My Answer Will Be Under The Cut As Well (I Couldn't Write That Long Answer Haha), But I Do Have To Clarify

my answer will be under the cut as well (I couldn't write that long answer haha), but I do have to clarify in the beginning that I'm not a doctor or something, so this is just what I think I would do in a similar situation

tw: eating disorder

I don't know what your exact "goal" with weight is, at some parts it seemed like you want to lose weight, at some others it seemed like the loss of appetite is worrying you... which can absolutely coexist of course, and here goes what I want to say:

I haven't heard about this Zoloft before, apparently it's an antidepressant. even if losing appetite was listed as a symptom, I don't think it should be ignored (two weeks seems an awful lot for a side effect to last, or at least to me - I haven't had any meds with serious side effects yet). if you can trust your doctor with it (because I know there are some assholes out there with a Dr. before their name...), I think you should tell her about it. maybe you could switch to another kind of antidepressant which doesn't have / has less serious side effects (only if switching to another one doesn't make you uncomfortable, of course)

about the weight loss thing itself, again, I don't know what you want to do about your weight (and you absolutely don't have to share if you don't want to). but, anything you want to do with your weight should be connected to your eating and moving (?). even if you want to lose weight, I'm about 100% sure starving yourself isn't the right way to do it; you don't even necessarily have to eat less. there are many types of diets and special eating methods (?) that you can choose from. yes, it takes time to browse through them all and the one that you think you like might not even be available to you because (bad example): it would require you to eat pineapple every day, but you live in the Arctic; but it's still worth in the end. you don't need to starve yourself, you need food even if you want to lose weight. (also, important note that as much as you shouldn't starve yourself, you shouldn't stuff yourself either. for very different reasons, but I had a short period where I didn't want to eat much, but I tried to notice when I started feeling "enough" and what felt like "too much", and eat an amount somewhere in between these two. no need to eat until you're sick of it)

so yeah, all in all, I think it would be good if you talked with your doctor (maybe even through the phone, if that's okay with both of you - the longer you keep losing weight, the more serious it can become later on), because the side effects you mentioned are kind of worrying to me :c and if you want to lose weight, but differently, it could be helpful to look after some kind of diet (maybe even with the help of a dietetic - if there's one available)

aaaaaaand also again, I'm not a doctor at all, I just tried to imagine myself into your situation and think about what might be helpful, I hope I could help <3

[the two (?)s are because I'm not sure I used the right word, I'm sorry if I didn't make sense :D also, I'll tag this post with your tags as well, so people can avoid it if it triggers them]

ed rant under the cut bc this might trigger ppl and i dont want that :(

i started zoloft two weeks ago, i'm on the lowest dose and most of the side effects have worn off (still getting headaches most days, some dizziness, the fatigue and sleepiness is subsiding which iam v grateful for bc dealing with that on top of chronic fatigue wasn't easy)

but like..... i'm absolutely not hungry. i don't feel the need to eat and i'm content with very small portions. i know loss of appetite and nausea are possible side effects, but i wasn't expecting it to hit this hard dfherh. i dont have much nausea, but mostly i can't eat before noon, all i have is water and coffee, and trying to eat just makes me lowkey nauseous. it's triggering some good ol ed thinking patterns, and i kinda hope i can stay on this medication once i see my doctor again. smh. because i'll keep losing weight. so far i'm down 40 lbs since august 2020, and i want to lose maybe another 15 lbs. i don't have a scale and only get weighted every 3 months, when i get my birth control injection, so that's at least? helping me not spiral too much?

when i saw my doctor in april, my doctor wanted to send me in for a psych eval, because yes i was seeing her for anxiety symptoms, but i also have depression and psychotic symptoms. so there was talk about maybe switching out medications after we have a proper diagnosis, and she talked of seroquel to really target all my symptoms including the psychosis. i'm terrified because weight gain is a side effect, and i really don't want to go back.

i dont know. there's a lot going on in my head and i'm trying my best to eat at least a bit to keep me going, but this whole loss of appetite is really triggering and i'm leaning into it to restrict, even tho i can't do as much being chronically ill now, i become weak very fast if i try to fast :(

that's all rgihrtgi if you've read this thank u, idk if anyone will do anyway. i feel too self conscious about this to properly journal about it. probably will write armin fanfics bc this is how i cope

