I Feel Like I Didn't Come Into The World Screaming. My Sibling Was Born Angry And Loud, The World Wasn't
I feel like I didn't come into the world screaming. My sibling was born angry and loud, the world wasn't ready for them, but I don't hear the same story about myself, just that I came out with hair and fingernails, that I wasn't ready to come into the world yet. I'm quiet, not nimble, but quiet. I scare people when they don't hear my footsteps, I always need to raise my voice to be heard, but it doesn't make me feel safe. I can't shout when I'm scared, I can't scream when my emotions bottle up, I physically can't talk to anyone because the words hurt to say. I hate that everything is quiet. I love music. I listen to screaming sometimes. But I hate being overwhelmed with the sound of people. People are volatile. People are angry. I'm never angry, not if I'm hidden away. But then I have to leave my safe space, and it's not just the normal bad parts of the world I become afraid of. Sometimes you know you're safe, but people act like they will betray that trust you have for them. Then had for them. But they're everything. You have to have hope they won't do this again, as long as you stay in line. You can't bring this up again. You have to be quiet again. But my thoughts are never quiet. But that's just my problem, then.
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Alice Fucking Oseman made me know pain and joy lol
Tab system:
Orange: "Wait, That's Me." (Relating too hard to Georgia)
Yellow: "Ace Pain." (i.e. "Being asexual, I felt that, ouch")
Green: "Ace Joy." (i.e. "Being asexual, I felt that, thank you Alice :)")
Light Pink: "RAGE" (Getting angry at the scenario or characters)
Dark Pink: "Outlier" (Moments I will probably quote or wish happened to me, like having a Pip, Rooney, Jason, Sunil, Jess or Ellis)
+ page 5: Alice, when I catch you, Alice.
There's so much skin torn off my lips that I don't even need to speak. But I can't help but wonder that when they look at me, do they know about what I won't tell them?
me covering up my neck area the second any "skin" is exposed, I'm hiding my binder from my family:
Me, making the anxiety of hiding this from them for now until I'm ready to show even my mom to let her know what's up, internally: I AM SPIDERMAN
so I came across this on my fyp and I think that this person is a comedic genius-
I did go onto ChatGPT.
I did get results, based on the fictional crushes I've had since I was a teenager and what I recently developed (that I could remember from ten minutes ago, help me if I even remember what I'm hyperfixated on this week)
I'm going to give a list of my fictional crushes and you will analyse them, and tell me what my type is and what it says about me as a person.
- Bakugo Katsuki from My Hero Academia
- Sero Hanta from My Hero Academia
- Jirou Kyoka from My Hero Academia
- Leo Valdez from Heroes of Olympus
- Pietro Maximoff from Avengers Rise of Ultron
- James Potter from Harry Potter (but like Hogwarts age, and written by a fanfic writer)
- Ben Hargreaves from The Umbrella Academy
- Rosa Diaz from Brooklyn 99
Based on your list of fictional crushes, a few patterns emerge that can help define your type and what it might say about you as a person:
1. **Confident and Strong Personalities**: Characters like Bakugo, Jirou, and Rosa exhibit strong, assertive traits. This suggests you may be drawn to individuals who are self-assured and unafraid to express themselves. You likely appreciate people who are unapologetically themselves.
2. **Complex Characters**: Many of your crushes, like Ben Hargreaves and Pietro Maximoff, have intricate backstories and personal struggles. This indicates you might be attracted to depth and nuance, valuing characters who face challenges and evolve over time.
3. **Sense of Humor**: Sero and Leo both bring humor and light-heartedness to their stories. You may appreciate wit and a playful approach to life, indicating you value fun and joy in relationships.
4. **Loyalty and Friendship**: Characters like James Potter and Leo Valdez emphasize strong bonds and loyalty to friends. This suggests you may value loyalty and camaraderie in your own relationships, seeing it as an important quality in potential partners.
5. **Diverse Representation**: Your interest in characters from various backgrounds and stories indicates an openness to diversity and a willingness to explore different perspectives. You likely appreciate multifaceted characters that challenge stereotypes.
Overall, your type seems to reflect a blend of strength, complexity, humor, and loyalty. You might be someone who values authenticity and depth in both fictional characters and real-life relationships, seeking connections that are meaningful and engaging.
Like- damn- now that you mention it. This makes sense, I feel like this reasonates with me. I enjoyed this crystal ball exercise, it was surprisingly introspective and I will now never use this information to date someone. I almost forgot during this that I am scared of people lol.
Reblog/like this if you’re LGBTQ+ and run an active blog in 2024.
Trying to find new blogs to follow. 🫶🏻
probably the best advice I've ever got was from my grandpa when I moved from my town and started a university, he told me to leave the house everytime when I start to feel down, just to go to the park, a supermarket, a bookstore, to even drive in a bus or tram, just be around other people because staying at home all the time kills you; and you know he was right
✷ Reid 20 he/they/she infj 9w1 ✷ fiction writer and compulsively asocial, first time blogger ✒ first blog (emphasis)
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