I Fucking Hate April Fool's Day /gen

Hey, I highly recommend checking out my YouTube channel, I have a video coming out tomorrow that is super important that I need people to watch. I won't go into too much detail here because I promised myself I was done posting about it, but long story short, I recently realized that I was being groomed, SAed, and manipulated by someone who I thought was a friend for 2 years.

The video coming out tomorrow goes into way more detail about it, but I seriously do not recommend checking it out with grooming, SA, guilt-tripping, pedophilia, and all that jazz isn't something you're fond of. This video is barely edited minus captions, the trigger warnings at the beginning, and a small message at the end, but it's something that I want to talk about and be able to move on from after the video is uploaded.

Thank you for supporting me and please, PLEASE stay safe online and irl, especially with everything going on with the US government. I love you all (/p) and I hope you have a great day. Lots of love from your local enby dragon.

~ 💜🖤

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TW/CW: Death, Heavy Angst, mentions of SA, mentions of su!c!de, and other topics that some may find triggering!

This story isn't for everyone, so if anything I listed makes you uncomfortable or you don't like it, I suggest you leave now. You have been warned, so don't say I didn't warn you

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So, my D&D group is planning an isekai campaign. If you don't know what an isekai is, it's where a character dies and is reincarnated into another world. There is a scene that happens with my character's little brother that's never going to happen in the campaign, so I thought I'd share it with you guys!

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Elliot bounced on his toes at the train platform, excited to see his big sister. She had been away for a few days searching for colleges, but today she was finally coming home! He even wore his favorite sweater for the occasion. This 11-year-old boy was alone, however. His parents were too busy to greet their daughter, just like they were too busy to even help their son with schoolwork. But Elliot didn't care, it was their loss.

Suddenly, he heard a scream as well as sirens. Strange, usually the sirens weren't so close to the station. They always drove past the station before. Elliot looked around and noticed a group of people, as well as a train that was derailed. Surely that wasn't the train his big sister was on, right? He should probably check, just to make sure. There's no way it's her train.

So, Elliot hopped off the train platform and ran over to the crowd of people. He could barely see what was going on, since he was so small, but he weaved his way through the crowd to see first responders dragging out various bodies. It was horrific, people were throwing up at the sight, cursing under their breath, and overall just mortified. Who wouldn't be with a sight as disturbing as that?

That's when Elliot noticed a firefighter standing off to the side, barking orders at his team. He was holding someone in his arms like they were his bride. Elliot could barely make out who the person was, but he noticed and immediately recognized the limp arm he could see that had a black and purple glove with a unique design around the wrist.

No...

He rushed over to the firefighter, ignoring the people yelling at him to get back and that it was dangerous. The fire chief turned and his eyes widened as he watched the little boy running towards him.

"Kid, this area is off-limits! Please go back to where the crowd is!" He said. His voice was stern, but he was very clearly worried about the young boy.

With the fire chief turned around, Elliot could finally see the face of his fatally injured big sister. Tears began to well up in his eyes at the sight of his unconscious big sister.

"Th-That's my big sister your holding!" Elliot said, clearly trying to keep his composure. He'd never experienced the death of a loved one before.

"This is your sister, kid?" The fire chief said, gesturing to Elliot's sister with his head. Elliot nodded. "Don't worry, kid. She's still got a pulse, so we think she's going to make it. An ambulance is on its way, but where are your parents?"

"Th-They're both at work. I-I can give you their ph-phone numbers if you'd like," Elliot said, trying his best to stay calm.

"Alright, you can call them when we reach the hospital. What's your name, kid?"

"I-I'm Elliot Nickerson," Elliot said, grabbing the limp arm of his sister. "My big sister's name is Tara Nickerson. She's going to be okay, right?"

"Don't worry, Elliot, your sister will be okay," the fire chief said. The sound of ambulance sirens started to grow louder. "She's going to make it."

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Elliot sat in the chair next to the hospital bed Tara was lying in, holding her hand, listening to the heart monitor making various beeps. His parents soon entered the room and took seats on the other side of the bed. His parents didn't say anything to Elliot. What could they even say? Their daughter was dancing on the line of life and death and their 11-year-old son had never experienced such a loss before.

