After Figuring Out That I Most Likely Have Autism, Reading Books On It, Etc, My Life Has Started To Make

Sebastian Stan and Shailene Woodley in Endings, Beginnings (2019)

They need to create a new Oscar category just for Sebastian Stan's devastatingly expressive eyes

I'm just like. Always on the verge of tears. If I sit still for too long and don't have something to occupy my brain, my eyes start welling up with tears and I find it hard to breathe. I don't even think I'm actively anxious about anything. Like there's background stuff, like always, but I'm fine lowkey. I just feel like bursting into tears wtf.

SEBASTIAN STAN

For Men's Health magazine (2019)

Imagine having late night talks with Bucky Barnes…

“Hey, Bucky?” you turn on your side to face him.

“Yes, doll?”

“Are missions scary?” you wonder.

He tilts his head and shrugs, “Not really.”

“But what about all the scary guys with guns and those aliens?” your brows furrow.

“I’m used to it,” the corners of his lips curve upwards, “You’re dating an old, wise one-hundred-year-old man, Y/N.” He leans up to kiss your forehead, “I’ve seen the world.”

You huff, “Well then what are you afraid of?”

Bucky reaches his hand out to you. He caresses your cheek and moves your stray hairs behind your ear, “Losing you.”

Neurotypical after a successful social interaction: That was fun, it was great to see them again!

Me after a successful social interaction: I made such a normal amount of eye contact. I deserve some cheese.

Here’s looking at you 🩵🩵🩵

And then I probably won’t pick up anyway

The autistic despair of someone saying “I’ll call you later” and not knowing the exact time when they’re gonna call

It’s like being on alert mode for hours please don’t