I Genuinely Need To Talk More About Shifting On Here Because I Need More Shifting Friends And I'm Lowkey

I'm trying to think about more details for my call of duty dr which is my main Dr.

Things in trying to figure out is which part of England woild I live in? In my Dr I'm from Ireland thoigh my families moved to England when I was around idk between 6-14

I imagine my parents have g a farm in the countryside, and I'm loving in an apartment in a bigger town/city thoigh I know very little about England and would love some help lol

For people on this website who have shifted, I would love to hear your stories and experiences. I haven't shifted myself, at lwast on purpose.

It's a cringy story ngl but it happened way before I even knew what shifting was, but I was super into lucid dreaming. So if anyone knows who markiplier is, you might have heard of darkiplier. I was shamlessly obsessed with him back then 😭. Like it was the kind of obsessed I wanted to get kidnapped by him so I could live my dream life. This was 7th grade maybe? Thank God that was close to six years ago now.

So one night I was sleeping in my floor because I was a maniac and thought the concrete floor in my bedroom was comfortable. In the morning u was woken up by someone picking my head up off of my pillow by my hair! It didn't hurt though. They just pulled my head up and I heard what I belive was supposed to be darkiplier say "it's time to wake up" 😭 of course I didn't listen. I looked, expecting to see someone's feet above my head and there was nothing, so I just went back go sleep.

It was hard to wrap my head around when I woke up. I literally thought it was a dream. I'm pretty sure I was awake, though.

I hate thinking back on my 7th and 8th grade years like, what was wrong with me? But this is when I think I shifted?

I have no idea why but recently I've had no intrest in shifting. Like none at all. I don't think about any of my drs like at all anymore and I can't put my finger on why. It's frustrating and I can't tell if it's a good think I'm not obsessing or if It's a bad thing.

I'm not sure what else to say I usualy just rant on here

That's exactly what it feels like! I've tried to get excited about it but I just can't

I have no idea why but recently I've had no intrest in shifting. Like none at all. I don't think about any of my drs like at all anymore and I can't put my finger on why. It's frustrating and I can't tell if it's a good think I'm not obsessing or if It's a bad thing.

I'm not sure what else to say I usualy just rant on here

I'm pretty sure I shifted twice recently. Just out of the blue. I'm excited about it but in the moment it was just normal and I didn't even question it.

It wasn't my dr but little differences. One night I woke up to ocean sounds playing on my TV when I was thinking about shifting to a mermaid/merfolk dr.

This one is a little embarrassed to admit cause its a bad habit. My vape had died, and i never plugged it up. I woke up in the morning, and it was at almost 50%, and i was so confused.

Edit: Happy to say now! I've quit vapping

This is straight up just going to be a rant about things and my own insecurities. I'm not expecting anybody to actually read or respond to this, it's just for me to write my emotions down somewhere where I feel like it matters

First thing. I'm terrified of posting anything anywhere. I don't take criticism very well, and I'm scared of getting hate for things I talk about. When it comes to reality shifting things and my art.

I never post my art anywhere. Not because I think it's bad. I actually think my artwork is good. I beleove I'm good ag character design, and shading and all that. What I am insecure about is that I can't draw poses or anatomy whatsoever. I've tried and tried and I can never get it right, and I've been drawing for about 7 years or so. I always use a pose ref I find in pintrest to draw. I'm scared people will hate me for doing that, so I never post my art anywhere. I hardly even show my close friends my drawings.

Another thing, I think I act far to childish for my age. I'm gonna be 20 in a couple months, but I daydream and qander around my room and act like scenarios like a child would.

If I get interested in a topic or Fandom I make a self insert oc or character cause I wanna imagine I'm in whatever I'm focused on. I give these characters names I'd like being called, or multiple characters from diffrent shows/games/fandoms the same name cause I veiw these characters more as myself than a fictional character. I think this is pretty childish as well.

There are so many things I do that I absolutely hate about myself. Maybe voicing these things will make me feel better. Maybe I'll find some people who feel the same. Whatever. I just wanted to voice some things. I'm really not expecting anybody to interact with this shit show of a post.

Yesterday was the first time I wasn't upset with waking up without shifting. I tried right after we got home from Watchung the eclipse. I was tired. When I feel a certain kind of tired, which might sound strange, I know I'm gonna have a lidic dream or at least a vivid dream, and I did! I didn't shift like I wanted, but I got to ser my s/o, and I woke up happy! I literally said "nice that's the first step to shifting!" And I just went about my day. I'm proud of myself and my growth

Yes you do

I genuinely need to talk more about shifting on here because I need more shifting friends and I'm lowkey depressed and want to feel better by getting to my Dr so I can be around my 6'4 military boyfriend who I want to use as a weighted blanket

Neurotypical writers giving advice: Be realistic with your goals. Try to outline or write a little every day. Refill the well. Get yourself a cup of tea and write for 30 minutes until the tea is empty. Check in daily with your accountability buddies for the next three to six months.

ADHD writers giving advice: Put on a movie that matches the tone of your novel to kickstart your dopamine and get into hyperfocus, then put a song on loop on noise-cancelling headphones, livestream your writing session so you feel watched and owe someone accountability, and write as much as you can for as long as you can. Don't forget to eat, sleep or drink. Now go write that novel in 5 days.

So I may have had a shift last night. Or a mini shift? Honestly I cannot tell.

I thought it was a dream, though in the middle of it, I became super aware of things going on around me. It was like it was in real life, but everything was darker, like my dreams are and kinda monotone.

The beginning of it is very foggy I don't remember much. The layout of the paled I was in was strange so I'm not going to explain that in detail. I was jn my room and I saw Ghosy and captain Price in thus building.

My memory had been wiped apparently, so I couldn't remember Ghost, who is my s/o

I was in my room and was looking around. I found my dog tags. Thought they didn't have my name or my Dr name idk what name it was tbh. It said I was Kia on the back of them which was strange.

I remember wanting to change my clothes and actually doing so, so it was so odd.