Update On The Discord Server! We’ve Changed Some Settings To Include Fans Of ALL AGES!

I'm not a fan of that left eye next to the hand or my first try at chibi, but whatever. That one eye has a drawing behind it that I contemplated whether I should post as well or not, maybe I will someday. Those two that I drew using a highlighter were neat enough, I had to edit the picture like that so you could see it clearly

Okay, but, what if Flash calls Peter "Penis" because (he's raised by parents who calls it vile to curse) Mr. Harrington scolds them or doesn't like it when they swear. So the AcaDec team replaces slurs with other terms. Like "dick" is "penis" and "cunt" is "vagina" and "fucker" is "flipper". So it's like "Flip off, you vagina!!" Or "she's such a sexually active woman!!"

JUST YOU PEOPLE WAIT UNTIL I CAN ART AND WRITE!! THE AMOUNT OF FANFICS AND FANARTS OF MY OTPS WILL MULTIPLY BY TENTHS, I WILL SINGLE HANDEDLY CARRY MY OTP FANDOMS; JUST YOU PEOPLE WAIT!! Art block and writers' block will not hinder me...In the future. But as of now, I will die by their hands.

Contradictions

I'm the very embodiment of contradictions. The physical manifestation of duality molded into a body. I am the adjective of two extremes. To describe me is to confuse oneself, to describe me is to describe everything and nothing. I feel inferiority just as I feel superiority. I'm the most evil nice person to exist for there are equal amounts of nicety than there is evil in me. I am sinful saint. I utter the words of a god that my heart oozes no faith for, yet any arguments of my god's existence fills me with a rage like a devout.

I grieve no one and everyone. My heart beats no care or love for any entity be it my family or my friends or a lover that never will exist for my heart will hold nothing but apathy. Yet. My words and my actions are devotions of a semblance of a love that I do not feel. My thoughts are dedicated for them as if I am driven by love—yet my heart beats nothing but pumped blood.

I understand myself very well, the only person to ever understand me. Though I confuse myself all the time. I am so inexplicable that I am only explained by my name. My name is all the explanations one needs, every nuances of my being—blurred and confusing it may be for anyone but me. They explain me by uttering my name, chalk it up to [—] being [—] as if that's the only explanation for my behavior and my words and my expressions.

People talk about me as if they can understand me, as if their words are true. It is not. Even those that hold the title of my closest friend always gets it wrong. They say my name as if it explains it all despite them not knowing what it is that's actually being explained by the simple whisper of my name.

What's in a name, I wonder?

Because it definitely is not understanding.

What if: Ronmione break up songfic snd the song is "Better for You" by siopaolo

under the cut are a list of websites and articles i like, that perhaps may come in useful for writing reference. a lot of the sites linked are NSFW, so please be careful when you click! they’re separated into 5 sections (sex, drugs, death, technology, and culture) and a lot are archived links. happy browsing!

sex

boogie sites | article from 1998 detailing the rise of online porn

‘the fuck brief’ | a lawsuit regarding fuckingmachines.com, their use of the word ‘fuck’, and how it relates to the first amendment

the teenager and the porn star | longform article from 2006 (with a postscript) about then-18 year old pornstar sasha grey. features lots of in-depth info about the porn industry and the sets.

rubbed the wrong way: sasha grey’s porn set pet peeves | interview with sasha grey (then 22) focusing on her porn set dislikes

photos and stories from the secret world of strip clubs | anecdotes from strippers, taken from the book ‘wanting you to want me’ by bronwen parker-rhodes and emily dinsdale

peer inside japan’s secretive love hotels | photos of love hotels in japan, ranging from simple to extravagant

the vice guide to becoming a whore in 2004 | a-z by an anonymous sex worker detailing her lifestyle in the sex industry

a lap dancer answers 17 prying questions about working in a strip club | q&a with a lap dancer about her work

romance @ homedespot | offshoot of tokyo damage report, linking to the page about romance, love, and sex. there’s other links on the page to different sections.

bdsm ettiequte @ evilmonk dot org | simple website with a wealth of information on bdsm history, manners, and other readings.

drugs

candyland: the secret life of a tokyo coke baron | long read on the rise of foreign criminal activity in the japanese drug industry

death

the splat calculator | input some data and see how fast you’ll fall, as well as your impact velocity

tailstrike database | a database of ‘black box’ recordings/transcripts from plane crashes

9/11 thread on fark.com | one of the few livethreads on the internet providing live updates from 11/09/01; it stretches on for nine pages

i am pen pals with deathrow inmate richard ramirez aka the night stalker. ama. | reddit ask-me-anything thread with a person who is penpals with noted serial killer richard ramirez. features images of letters, drawings, and other paraphernalia the user was sent, as well as some talk about the man himself.