Not too long after his parents arrived, Elliot looked up to see the doctor walk in. His face had a tired expression, but he also looked heartbroken. Elliot didn't understand why the doctor was sad. Tara was going to be okay, after all! Right?

"Are you two Mr. and Mrs. Nickerson?" The doctor asked, looking over at Elliot's parents.

"Yes, we are," his mother said. She looked like she was about to cry. Elliot had never seen his mother cry before. She was always so cold and stern.

"And you are...?" The doctor turned his attention to Elliot.

"I'm Tara's little brother," Elliot said quickly, sitting up straight in his seat.

"Well, unfortunately, we've done everything we could, but I don't think Miss Tara is going to make it," the doctor said with a solemn look in his eyes.

"Wh-What?" Elliot's father said quietly. Elliot never once heard his father yell, but that didn't mean his father was easy to please. It was quite the opposite. "Are you serious? There's no way to save her?"

The doctor lightly shook his head. "Her heartbeat is too slow and she's lost so much blood from such fatal injuries. There's no way we can save her."

Elliot felt tears well up in his eyes once again. He looked back at his sister, who looked so peaceful, and quietly began to sob. The doctor said something about letting the family be there, for the 19-year-old girl's last few moments, but Elliot didn't fully make out what the doctor said before he left.

"T-Tara... p-please," Elliot pleaded in-between sobs. "You h-have to live for me. Y-You promised th-that you'd live a long life with me! You p-promised that you'd come to my high school graduation! You promised me! Please, Tara!"

The young boy sobbed and soon, the heart monitor made one slow, but steady, long beep, indicating that Tara was gone. Elliot's sobs grew louder as he heard the sound of the monitor and he laid his head on top of his sister's chest, which was no longer rising or falling from breathing.

"DON'T LEAVE ME!!" he shouted before he just gave up and sobbed loudly.

Elliot's parents looked at each other, tears falling from their own eyes watching their daughter pass and their son break down in tears. They looked into each other's eyes with a knowing look that said that they would be better parents for their son, in hopes that they wouldn't lose him too.

Elliot didn't want to leave Tara's side, but his parents couldn't let him stay there, so his father picked him up and he screamed and cried as his father carried him out of the room and away from his big sister.

The car ride home was silent, even with the sounds of Elliot's quiet sniffles. Maybe it was his fault that his sister was gone. He had touched her after she came home from school that one day when she had to stay behind in her history class and she yelled at him to not touch her. Her eyes were wide when she yelled at him.

There was also that time when her best friend was murdered and she cut off a lot of her hair. He tried to tell her that he liked her long hair, but she snapped at him and said that he wouldn't understand. He must've pushed her over the edge, so therefore it was his fault, right?

Then why did she hug him after he convinced her not to jump? Why did she teach him how to braid hair and then braid a part of his hair with a soft smile? Why did she always go out of her way to help him with homework, despite having her own homework to do? Was it truly because he was a bad brother? No, no he was a good brother, he truly was. But maybe this was the universe's punishment for him not being good enough.

Elliot didn't know the answer. But he knew that it wasn't fair that his sister was gone.

He never wore his favorite sweater again after that day.

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Sorry it's so long, but I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did writing it!

~ 💜🖤

⚠️ SPOILERS FOR WONDERLUST EPISODE 12 ⚠️

Here are the updated notes, sorry it's so late, I had a busy day today! I will miss Rocket/Troy Jr/Whisper so much, I loved the baby Cerberus sm. Just the image of Runt holding the puppo in her arms is so stinking cute, I will miss the baby.

Bro, Generation Loss is going to be 2 years old in, like, a little over a month from now, that's crazy to me. You have no idea how much that show inspired me creatively. It's part of the reason I love overanalyzing stuff I enjoy, like Wonderlust or the ASMP. Hell, I have a whole NOTEBOOK dedicated to my theories and observations for GenLoss.

This show came to me during a time I really needed it. I was still dealing with the loss of my grandmother and I was stressed out from school. And then episode 1 came out, then 2, and then 3. I couldn't be there for the live streams of episode 1 and 2 because of tech issues (ep 1) and choir stuff (ep 2), but I was there for episode 3 and it was beautiful.

