“i Don’t Like Writing About My Day, But I Want To Keep A Journal”:

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Disney Fathers

A father loves you

He teaches you about the world

He loves spending time with you

He loves to make you smile and laugh

And being your father makes him smile

He watches over you

He is always ready to protect you

And he will fight to keep you safe

He gives you advice when you need it

And is there for you when you’re sad

He helps you find out who you are

And he learns from you as well

He supports you and your dreams

Even when no one else does

He wants you to achieve your goals and fly

And he is proud when you succeed 

No matter how far you go, he’ll be there when you return

No matter how long you were gone

He will always miss you

He prepares you for the world as best he can

And lets you go explore it

No matter what, he will always love you

The one that raised you might not have been a true father

But somewhere in the world you will find a father

Your father might be a brother

Or a teacher

Or a stepdad

Or a friend

But they will be there for you

And they will love you

And support you

And you will find them 

Because everyone has a father somewhere

i love you for posting this! My heart is so full of love ^_^ thank you!!!

one of the best realizations I have had as I have grown up is how amazing it is to show up for the people you love, unashamedly and unapologetically. show up to their classical music productions when you don't know anything about that kind of music, their chemistry club meetings when you are a literature student and don't know anything about chemistry but your bestie is doing cool experiments with copper sulphate, the very alluring blue portion you were tempted to drink in school cause it looked so magical. show up when they wake up from a long nap and have missed dinner and are feeling shitty, make them maggi and get them their fave chocolate. show up when they rant about animal documentaries excitedly and listen when they tell you the plot of jujustu kaisan at 4 am during exam week. take a walk with them at 11 pm in night because they told you you have no classes tomorrow so come down (it's their emotionally suppressed way of saying I miss you). cuddle with them to sleep because they are scared of thunderstorms. make them an art piece and write them a love letter for their birthday to show them you love them so much and you will never stop probably and that scares you sometimes but their presence will reassure you always. I know you know that they know that you love them but when you gift them your "an incomplete list of things you love about them" in your shitty handwriting they will smile and cry and choke you in a hug for 5 mins, it will be a smile spilling out of the sun and it'll be so worth it always. reply to their messages of hey "your name" except your name gets weirder and weirder cause they are bored and miss you and wanna talk and even if you are busy and tired , do return some of their affection with a small message that yes, you missed them too even though you are too tired to express. give them your fave drawing and you'll see how they have hung it up on their cork board in their dorm room. tell them to spam their earring collections and marvel over their strawberry earrings. send them a video message when they send you their jiggly caramel pudding video because omg they can cook now and you are so happy for them that you want to portal through the phone and hug them (you're gonna give them a recipe notebook for their birthday). let them rant on the phone while you fold your laundry, it's manageable mostly.

there are days when you can't show up and it's okay and they'll understand, most people who love you do, they should. but gosh, putting in effort in any relationship isn't that the best thing? because they are not just worth your love, the point of worth never even comes cause they are the very meaning of love. because God remember what Miyazaki said when you love someone you inspire each other to live and grow even when you recognize how hard living is. growing is difficult but you love growing with them.

I used to think I love people too much but you know what they love me too much too. so when someone asked richard siken what do you do when you love someone too much he said congratulate yourself. and today I am congratulating myself cause I know the loves of my life are doing that too.

aaaaaa they're on a DAET!

It sucks to go through this. The time period I spent in the mental hospital where on this side of my life the professors completed more than half the syllabus in my absence. Now I am sitting in ppts and Google articles. I can't process so much of information at once, I am only human. I am eating, information. I feel delirious half the time. YouTube helps but to see, grasp, process and store the information is inhuman where I eat 10 meds everyday.

me: *is aware that my health can and probably will get worse over time*

my health: *gets worse*

me:

a note from mitski

i came out as ace and agender at a pride event at our college! cried my eyes out and felt very loved and seen, lovely people, happy, here's a picture from that day hehe <3

What’s something good that happened to everybody in 2022? Big or small. Let’s spread some positivity

Can't find either of the Kindles lmao

on a side note, I quit smoking, it's awesome