inspired by an illustration from a 1950 magazine
we'll sit by the window
we'll watch the storm coming
the darkest skies open
the strongest wind blowing
we'll see it take over
the world as we know it
we'll be left with nothing
but each other's hoping
for the days to come after
the days of redemption
to finally bring forth
our longed-for salvation
and yet we'll be crying
and yelling, denying
for no one has taught us
how to handle dying
i wish i could stop this
and hold you forever
but this very moment
is worth more than ever
we'll sit by the window
and watch the storm coming
once we had a future
soon we will be nothing
Arial B.
September 2023
Earth at Night, Black Marble
Joan Jett at the Aragon Ballroom, Chicago, Illinois, United States, 25th March 1977
đź“· Michael Ochs Archives/Getty Images
truly some people have no genre savviness whatsoever. A girl came back from the dead the other day and fresh out of the grave she laughed and laughed and lay down on the grass nearby to watch the sky, dirt still under her nails. I asked her if she’s sad about anything and she asked me why she should be. I asked her if she’s perhaps worried she’s a shadow of who she used to be and she said that if she is a shadow she is a joyous one, and anyway whoever she was she is her, now, and that’s enough. I inquired about revenge, about unfinished business, about what had filled her with the incessant need to claw her way out from beneath but she just said she’s here to live. I told her about ghosts, about zombies, tried to explain to her how her options lie between horror and tragedy but she just said if those are the stories meant for her then she’ll make another one. I said “isn’t it terribly lonely how in your triumph over death nobody was here to greet you?” and she just looked at me funny and said “what do you mean? The whole world was here, waiting”. Some people, I tell you.
i wrote a twin cinema poem about two gay soldiers in wwi
context: the two sides, read separately, are the two soldiers thinking about their futures with each other. when read together, it's a reflection of their final thoughts when they die together struck by bullets <3
Esquire Magazine - 1950