GenLoss is genuinely still one of my biggest hyperfixations. I got one of the posters from the store for my birthday last year, I started making edits for it, and it even inspired me to start my own horror project! So, overall, yes, I'm gushing about how much I love Generation Loss as a whole because the story is incredible and it's inspired me so much and I genuinely think you should check it out too.

Thank you Ranboo for making something so incredible that my brothers are sick of hearing me talk about it and thank you to the Generation Loss community for being the best fandom I've ever been a part of. Oh, and thank you to the fan-made GenLoss theorizing Discord server for being there and helping me understand the lore of the video game (which I have yet to touch lol).

Alrighty, that's enough gushing, Imma go pass out now. Good night :3

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⚠️ SPOILERS FOR WONDERLUST EPISODE 16 ⚠️

FUCK IT, I'll just copy and paste my shit because that's just easier, so enjoy my notes for Wonderlust! Apologies for not posting for the last episode, I've been busy irl, BUT I AM BACK WITH IT! Also, I love WD and Ripley, I need them to kiss at least once in this campaign or I will call Bizly homophobic (/hj). Enjoy!

Troy Lougferd (He/Him)

- His real name is Tramilton Lougferd

- Presumably captured by Aeon (Bizly said 'she' for the person who captured Troy), who forces him to stay with Blink

- How does Aeon know his real name?

- If he fails to stay with Blink, he can't go home

- Perhaps that's why he clings to Blink's side, out of fear of what will happen to him if he fails

- There are theories that he's clockwork, just like the soldiers

- He doesn't have a good relationship with his father

- Troy has committed war crimes??

- He has ulterior motives

- I feel like he knows more than he's letting on

- I don't trust him

- Dislikes snakes

- Charlie has mentioned that he will get worse as the campaign continues, but just how bad will he get?

- Dangerous and always seems to do reckless things that get other people hurt, including his teammates

- He doesn't care about the consequences of his actions (i.e., getting Runt, Blink, and Ripley banned from Oasis Flora)

- Did not hesitate to harass Lint after coming back just because he did something to become popular

- Dumb as fuck

- He licked fucking acid, wtf is wrong with him (he blamed Runt lmao)

- He's able to override the clockwork soldiers with a command

- "Lougferd Override: Level 3/4/5/6"

- Genuinely insane, holy shit

- Motherfucker thinks he's a Disney princess with all the animals he's collecting lol

- Envies Grey's relationship with his father (daddy issues, let's goooo)

- Bro downed a potion that made him grow, oh my god-

- He fucking pissed on a fire elemental because he thought it was funny, I genuinely wonder what is wrong with this man (a lot, obviously)

- The weird creature he got in Oasis Flora is now attached to his body

- That isn't concerning at all, nope, totally not /sar

- He is not a girls girl

- Bro's in his male wife era, awesome

- He has a spoiler on his sled now :0

Runt (She/Her)

- She has cousins in the Street Rats, Doppler, and Pinch (he's the leader, I think)

- She lives with her Uncle Threestrings, and her grandmother works at the apothecary

- Doppler gets captured when they go up to the surface and disappears

- Troy tells her that the clockwork soldiers just throw stuff back into the hole, so why hasn't Doppler turned up?

- Due to her failing the mission, she is kicked out of the Street Rats and is no longer allowed to visit their headquarters

- She found a purple crystal known as Wonder Coal while she was on the surface

- Distrusting of Troy after finding out both he and Blink lied about who he truly is (specifically, that he's not Yort or from Reclaim/Cogtopolis)

- Claims to be Is the smartest girl in the city

- Scared of Troy because of his actions and how he's constantly putting everyone in danger

- Hates being called little or anything to do with the fact that she's different

- Needs a doctor (will be discussed in a later episode)

- Her leg braces help her walk, run, and jump better

- She coughed up blood at the end of episode 10 (holy shit, don't kill my gal, I will begin sobbing)

- Her grandma knows that she's ill

- It might be a disease either in her lungs or in her throat

- Her condition began to worsen about 2 months before episode 1

- That's also when she started trying to join the Street Rats

- She's essentially dying (if she dies, I will not be okay)

- The cold does not help her condition (obviously lol)

- Grey admires her strength and her will to keep going, despite her illness (awwww)

- There's an herb on the mountain that can help treat her illness, but it won't cure it

- It lowered the DC of Con Saves and can override a point of exhaustion 3 times

- Found admiration in what Troy can do (I love her so much)

- I think Troy turned her religious-

- I'm so confused TwT

- Nevermind, she's good now

- SHE QUOTED TAL FROM THE BALDUR'S GATE 3 VIDEO, LET'S GOOOO

- She has made it to Cogtopolis, let's go! Time to find the Inventor!