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4 years ago

hello! could i request something for nevra? maybe numbers 9, 11 and 13? thank you!! 😊

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here you go, enjoy ^^ the soft spot / weakness turn out more just soft spot, it’s quite fluffy 🤭 I hope you don’t mind

9. crying

whenever Guardian cries, Nevra just tries to eliminate the source of her crying, sometimes overreacting a bit (“hey, you asshole, you made my girlfriend cry! (ง'̀-'́)ง” “....I just accidentally stepped on her foot”)

of course, this reason sometimes is Nevra himself. that’s usually harder to solve, since he’s proud and he loves Guardian at the same time. in the end, his pride is less important, and he apologises

11. bathing / showering

showering with Nevra is definitely not for the shy people, it often turns into something else if ya catch my drift

he likes to wash Guardian, his hands sometimes wondering around. he just enjoys the feeling of her curves below his hands, her smooth skin againts his

he doesn’t mind if Guardian doesn’t want to wash him, but boy is he glad to get the favour returned. her bold movements calm him down and excite him at the same time, making it hard to focus on just enjoying the feeling

13. soft spot / weakness

from Guardian’s side, her signature pleading-puppy-face is an absolute winner, always letting her get what she wants

also, just. Nevra’s head. scratch it, play with his hair, trace kisses along his jawline.... these all make him melt

he also surprisingly has a soft spot for animals. sometimes Guardian likes to say that he enjoys the company of animals more than actual people

his greatest weakness is his mother hen personality. if anything happened to the people around him, not just Guardian but also Karenn, hell, even Chrome, that would be the end of him


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2 months ago

So I have a desire to revitalise the old mcl kink meme but unfortunately the settings have been changed to no longer allow anonymous posting, so I created a new one!

Here's the MLC Kink Meme, relaunched and ready for your prompts


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5 months ago

Bodyguard (Kim x Leo)

yes, this is absolutely not the second day of December.... I have commitment issues, I'm sorry 😭 this definitely isn't my best work, but I wanted to let it out anyways, as I didn't have a really good idea in particular for this prompt

Dykecember day 2: bodyguard

Words: 696

When Crowstorm blew up overnight, all members were happy with their newfound success. 

Initially. 

However, they soon realized that fame is not without consequences: they had to change their daily routines, pay special attention to what they do in public, and deal with fans who were not familiar with the meaning of the word ‘privacy’. 

Castiel first considered it hilarious, then annoying. Then, he received (at his home!) a letter with a little vial for him to send back ‘a lock of his hair and a drop of his tear’ – the ingredients for some kind of love spell. This was the point when they decided that people will overstep their boundaries more and more often, so they need to protect themselves. 

Leo was the one to experience this kind of ‘love’ physically. She wanted to run some errands, when a group of teenagers suddenly appeared around her. They asked for selfies with her, and one boy wanted to put his arm on her waist, but ‘accidentally’ lowered it. 

Leo hired a bodyguard that afternoon.

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"Sooo, this is it." 

Leo gestured around in her apartment, not really knowing what to add. The young woman standing in front of her (who insisted on simply being called ‘Kim’) started walking around, inspecting the doors, the windows, even the view of the street and neighbouring houses. 

“You’re taking this very seriously, I can see. Did you have to protect someone really important in the past?” 

“Oh, sure.” Kim stopped her examination to turn around, facing Leo. “I’ve worked for ministers, CEOs, and people whose title I can’t even tell you. Don’t worry, I will do my best to protect you. No one will die again under my watch.” 

“...again??” 

Leo was about to ask more, but she caught Kim’s smile while she turned back again. The rocker couldn’t help but laugh – despite Kim’s initial silence, she was starting to like her newfound bodyguard. 

“Well, that’s the least I expect. I can’t pay you if I’m dead. And hey, maybe you will even find me funny. Might motivate you to keep me alive.” 

“Oh, you need to work harder than that to make me laugh.” 

--- 

It turned out, she didn’t need to work harder. Whenever it was just the two of them, in a private setting (which happened more and more often as time went on), they behaved like ages old friends. Leo was an endless source of adventurous and fascinating stories, while Kim kept Leo grounded and motivated in more ways than one. 