nukemap | drag the pointer to anywhere in the world, enter some data, and see what effect a nuclear bomb would have

inside stalin’s ‘cannibal island’ | in the 1930s, joseph stalin deported thousands of opponents and prisoners to a barren, isolated location that would become known as ‘cannibal island’

somethingawful 9/11 thread | often-referenced livethread from 9/11/01 on the website somethingawful dot com. has pictures, emojis, and other turn-of-the-century forum goodness. stretches for 18 pages (you need to click from the truegamer links to view) and has a retrospective thread from march 2002.

technology

fuck you and die: an oral history of something awful | touches on turn-of-the-century internet/messageboard culture

how shock sites shaped the internet | from shock horror movies to rotten dot com - how disgust evolved for the internet age

unscathed corpse | blogspot site gathering various other ‘curious, weird, sexiest, funny, crazy and interesting’ websites

this is what campaign websites looked like in 1996 | screenshots of political websites from the 1996 election

urban desires | online zine from 1995 focusing on various interesting topics (music, sex, food, fashion etc)

the curious history of the y2k cyberbabes | details the early 00s obsession with 3d women

next year’s models | featured in the above article, this specifically focuses on webby tookay, a virtual 3d model

disinformation dot com | defunct website from 1996 that stretches into the 00s, focusing on news that isn’t reported by the mainstream media

rotten library | ‘an unforgettable collection of all that mankind swore to forget’ - rotten dot com’s library, with various information on everything from the occult to languages to art to hoaxes

textfiles dot com | archive of ascii texts on various topics

cyborg foundation | website created in 2010 to ‘help humans become cyborgs, defend the rights of cyborgs, and promote cyborg art’

404pagefound | active vintage websites, old webpages, and web 1.0

tokyo damage report | autobiographical website from an american man living in tokyo. the css seems to have failed, so it’s rather unreadable, but you might be able to find some material if you click on the many, many links.

culture

lolita history | gallery of j-fashion magazine scans

what indie sleaze was really like at the time | article on the ‘indie sleaze’ movement and subculture of the mid-00s

answer me! | magazine from 1991-94 featuring social pathologies and various topics

aids in the heartland | series of articles from the late 80s providing an on-site look at the aids crisis in rural america

how to be amuro! | fansite for japanese singer namie amuro; this section focuses on how to look and dress like the singer, providing a useful insight into the budding gyaru style of japan

hubris | an online journal that the user has been keeping since 1998

a look inside british invasion obsessed teen magazines (1965-1966) | photos of articles and comics from 16 magazine during the height of the british invasion

hippies from a to z | everything you ever wanted to know about hippies, by a hippy

s&m: brutally good indie | text-only playlist from a college radio station that ran from september 2000 to december 2001

mixing for the 80s | interesting article from 2009 on how 80s songs were mixed

video vixens tell all about the ‘wild west’ mtv days of the 80s and 90s | various models from videos for artists such as zz top, jay-z, and billy idol detail what working as a ‘video vixen’ was like

britney spears and the myth of the ‘get ready with me’ video | thinkpiece on the culture of GRWMs and how they have affected personal appearance

and you thought you were obsessed with buffy the vampire slayer…: makeup counter | fansite page detailing the cosmetic makeup used on the set of buffy the vampire slayer, as well as makeup worn by main actress sarah michelle gellar in her spare time

tooth and nails | 1997 article on the rise of urban decay, which at the time was a fledgling makeup brand making major waves in the industry

urban decay shrine | neocities website featuring various products, adverts, and other outside links relating to the ‘glory days’ of urban decay

yolk magazine, 1994-2003 | blogspot article about yolk magazine, a magazine targeted at the asian-american demographic. the blog as a whole also focuses on chinese-american visual artists and culture, and stretches back to 1861!

star1973 dot com | star was a short-lived controversial teen magazine from 1973 that circulated around la’s teenage groupie scene and glam rock.

capitol hill staffers explain dc’s complex dress codes | the world of political fashion is probably more complicated than you could have imagined

fr tho why is everything smut😭😭 i wanna read angst that would ruin me, make me sick to my stomach and cry like there's no tomorrow bro i want a fanfic that is so devastating that i won't be able to function for the next few months

Nijimura Shuuzou is god.

Also, reading HP fanfics made me find out that....damn. Fanfics from, like, 2004 or something are so fucking awesome. Like, like, I love them. And reading fics from that far back makes you see the progression of fanfiction in AO3, but, main point is, they were going hard back then.

I used to know but I'm not sure now what I was made for what was I made for?