“We Are A Way For The Cosmos To Know Itself”

life is about getting through the day without crying

Hard to consider a certain level of personal growth and improvement when you can't get over something simple as an affair. We do everything so fast, we get to know each other, we send everyday text messages, we fall in love, kiss, have fights, get apart, get back together, get apart again and one day end up not talking to each other ever again. However we miss each other, whisper a name, a word, a feeling, but we are too proud to send a message, to proud to say how much we miss each other and then we let it die but it is never actually dead, somewhere inside you can still feel it and some times you wonder about how could it be if it ever worked out.

You will never know because you don't want to try to go after the person, you don't want to risk yourself, to hear a 'no', to get a cold message, you don't want to hurt yourself and your memories, you rather let it be the way it is.

"It is better this way."

But it is not. It is just safer. You don't want to be rejected by that person you care so much about. That person you have so many warm dreams about and get lost on thoughts imagining a perfect life together. You don't wanna risk all of that.

You just let it die.

Some relaxing short videos I took to help with sleep or calming ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭* ☆彡

Some types of people can deeply bother me,I won't talk about the ones that makes me feel angry but those who can make me perplexed.

PEOPLE WITHOUT GOALS

In my head the only thing I can't think when someone starts the answer to "what do you plan on doing now/this year/whenever?" with a "maybe" is: how?

How can someone be so "plan-free" or insecure about their own wishes that they can't answer it with "I will" or "I want to" ?

I might not know what I will for sure do, but I definitely have more than one concrete plan for this time in question. I might not know if the plan A or B will work but if know I have for sure a plan C or some variation of the previous ones. I don't know what I will be doing next year, no one knows, no one can predict the future, but I know what I want to do, what I'm working forward to do.

I don't like people without goals, without a single dream, without a plan. I guess it is due the fact I'm really obsessed with organization and planning everything, workouts, meals, tasks, etc. I try my best to keep an spreadsheet or some type of mental note of what I need to do or want to accomplish and I honestly don't know how people can live without doing so.

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Art by exellero

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