Do You Wanna Know How Many Times I Tore Myself Apart Cause You’re Not Here

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Purity

our love

when it was there

so pure it was

yet there was a gap

a gap which somehow

could never be filled

constantly it felt as if something was missing

but I know one thing for sure

it sure made me happy

and it sure was real.

Happy International Lesbian Day, and shout-out to all our lesbian followers!

If you’re looking to learn some lesbian history to celebrate the day, check out our episodes on these wonderful women - it’s impossible to say for certain if all these women were lesbians, but they definitely have a place in our conversations about the history of women loving women!:

Anne Lister - 19th century English landowner who journalled the intimate details of her love affairs with women in Secret Lesbian Code.

Audre Lorde - self-described “Black, lesbian, mother, warrior, poet” who fought for women who, like her, were excluded from mainstream US feminism, whether because of class, race, sexuality, or disability.

Yoshiya Nobuko - prolific author whose popular works on friendships and romances between women made her the richest woman in Japan

St Brigid of Kildare - 5th-century abbess whose rejection of marriage and relationship with fellow nun Darlugdach has made her an inspiration to Irish queer women

Chavela Vargas - Costa-Rican-born musician who put a lesbian spin on traditional Mexican music

Bíawacheeitchish - a renowned warrior, and highly ranked Crow chief in the 19th century, who married four wives (note this image is of Barcheeampe, a possibly-fictional Crow woman who may have been inspired by Bíawacheeitchish - we sadly have no pictures of Bíawacheeitchish herself)

[Images: portrait of Anne Lister; photograph of Audre Lorde next to blackboard which reads “Women are powerful and dangerous”; Yoshiya Nobuko; stained glass window of St Brigid; Chavela Vargas singing on stage; line-drawing of Barcheeampe on a horse holding a spear]

— an anonymous woman on coming to terms with being a lesbian in the 1950’s-60’s, from an interview with Deborah Goleman Wolf

life is like the short flash of lightning

so bright it is blinding my eyes

and if i blink the spectacle has already disappeared

i only see it when it’s over and i close them

the flash burned blue into my pupils

the thunder a bitter aftertaste

like always i wish

to have kept my eyelids open 

and truly see for once 

that spectacle that is life

Come dwell with me underneath these pink skies, hold my hand, and I will hold your heart.

e.v.e.

Heading to her new home 

*listens to straight people for 5 mins*

me:

snail mail mental health support!

hey! i know that particularly with the start of a new school year, a lot of people are feeling lonely and are struggling with their mental health. at some point, i would like to find the funds to send mental health care packages, but until then, how about some mental health support letters?

i’ll send a hand written letter along with other little things such as playlists, art, poetry, stickers, etc.! this is just to give you a little boost but if you’d like an actual pen pal and feel like writing back, feel free to do so but it’s definitely not a requirement or expectation!

unfortunately, i can only do this within the UK, but even if you’re not in the UK i’d appreciate if you could reblog to help reach more people.

if you’re interested, please message me with your name and address for me to send the letter, along with your pronouns, what you’ve been struggling with, and some of your favourite things (favourite colours, animals, anything!)