Vaguely Religious Thoughts Are Back, Drop All Friends When School Is Done, Break Up With Partners, (try

“you could’ve just asked for my attention” you dont! get it!!!! its not the same!!

I should've brought my blades with me to school today. i was so close to putting them in my bag yesterday and I should've.

i really really fucking need to right now and I can't go home for another 2 hours.

gonna fucking die or something

current mood is wanting to fucking cry, scream, and rip my skin apart and hair out but actually I'm just sitting doom scrolling or watching youtube letting these feelings sit because you just don't have the will to do any of those things.

i don't wanna speak, I don't wanna do any form of communication, I don't wanna type or write, I don't wanna talk. i don't wanna move. i don't wanna do anything.

again.

again.

again.

i just want to not exist, just wanna lay and rot, just wanna die.

3 months without a response feels like dying.

“whats your plan b?” - suicide

we are all born to die right? so is it wrong of me to speed up the process?

How are you supposed to just get up and go to school and go to work and come home and make dinner and fold the laundry and not want to kill yourself the whole fucking time.

why's the depression strong right now

“Way to high, I'm way too drunk

I'm not gonna cry from the things I've done”