- She referenced Troy's "You dude!" Oh mah gaw

- Nobody believes her when she says that Apollo brought her to Cogtopolis

- She thinks Apollo is very pretty (that's so sweet, aw)

Blink (He/Him)

- Has a history with Aeon, the leader of the Vixens

- They used to be friends, so what the hell caused them to have a falling out?

- Their mutual friend, Candle, was killed because Blink made a mistake

- Knows a lot of people in the Sorting District

- Lives a life of struggle (evidently, he doesn't even have a house, and Graphite lets him spend nights at his place)

- He's very willing to help people out, no matter what (Granny Granite, Troy, etc.)

- Very paranoid and cautious all the time, probably because of the Vixens

- Knows of and (probably) works for The Inventor, but has no knowledge about him

- At risk for a heart attack because of his device and from getting electrocuted

- In a situationship with the Overseer?? Maybe?

- He doesn't have a thing for feet (as Condi said so aggressively lmao)

- Bro is fucking done with Troy (based lol)

- Medusa gave him the confidence to stand up to Troy

- She trained his ass to beat Troy's ass, awesome

- They're besties now, I love that (they do be shit talking Troy)

WD (She/Her)

- She is a fox-hybrid played by Milo :0

- She lives in Cogtopolis and is working on a way out by getting rid of the cave-in

- She's old friends with Ripley, but they got separated because of the cave-in

- She called Ripley really pretty, so I have a feeling that they might be gay :3

- Friends with a koala hybrid named Carpet

- Knows her way around Cogtopolis pretty easily and knows a lot of people

- She works for The Inventor in his secondary lab in Cogtopolis

- A lot of her tools were made by Ripley (we love lesbians)

- She definitely seems to have feelings for Ripley (yippee, lesbians!)

- She hasn't seen Ripley for a while and is desperate to get out of Cogtopolis and find her

Other:

- Clockwork soldiers are patrolling more frequently and can now speak

- Mai is missing after going back home to The Hole

- There are no more races until she is found

- She was in the dungeon that Troy was sent down

- The Inventor is missing after using the teleporter

- The Street Rats are referred to as Relicites by the citizens of Wonder

- People say that they aren't real

- Mai, and Doppler, are at this "Overseer Island"

- Borris mentions The Overseer, but who the hell is that?

- The Overseer is obtaining information from the Street Rats. He has sketches of The Inventor, Ripley, Professor Cross, and Troy

- Why does he have sketches of those people??

- How does he know about the civilization in the hole??

- The Overseer needs The Inventor and needs Ripley captured

- He needs The Inventor because The Inventor will give him power

- The Overseer is suspicious, the way he acts and speaks seems very calculated. It freaks me out

- The Overseer wants Aeon removed from her position of power

- Pinch is working for The Overseer???

- The Overseer hired him to find the Inventor

- He struck a deal with The Overseer to keep Doppler safe

- The Overseer and his soldiers know everything about the Street Rats, including where they live

- It could also be that he has known this entire time that there is a city below his very feet

- Mai is from Reclaim, a bunny-human hybrid

- The Mountaineers are a group of people who live near a mountain that is seemingly very dangerous. They also harvest the Wonderous Coal that is used for power

- The Mountain has 4 tiers, each different from each other. The first tier is a warm, forest area that gave the group 1d10 temporary hit points

- I wonder what the other tiers are like

- There's a chance that since the Wonderous Coal powers everything in Wonder and Reclaim, the forest on the first tier of the Mountain is magical from the coal's properties

- The forest has vague remnants of a place called Farindell (probably spelled that wrong lmao). None of the party has heard of that place

- They also don't know what elves are

- Dark Elves fought Farindell, their place was called Holdstead

- The Wonderous Coal isn't natural, it just appeared out of nowhere. When it originally showed up, no one knew what to do with it

- Fire, Water, and Earth elementals exist in a cave within the forest :0

- There's a stone that controls them

- THEY'RE AT THE PRIME DEFENDERS BASE, TF?? (I need to watch Prime Defenders-)