One day, Kim decided to check out the Instagram page of Leo. This is not something that she hasn’t done before, but she still liked to scroll there from time to time. Leo’s page (as all other members’ as well, of course) was filled with posts about their upcoming album. They worked on it for a really long time, and it was supposed to be released in two months. 

Among the sneak peaks of the album’s cover and (muted) recordings from their studio sessions, a different post caught Kim’s eye: Leo and an unknown woman kissing. 

Kim sat up straight. How did she not notice this before? 

It was posted not long after they first announced the album. It was probably part of the campaign for it, but Kim couldn’t help but feel a little sting in her chest. 

Was she jealous? 

---

When she met Leo, a couple days later, Kim had already made up her mind. What she said on her first day was clearly a joke, but developing feelings for the one she’s supposed to protect could cause serious problems for them. 

When Leo opened her door, Kim didn’t hesitate. 

“This is the last time you see me as your bodyguard. I want to end my contract.” 

Leo didn’t answer at first. She was shocked. 

“Is everything alright?” 

“I-” Kim sighed, then shook her head. “I want to protect you, but I’ve realised that I have feelings for you that aren’t right. I will always be here for you if you need me, but I don’t think I should be your bodyguard anymore.” 

With that, she turned around, not giving Leo the chance to reply. 

Dykecember challenge


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3 years ago

Wild West AU (bandit!Castiel & sheriff!Nath)

@naiinaii thank you for enduring my rants about this stupid, stupid hc

Castiel is an orphan, the banker's wife finds him and decides to take him in. he is brought up along the banker's own son, Nathaniel. the two boys are roughly the same age, maybe Nathaniel being a bit older. they grow up together, and while it was never a secret before them that they are not blood brothers, they treated each other as such

when they got older (15~17), Castiel started getting into smaller troubles here and there; not paying the baker, breaking the carriage that was trusted to him, doing all kinds of inappropriate things with the well-mannered little ladies in town

rumour said that he got into bad company one night, and now he joined them. lighting the mayor's house on fire, causing chaos at the carnival, occasionally theft

this caused a divide between Castiel and his adoptive family; while Nathaniel wanted to redeem him, his parents (especially his father) didn't even want to hear his opinion. when he felt like Castiel stepped over a line, he kicked him out without a second thought. Castiel laughed in his face "like I need your help anymore"

for years, the two boys have not met. Castiel continued the journey he started as a young man, while Nathaniel became a town marshal to clean the stain on his family's name. every single day, he'd see his old brother's face on the 'wanted' signs, wondering what went wrong

Castiel didn't stay in one place; he roamed the wild west, along a group of bandits, becoming notorious criminals. he promised himself never to return to the old town he grew up in. he caused a lot of troubles there, sometimes even people he loved (even if he denied it). he will keep himself out of their lives, that's the least he can do

he sees that he must break his promise though when a new line is built near his hometown. trains aren't the easiest to rob, but in case of success, the loot usually makes up for it. he can't betray his associates, but he also fears from returning

they have done it thousands of times. they assign the roles, take their places, and wait for their part to come. Castiel himself got the role of bait; with a smaller part of the takings, he's supposed to flee south, attracting the attention from his companions as they take the majority of the loot. there was one thing he wasn't prepared for though: with the old sheriff stepping down, Nathaniel was elected as the new one

Nathaniel expected Castiel and co. to be interested in the freshly built railway, and he knew what was the right thing to do, he only wasn't sure if he could follow through. hell, he wasn't even sure if he wanted to

picture this: Castiel and Nathaniel, standing a few steps apart from each other, eyes fixated on the other one quite homoerotic if you ask me, but let's move on

"who will I arrest today? friend or foe?" "no one. I know your tricks, you can't catch me" THE FEELINGS

everyone is free to interpret what happens later on, but I'd like to think Nathaniel lets Castiel go (maybe ask him to never return, with aching heart, but knowing this is probably for the best u_u)


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4 years ago
draconess-tania - aspiring artist

hey guys I made a uquiz - what nostalgic thing i've been using to cope lately are YOU? link will b in the reblogs


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5 years ago

Dear stranger who was just wandering around the internet and arrived here. My name is Tania and I absolutely love reading books. I made this blog to repost content I find, but occasionally I will also post something original (it would be easier if I knew how to write, draw or edit properly). I am a good listener (or let's say reader) so if you have anything on your mind, feel free to message me! I think that's all for now. To be honest, I don't know how I am supposed to start a tumblr page, but I think I did it well. Have a nice day xoxo

4 years ago

Eldarya Valentine's Day 2021 continuation - Lance

I still don't know if anyone's interested, but I'm feeling inspired, bear with me

Words: 320

Guardian's P. O. V.

