Digital-dissociation-blog - Digital Dissociation

Truthfully.. I dont feel love for you in my heart anymore. Not in the same way. It makes me so sad. I mourn the death of my happiness. I buried it alive and smothered it to death in graveyard dirt. But... I dont want to love you anymore. You were too much of a pain to my soul. It wasn’t meant to be. I was merely clinging to fallout. You were my whole world, but the planet that was us is gone and now im floating aimlessly through space without a meaning to my life anymore. Maybe I will find a new planet.... maybe I’ll be hit by a comet. We’ll just have to see I guess.

The hope cannot be found

Mood.

7/2/19

10:20pm

6lbs down in a week so far, pretty excited about that.

370c for dinner, the only meal I eat.

Half a bowl smoked,

In such a weird fucking mindset today, I don't understand. I don't understand this feeling in my chest. What are you trying to tell me?

Slept 5 hours today, but not very good.

My mother is talking to and potentially dating a man I'm not very fond of, I hate it.

What is this fucking feeling engulfing me? 

Letters to my parents, pt. 7

If I kill myself in daydreams enough times will it finally be real?

Please?

I can make it look like an accident so nobody cares or is sad

Just let me go now please

Please..?