- Fartbo is there and there's a hologram of Tide talking about the Prime Force

- The statues are of Dakota Cole, William Wisp, Vyncent Sol, and Ashe Winters (I need to get a job and watch this show, wtf-)

- The layers in order are: Prime Defenders, Blood In The Bayou, (to be added to in the next episode)

- APOLLO??? LIKE THE GREEK GOD?? HOLY SHIT, LET'S GOO

- Medusa is here, yippee! We love Medusa

- She is so done with Troy (real)

- She gave Blink a brace that can cast Mage Armor, let's goooo

- She's a girls girl fr

- She's so fucking cool

- GRIZZLY HAS A NEW CHARACTER?! WTF?!

- His name is Julius :0

- He better not replace mah girl (he probably won't, it's most likely just like Goobleck)

- Full name: Damian Augustus Julius Caesar (:0 reference holy shit)

- He ded (I got attached to him TwT)

- Julius and Medusa are both cursed to remain within the maze until one of them can best the other and win the Gods' favor to set them free

- Aeon is at the University of Dreamers and Doers

- H O W?!

- Cogtopolis is entirely within the clock in Airhart. It extends down to Reclaim and this is where the Future Thinkers reside

- It seems like the cave-in has prevented food from getting into the city

- There are mostly Reclaim citizens, as far as Runt can tell

- The people are angry with the Future Thinkers because they are so focused on getting out without causing another cave-in

- Ripley is human, so would that mean the Inventor could be too?

- The Future Thinkers believe there is only one right way to do things and disregard anything or anyone that says otherwise, such as Ripley (she deserves better 😤)

So, my older brother is spending his spring break at home with me and my family, which means he's staying in my room with me because we always grew up sharing a room. Now, I've gotten used to the bedroom just being mine because he has an apartment, which means he lives there until the lease ends.

So, since he is visiting, I get SO scared that I'm being too loud at night because I'm so used to it just being me. Like, even before I was careful because my parents' room is literally a wall away from mine and I don't want my dad to wake up grumpy and start yelling at me, but it's SO MUCH WORSE because he's literally in the same room as me!

I have a bunk bed and he's LITERALLY RIGHT BELOW ME WHILE I'M WATCHING STUPID VIDEOS WAITING TO BE TIRED!! And even then, I have to quietly bring my computer down from my bed (the top bunk) so I can play music while I sleep and and every time I make a noise that feels just the tiniest bit too loud, I freak the fuck out-

I'm not mad that my brother is visiting, I love seeing him, I'm just so scared I'll wake him up and he'll yell at me for being too loud TwT

I yelled at my dad today. I didn't mean to, it's just... those stupid cameras appeared again today and they won't go away and it's freaking me out. so, I yelled for him and he asked me what was wrong.

I told him that there were cameras in all of the corners of my room, because there was! and he looked around and he looked back at me all confused. he said that there weren't any cameras, so I told him again that there were cameras in my room. and he didn't believe me!

he said that I should calm down and take another look around the room, just to make sure what I'm seeing is really there. and I did and those cameras were still there, so I reiterated it to him. and he said rather firmly that there weren't any cameras in my room and that I must be seeing things.

I got so mad at him for saying that that I snapped at him and I yelled at him. I'm pretty sure I was just yelling that there were in fact cameras in my room and I was scared because someone was watching me, but I don't fully remember it. all I remember is that after I was done yelling, he hugged me. which is weird because he's not really a hugger.

he said something about how everything around me was real and that I was safe and I kinda just hugged him back and zoned out. after he left, I double checked all the corners of the room. I thought that maybe he was right and I was just seeing things.

the fucking cameras were still there, pointed directly at me.

watching me.

About The Creator (aka, the idiot (/hj) running this account, me :D)

Hi there! Welcome to my account! I am known as L, Draco, and/or Orchid! I've been making stories since April 10th, 2019! Yes, I have been doing this for a long time, and no, I do not regret any of it.

I mainly post Gacha/photo edits or perhaps video spoilers, but I also post little scenes I want to write, videos that I can't upload onto YouTube (because it's blocked everywhere), and any other random bullshit that I feel like posting. So, I pretty much post whatever I want, whenever I want!