"Don't you think we should head back? The storm is getting heavier…"

I wasn't sure Lance even heard my words as the thunder and the knocking of the raindrops were much louder, but he did stop under a relatively large tree, with a thoughtful expression on his face. We weren't able to advance much, the the cave we left behind with the companions was still closer than the HQ.

"You're right, let's go back." Lance was ready to turn around, but I stayed there, crossing my arms.

He raised an eyebrow curiously.

"Come on. Do you want to get even more soaked?"

"Even more? I don't think that's possible." I tried to hide my smile, still not moving from my place.

"What's up? Is everything okay? You were the one you advised going back in the first place…"

"I'm just not sure I heard you well." I said, trying to appear as innocent as possible.

Lance thought for a moment, then rolled his eyes.

" You're right, is that it?" I couldn't contain my laugh anymore, leaning a bit forward in the process.

"I can be right, you know." I had a huge grin on my face, and luckily Lance was more cheerful than angry as well.

"Who said you can't be?" He took a step towards me. "I know you're smart," a kiss on my hand "beautiful," on my cheek "powerful" on my forehead "and just all in all amazing" and lastly on my lips.

"I'm sure you said all these to make me love you" I said skeptically, though the blush appearing on my face surely gave me away.

"Maybe" Lance winked at me. "But if I did so, then only for myself. Things were boring without you…"

We stood like that for a little bit, completely forgetting about the rain. A louder lightning wake us to our senses, urging us to make our way back to the cave.

You make me feel invincible, earthquake powerful, Just like a tidal wave, you make me brave.


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4 years ago
draconess-tania - aspiring artist

I made a uqiz! Which MCL student are you?


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4 years ago

Heyy! Can I ask for a headcon bout Castiel x Candy pregnancy/ kids/ domestic life? 🌚🖤

sure! I wrote "domestic life" as with kids, but if you want a general domestic life headcanon, feel free to send a new request ^^

14. pregnancy / birth

as we have already seen, Castiel looks forward to having child(ren). either if it's an accidental pergnancy or a planned one, he'll be happy when he hears the good news

he would prefer to have the child later though, so he can sort out the mess in his job and have more time for Candy and their future child

he can't possibly accompany Candy to every doctor's appointment and such of course, but he tries his best to help as much as he can when he's available

he doesn't mind going to buy weird food at even weirder hours (except the "waking up soon" part...), at least he can have a walk without anyone walking up to him

even though he's famous and all that, he won't flood his social media accounts with the news of his child. there also won't be a gender reveal party (both of them think that these are ridiculous), though they will surely have a smaller celebration among friends and family

19. domestic life / being a father

similarly to pregnancy, Castiel won't share every minute of his kid's childhood on the net

not immediately after the birth of course, but I think Castiel would get a puppy for the child to grow up together with

he'll probably put touring on a hiatus in the very beginning, so he doesn't abandon Candy completely. his work is important to him, so he will go back after some time, but he will make sure to spend time with his child even then

I can't really decide the gender of Castiel's kid. he'd most likely be more comfortable with a son (teaching him how to play the guitar, playing basketball with him, etc), while it would be really fun to see him with a daughter (that episode with Thia shows this well)

he'll most likely tell the worst dad jokes, often tell stories that start with "when I was your age..." and just generally be a chill and fun father, but that doesn't mean he won't ever be strict (though it's mostly Candy's job, poor girl has plus one child to deal with sometimes)


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4 years ago
Happy Birthday To Rayan! I Made This Little Scrapbook Edit Along With @vanillaamoursucrethings For This

happy birthday to Rayan! I made this little scrapbook edit along with @vanillaamoursucrethings for this occasion ^^


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