well. yes!
I Got Heaven-Mannequin Pussy
i dream of my lesbian wedding often, i want it to be quiet and secret— just for us and the few people we like well enough to invite. butchfemme wedding can live in my mind for as long as it likes, because i’m not evicting it.
uni has been such a weird and alienating experience, granted i’m in my first year and it’s a huge place but it seems like everyone knows eachother and that everything is going smoothly.i went in thinking id make so many friends and feel content with my choices but my mental health has been deteriorating and my doctors (who are male and i swear that has an impact) don’t understand what im trying to say.
i’m forever going to want someone to be straight forward with me. if i’m doing too much if im doing too little. if they like me or hate me. i need to be convinced they don’t hate me and it’s such a bad trait bc at the start it’s seen as cute and “oh she’s shy” or like im inexperienced and then it slowly evolves into me being a beg and needing confirmation that what im saying is ok. this is such bull but yeah i just wanted to blab
i hate when people are nonchalant even when i give them a way out. like im asking you, if you don’t want to talk, you don’t have to but they don’t take it. they’ll still reply with the most blandest shit and it’s not like i want much i just want to have a convo
Lorde’s first notes for still sane, buzzcut season, and team
i hate this so much like THEY ARE NOT MINE but i want them to be… mind you we don’t live in the same country.. there’s gotta be something chemically wrong with my brain to feel this need
Even if I don't end up wifed up to a butch in the future, even if I become an elderly femme with an empty bed and an additional, never sat on chair by the dining table, I will still love butches with my whole heart.
All the same.
Help them, support them, amplify their voices in the community.
Perhaps bake them an apple pie and make them pierogi for dinner with some kompot to drink :']
I ♡ butches.
Stone Butch Blues, Leslie Feinberg
ramblings of an 18 year old lesbian.she/they femme
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