I'm in a LOT of fandoms (and I mean A LOT). However, I prefer to post stuff with my OCs and my OCs in AUs. That doesn't stop me from posting fandom content though! The main fandoms I post are Generation Loss by Ranboo and my Undertale (by Toby Fox) AU, Dragontale! You may have seen my GenLoss edits on YouTube and/or TikTok. If you want the full list of the fandoms I'm in, then we'd be here for a while.

Here's some basic info about me!

- Gender/Pronouns: I'm Non-binary and I use They/Them pronouns!

- Sexuality: Lesbian, Asexual, and Demiromantic

- Age: An adult (check my bio for the exact number if you're that curious)

- Languages: I am unfortunately only fluent in American English, but I'm learning other languages in hopes of making my content more available to the public!

- Story inspirations: Real-life experiences, dreams, other stories, people in my daily life, and so much more!

- Discrimination of any kind will not be tolerated (i.e. racism, homophobia, transphobia, etc.)

What do you typically write?

I mostly write long-form and/or short-form stories, but I also enjoy writing poems! I started seriously writing when I was 13 and I haven't looked back! However, if I make a mistake, please don't hesitate to correct me! I may be fluent in English and a writer, but my spelling and grammar tend to fail me all the time.

HOWEVER, my stories tend to contain topics that some may find triggering! I will ALWAYS put a trigger warning for my videos, stories, and edits, but it's safe to say that this account is meant for those 13 and older. If I ever misrepresent something I write, again, please do not hesitate to correct me! I am learning things as I go, and even though I have been educated on a lot of topics, I still will mess things up!

What kind of content do you hope to post here?

As stated before, I'll mainly do Gacha/photo edits, some scenes I want to write into my stories, videos that are blocked on YouTube, and maybe I'll do video spoilers, who knows? Well, I do, but that's beside the point. If there's anything specific that you want to see, feel free to leave some suggestions in the comments!

You're also more than welcome to post theories you have about my OCs and their lore! I won't tell you if you're right or wrong, but it'll be fun to see people get into something that I've made! Headcanons are fine too, but don't argue about it in the comments please, I'm too tired to deal with that.

Where else can I find you and your stories?

You can check out my linktree! It has all of my socials and even a little project I'm working on! I will say that sometimes, you will see me, like person me, not Gacha character me on those accounts. I will say this now, please do not pressure me to do a face reveal. I have a lot of reasons for not showing my face online and I'm probably never going to do one. Please respect that.

And that's pretty much it! If you have any questions, feel free to put them in the comments and I'll answer them! Thank you for taking the time to read this!

~ 💜🖤

That moment when Runt from JRWI Wonderlust suddenly becomes way too relatable and it causes you to remember something that happened to you 7 or 8 years ago-

Context under cut, tw/cw for bullying, manipulation, and a toxic relationship if you want to know the context

This was something that happened in 6th grade, which was obviously a long time ago for me now, but that scene with Runt yelling at WD for lying made me remember this moment that I had nearly forgotten about. Again, this happened a while ago, so bear with me because I may not remember all the details.

There was this boy I had been friends with since elementary school, his name was Nic. He was in my last two classes of the day in 6th grade, which were history and math. In my history class, he treated me like a friend, because I was his friend, and for some time in my math class, he treated me like a friend then too.

However, my math teacher switched up the seating arrangements and had me sit next to a girl, with Nic and another boy behind me. The girl and the boy didn't treat me very well. They were both bullies to me and would say horrible things about me whenever they got the chance. And Nic joined them. He was suddenly not my friend anymore, but also still was at the same time.

That shit hurt, especially since I hadn't done anything to anyone. The biggest thing that the girl and boy would tell me is that my breath smells or I smell in general. And that hurt, because no matter how hard I tried, it was never enough to get them to stop and I felt trapped. I don't remember if I ended up moving seats to get away from them or if I put up with it until the teacher changed the seating chart again.

It was genuinely the most confusing experience for me because outside of math class, Nic was still my childhood friend, until we stepped foot in math class. It was so frustrating and confusing and to this day, I still don't understand why he did that to me. I haven't spoken to him or seen him since high school, and I didn't really talk to him during high school either. But yeah.

God, middle school was such a shitty time for me.