I just lost my more than a decade worth of memories. Every picture taken on an ordinary day or on special occasions to remember the moments, photos of me with those I will never have a chance to take another one with, every video taken and created, every document and notes that helped me with my studies, from random downloads to important information, everything is gone. Just like that. What I wanted to keep safe with me forever, what I always afraid of losing, is now lost forever. My photos, videos, documents, screenshots, assignments, past year papers, example question paper, my only pictures with my previous classmates. All gone. I only wanted to keep it safe. But now it looks like I can never get it back. I'm sorry to every one whose memories I failed to bring with me. I swear it wasn't intended. I'm so very sorry. Please forgive me. I wish I can turn back time. Please let any miracle happen. Show me some mercy dear God, please π
Why no one's curious about me ? π
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I dont ask for help from just anyone. That's who i am. That's what my character is. Because i believe help that's not get after asked for it hurts even more.
"These are the times we need trust more than doubt and care more than anger."
I have seen/experienced familiar things before but what happened today was unbelievable. I felt... betrayed. I never thought I would have to go through a day like this and that too involving that particular person. I should never ever think that one is good cause you never know when they'll step away. I was honestly hurt today. Maybe I was being kind towards the wrong person.
I had a dream today and in the dream i had a boyfriend ππ I dont really have a boyfriend in my real life but i had one in that dream π He and me was going to go out. So he decided to borrow a rental bicycle to take me around the place to visit them. I was the one have to fill up the form first. I asked him if is it okay to choose the starting and returning point at the same place we filled up the form, he said that would be expensive. That rental shop also provided the service where they send and take the rental bicycle from the place we chose. He asked me to wait for a while and went somewhere. After sometime he came back and tell me a place's name. I wasnt sure about the spelling so i handed him the pen and asked him to write. He took over the pen from me and filled up the rest of the form. He was wearing a grey shirt and if i'm not wrong a grey shirt with a white dhoti. I cant clearly remember him now. But, it felt real. Everytime when he crossed by me, i could felt his smell. It was so real. Really real. I've never imagined before that i'll have such dream. Why did I had such dream ?? Why do i have to meet a guy who said to be my boyfriend when i dont have one in my real life ?? It was so confusing yet a different feeling. Oh yeah. In the end we visited all around the city and he safely returned the bicycle. I asked him if he has returned it safely and he nodded yes. I dont remember what city it is or where the places we went. But i do remember sitting in between his hands at the front while the was riding it. Then, in the last i said goodbye to him smilely and thanked him for the day. We went in different ways. My sleep was over. And That' THE END.
Life goes on π
yeah, the past was honestly the best but my best is what comes next
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My life in KMM in short. But i'll never stop running towards my goals no matter how thorny the part is πͺπ₯
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