. And I'll make sure to make you proud too. Just like how your previous students (alumni) did. Thank you and I love you ๐๐
P.S : I'm writing this right after came back from the colour run. I havent took my bath yet. Then only i'll see the colour river flowing in my bathroom ๐คญ๐๐.
Atleast for a day, atleast try to go out escape from those four walls and see what's happening outside. There's a beautiful world out there.
Loweena Gonasegaran ๐ ๐ ๋ฐฉํ์๋ ๋จ ์๋ฏธ ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐ฉ๐๐ค๐ฅ ๐
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