My Skinny Scientist Guy Of Choice

kennel (prints)

this bitch

mayfly problematic age gap of 2 hours

(watching hardcore porn) derivative. it insists upon itself. not even a dutch angle could- hold on (cums) sorry. not even a dutch angle could save this trite

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

HAPPY (LATE) BIRTHDAY TERUKI!!!

common spiny flower mantis, as an apology for the hiatus🌷

genuinely wild to me when I go to someone's house and we watch TV or listen to music or something and there are ads. I haven't seen an ad in my home since 2005. what do you mean you haven't set up multiple layers of digital infrastructure to banish corporate messaging to oblivion before it manifests? listen, this is important. this is the 21st century version of carving sigils on the wall to deny entry to demons or wearing bells to ward off the Unseelie. come on give me your router admin password and I'll show you how to cast a protective spell of Get Thee Tae Fuck, Capital

the main mental disorders people are really “”sympathetic”” to are depression & anxiety but even then it’s always abundantly clear that there is a very distinct limit to what society sees as acceptable and pitiable. and once someone goes over that it’s “what the fuck is wrong with you” and “why can’t you stop being like this” and. well you know