Me: *knitting Casually* LOUD THUNDER CLAP Me: 😱😬😳 *KNITS FASTER*

People who are not afraid to text you 40 times in a row and don’t take it personally if you haven’t replied are literally the most valuable members of our society and should be recognized as such

oh emily wilson translation of the iliad we’re really in it now

As an autistic person I do not identify with the “autism creature” meme. I am an autism monstrosity, I am an autism beast, I am even an autism horror.

I get to go to the doctor and be tested for different things. Joint pain really hurts and brain isn’t working right now. Mom thinks I have arthritis but only 22 years old. I know arthritis happens to all ages, just sad. I’m worried if I can write still. Can I draw still? Good news tho! I’m getting a forearm crutch soon. Might help more than a cane. Been using cane for a while, want more stability though so figured arm crutch? I’m sorry if this doesn’t make sense, I’m struggling with words right now.

Also, if I’m putting wrong tags, let me know. I’m sorry, I’m trying

One of the worst parts about being autistic is never knowing why. Not knowing why you don't get invited to things, not knowing why people bully you, not knowing why you can't make friends or get a date or connect with people. There's no cheat sheet or exit survey or easy fix. It's just lonely and isolating.

SCREAMING INTERNALLY AND EXTERNALLY EXISTENCE IS PAIN

When trying to fall asleep,

NT brain:

Autistic/ADHD brain:

*music you heard an hour ago playing on repeat*,

*leaves one leg out of blanket to regulate temperature*,

"My neighbors are stomping their feet again and I can't sleep until they stop moving",

*events of the day come out in flashback moments*,

*that one tiktok video you saw keeps playing in your head*

*thinks about a hypothetical conversation with therapist*,

"sh*t I forgot to pee again",

"My hands/feet/lips feel very dry so I can't sleep",

"I feel thirsty, but my bladder is already full",

*thinks about events of tomorrow*

"Why isn't my sleep medication working?"

*starts to feel hungry*

*side turn, exchange the leg that was under the blanket*

*starts noticing their tinnitus*,

*wants to absolutely Google something, before I forget*,

*music keeps playing louder and starts vibing on it, until you remember you have to sleep*,

*shushes ownself in an effort to quiet brain down and fails repeatedly*

"Why am I in hell?"

Such a beautiful thing and no I didn't just ball my eyes out lol (I cried hard because I needed that) Thank you

Prayers for Suicidal Hellenic Polytheists

(I’m having a really bad suicidal day, so this is inspired by @aro–aphrodite)

May Zeus provide you the strength to live, and the safe refuge of his protection for when the urges become too much.

May Hera remind you in your darkest hours, the most important relationship is the one with yourself; and may she bless and strengthen the bond of that very union.

May Poseidon keep you safe in all voyages, including the journey that is life. May he prevent you from drowning in both your thoughts and the waters deep below.

May Demeter keep you warm and love you just like a mother. May she send forth gifts of a still soothed mind, and allow all your efforts in recovery to be fruitful.

May Athena, destroyer of Giants, slay the urges and intrusive thoughts too large to defeat on your own. May she protect you and bless you with the will to keep fighting.

May Apollon be by your side, whether it be during therapy or at your bedside in the ward. May he be a ray of light to give you a glimmer of hope.

May Artemis shield you, and provide you relief. May you never be thrown to the wolves, but rather have the courage to bear your teeth for your own defence.

May Ares cover your battle scars, and protect you from more. May he give you the courage of an entire army, and the support of one to. May you be reminded that you need not to win every battle to win the war.

May Aphrodite shower you with the love you deserve, including the love of yourself for yourself. May she remind and teach you that you are beautiful.

May Hephaistos provide you a creative outlet; a distraction to keep hands busy without a blade. May he teach you you can’t forge yourself without the flame, but you have been setting yourself on fire far too long.

May Hermes provide you a safe haven; be it a support group, or even just long drives in the rain to clear your head. May he hold your hand as you cross bridges, and let you find change on the ground after you do not jump.

May Dionysos put a smile on your face, and stand strong along side you, urging you to dance; he knows mental illness all to well. Dance away the demons, dance into relief.

May Haides, somber but not always impartial, lead you away from the incoming cars, and drop sweet nectar into your mouth. It is not yet your time.

May Persephone remind you that the greatest fall can lead you to the greatest heights. There is something honourable about walking out of rock bottom with your head held high, or walking on through like you own the place.

May Hestia keep you warm when your emotions are spent, leaving you numb and cold. May she bless you with a feeling of home whenever possible, and keep those hearth fires burning. And your own inner fire strong, as well.

The Gods demand Arête, your personal best. Arête is not being the most successful person in the world. Sometimes it is merely staying alive. And staying alive, well, that makes the Theoi very happy.

It’s never too late to learn the right way to do things: button sewing technique via imgur → more…

If you wish you were manic read this:

The consequences will be disastrous

You may lose your job/get bad grades

You will yell at people

You will lose friends/quarrel with family

The money you spend won't just reappear

You will neglect basic hygiene

Manic episodes physically hurt your brain

You will struggle with cognitive issues for a long time even after the episode passes

You can get imprisoned

After you come out of an episode you will be ashamed and guilty

It's not worth it

Fall in love with your stability

Mania can be good at first but you know what happens later

You can't stop a full blown episode

Psychosis

Paranoia

Narcissism