i am so sorry if you are feeling hopeless. please hang on and remember it’ll get better, whether your mental illness allows you to believe it or not.
beep beep sometimes when you have been in survival mode for a long time the parts of you dedicated to Wanting Things atrophy and you forget how to envision a future that feels rewarding because you are busy with the business of staying alive, and it can seem like your life must be pointless because you can’t imagine any long term goals. sometimes even when you leave survival mode you can’t remember how to Want Things. that doesn’t mean you need to give up on having a good and fulfilling life, it just means that Wanting Things is a muscle you need to gradually strengthen. the part of you that has dreams and aspirations is still there, it just fell asleep, but if you wiggle it enough it can and will regain feeling. it’s okay to start small
an accomplice turned victim his apology, long overdue
Endgame - Alena Aenami
just something terrible about the fact that there really aren’t kids websites anymore and now there aren’t adult websites either. kids don’t have neopets or club penguin or anything else like that to go on now where there could be appropriate moderation for their age, and so now you have 9 year olds on tik tok and instagram seeing content that’s not appropriate for them, and the adults on these platforms get censored to death because “think of the children” that shouldn’t even be there in the first place. kids would not give a shit about these things if they had their own spaces to go. but now everyone loses and you have an algorithm that shows pro-ED videos and thirst traps to preteen girls and bans adults for saying “my grandma died yesterday” instead of “my grandma un4l!v3d.” makes me freak out a little bit
“I’m not enough” enough What get a grip the sun is shining
i need everyone to understand the poetry of curly turning a blind eye to anya’s suffering only to be robbed of his autonomy and voice as she was and then forced to observe jimmy’s crimes and the abuse of his own body
haha i like you. I’ll be growing on you like moss now if that’s alright